One of those videos is the currently ongoing The Majority Report.  But I find I can’t deal with it all right now.  I am melting down.   My endoscopy, the upper GI came back with very bad news after the procedure, and they sent out three biopsies.  I am struggling with bad news on my cateract surgery as the closest place I want to have it done after they couldnt do it locally was to do it in Naples as I live in North Fort Myers but they contacted me and they are debating forcing me to go to Miami at a much higher cost both finiancailly and time wise.  I am just worn out.  I am looking at every comment and saving it to reply to.  I am trying to get enough posts ahead so that if I go down for a few days the posts won’t stop.  This afternoon I have been in a lot more pain than normal in my back so I have had to take more medication which is also something that is causing my gastroparisis to be worse.  I have the results of the endoscopy exam to share including the bad spots they found and a lot more but I have been too tired to scan the report and save it, then post it.   I have struggled to get my eating issues under control and will soon do the posting on the exam and the findings.  At the same time this is going on Ron can’t devote as much time as he wants to me as his sister is here and wants him to get both her homes here ready including for sale of the small one while accompanying her to her appointments while I need him to accompany me to some of mine as I have gotten that “bad”.  I am sure everything will work out but I have days when I am so tired I struggle to function and like today I was doing ok until I simply became over whelmed due to pain and couldn’t stand the news I was listening to which made me feel outraged and also helpless.   I have so much more I want to post but I just can’t.   So I hope everyone is well.   I am simply shutting down and listening to music until I soon go to bed.  Loves and hugs.  Scottie