Recently I have been suffering, the news is dark and I am again having … triggers of my past.  At times when I sleep I am struggling with dreams about my abusers.  Not about the abuse so much but just with them in the dreams threatening me.  Thankfully after disclosing my full abuse to Ron I could talk to him.   He has two solutions. First he thinks the news about the resurgence of tRump is part of the problem because tRump was like my adoptive father, only my adoptive father was far more hands on violent. So Ron wants me to take a couple of days, and ignore the news that day.  Instead we have Netflix, HBO, and Amazon Prime Video and he wants me that day to watch videos and not look at any news or even the blog.   I think he is correct.  The other day I watched 20 minutes of a Picard show on Prime and was so happy, then crashed and went to bed.  I am thinking Sunday is the best day to do this.  Why.  I normally set Sunday morning aside to watch on air broadcasts of the Sunday news shows.  But for a long while it has become clear they cater to the republicans and attack the democrats, and the coverage after the debate was so stupid I did not even watch it.  All Biden bad, but no mention of the failing tRump.  

The question.  Days of mental health.  Oh had a great visit with my new doctor, when I told him of my abuse he totally understood.  Took great pains to explain ever touch and when I flinched stepped back and asked if I needed him to stop.  I like him. 

So what days and how many should I forget news, forget the blog, and watch fun stuff?  I want one, Ron suggests two.   Yes he and I tried the after 7 no news or blog … but that did not work when I started getting up at two or three in the morning and going to bed before 7 pm.   I have a thing about the ever coming in posts from other people I like, I feel driven to read them, I like them.  So I think Sunday.  Ron would prefer two days one during the week … But that is the most busy news times.  Anyway, I told him I would ask you guys.   Yes it seems silly now that I think about it, why ask people online what days I should take off, … but that is the blogging life, right?  The truth is the news is depressing, I have a history of abuse that can lead to bad thoughts and so to depression.  Ron has seen a decline in me that he wants to stop.  He knows I will not stop watching news, but he knows I love movies and Star Trek shows.  His solution is one or two days a week … only fun stuff, no blogging or news reading.   What do you guys think?  Sunday was the first time in weeks I got everything cleared before going to bed, so Instead maybe Saturday.  I know if I take a day off or two, I will miss stuff, might lose stuff.  But it might be OK.  Also I agreed with Ron that we could start going out to eat something that we have not done since 2020.   OK I am beating a dead horse here because I don’t want to admit he might be correct.  I guess on the other computer I might put … oh heck, more YouTube as I am way behind.  So many videos, so little time I can sit in this chair.   Hugs.  Scottie