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Woken by my Apple Watch as I was dying in a dream

Hello everyone.Β  Β I have put off writing this all day.Β  Β First I have not felt well and second I wanted to do it without sounding overdramatic.Β  Β But Ron’s panic when he saw the EKG’s and his insistence that if it ever happens again I must wake him right away, I think a little drama is warranted.Β Β 

Last night, I had a dream unlike any dream I have had before.Β  Β Something to keep in mind is that other than my nightmares about my childhood abuse, I have the ability to gain superpowers in my dreams.Β  Β Even in dreams dealing with my adoptive father lately I have seen my self trying to stand up to him, even if I am unable to get the words out that I want to shout and instead being woken / waking up with Ron trying hard to help me and telling me I am either shouting or making guttural sounds at a large volume.Β Β 

Last night was different, I had no powers, and in my dream I knew I was about to die.Β  The dream took place in the front yard facing the street in a home we use to own.Β  Β One of my favorite homes.Β  Β It was very dark, no moon, and was slightly raining.Β  We also had rain last night.Β  Β In my dream as I twisted and danced to avoid stepping in a large puddle on our walkway to the street, (I did not have and did not seem to need my ever present canes) a black car pulled up in the street next to me.Β  Β A woman was in the car and gesturing to me, I could see this because she had the inside car dome light on.Β  As I approached the street she pulled up to the curb in the next door home.Β  Β 

As I walked toward the car she pulled into the driveway of the home.Β  Β I was not sure what to do so I stood there in the yard.Β  Β The woman got out of the car and had a large double barrel shot gun and pointed it at me as she walked towards me.Β  Β I turned to run but tripped and fell on the ground.Β Β 

As I rolled over she was less than five feet from me with the gun pointed at me.Β  In my mind / dream I knew she was going to shoot me.Β  In the dream I remember thinking she is going to kill me and I cannot do anything to stop her.Β  Then I woke up with my Apple watch buzzing like crazy on my wrist.Β  Β Unlike Ron or James, I wear my watch all night.Β  Β  The watch was displaying a red alert saying I was in AFIB.Β  Β I really couldn’t process what the watch said as I did not have my glasses on and I was struggling to breathe.Β  Β 

After a while I calmed down and got my glasses and ran an EKG from my phone.Β  Β That also came back bad with AFIB.Β  Β  I laid in bed for another 45 minutes cuddling with Ron before doing it again.Β  Β The reason I did it again was I was again having shortness of breath.Β  It again came back with AFIB.Β  My chest hurt so I got up.Β Β 

When I did so I woke Ron and that is normal.Β  Β He asked what was going on and I stupidly said my heart was in AFIB and I stupidly told him the truth, that I was having trouble breathing and my watch was saying I was in AFIB.Β  Ron worked 16 years in the Open Heart ICU and I don’t think I have ever seen him out of bed that quickly.Β  He demanded to see the EKGs, so I gave him my phone.Β  Β That started a morning of checks, repeat checks, lots of me being told to do this, don’t do that, and being watched like a toddler around open live electrical wires.Β  Β  After I had my coffee and breakfast, my heart rate returned to sinus rhythm.Β  Β It has stayed that way all day.Β  Β  The breathing problem is much worse at night when I am laying down in bed.Β  Β Anyway, that is what happened.Β  Β I was not scared until Ron seemed to be so upset.Β  Β I never had a dream where I was in danger and couldn’t save myself that was not related to my childhood abuse.Β  Β This time I knew she was going to shoot me and I was going to die.Β  Β Weird.Β  Β Hugs

How the Nazi Regime’s Pink Triangle Symbol Was Repurposed for LGBTQ Pride

https://time.com/5295476/gay-pride-pink-triangle-history/

Is history repeating itself?Β  Are the Nazi fascist rising again, using their favorite targets again?Β  Β  You know the gays, the non-whites, the Jewish people.Β  Β Look what is it the fundamentalist Christian nationalist racist bigots want so badly? To return to a time when the white people were given automatic privilege and superiority in the country.Β  Β A time socially where white men were automatically assumed to be in charge and women were subservient as well as dependent on men.Β  Β When society catered to the white cis heterosexual people with no mention in public of those others.Β  Β All they are doing with these ban laws is to return to those days by banning all advancement in society, in our culture.Β  Β  Here is the most important paragraph in the article, I think.Β  Β Hugs

According toΒ the United States Holocaust Memorial Museum (USHMM), that changed when the Nazis came into power in the 1930s. Hitler saw gay men as a threat to his campaign to purify Germany, especially because their partnerships could not bear children who would grow the Aryan race he wanted to cultivate. During that period, gay-friendly bars and clubs started being shut down, authorities burned the books at a major research institution devoted to the study of sexuality, and gay fraternal organizations were shuttered. These efforts only increased after theΒ Night of the Long Knives, the 1934 purge of Nazi leaders who were accused of trying to overthrow Hitler; they included Storm Troopers leader Ernst RΓΆhm, whom the SS murdered, laterΒ citing his homosexualityΒ as justification for his murder. A Nazi revision of the 1871 law took effect in September of 1935, outlawing anything as simple as men looking at or touching one another in a sexually suggestive way, and enabled authorities to arrest people even if they had only heard rumors that people had been engaging in such behavior. (Lesbians, however,Β didn’t face the same criminal penalties.) The Gestapo began to keepΒ β€œpink lists” of violators.

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Prisoners wearing pink triangles on their uniforms are marched outdoors by Nazi guards at the Sachsenhausen concentration camp in Germany on Dec. 19, 1938. (CORBIS/Corbisβ€”Getty Images)

Prisoners wearing pink triangles on their uniforms are marched outdoors by Nazi guards at the Sachsenhausen concentration camp in Germany on Dec. 19, 1938.Β 
CORBIS/Corbisβ€”Getty Images
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With LGBTQ Pride Month beginning June 1 β€” a monthΒ chosen to honorΒ the history of activism epitomized by the Stonewall Riots of June 1969 β€” celebrants around the world will be getting ready forΒ paradesΒ and other tributes. Symbols such as theΒ rainbow flagΒ and the pink triangle will abound; for example, Nike hasΒ announcedΒ a new line of LGBTQ history-themed sneakers, including two that boast pink triangles.

The brightly colored symbol is now often worn proudly, but it was born from a dark period in LGBTQ history and world history.

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Just as the Nazis forced Jewish people to wear a yellow Star of David, they forced people they labeled as gay to wear inverted pink triangles (or β€˜die Rosa-Winkel’). Those thus branded were treated asΒ β€œthe lowest of the low in the camp hierarchy,” as one scholar put it.

The roots of the Nazi persecution of gay people are deep. Since German unification in 1871, a section of the country’s criminal law widely known as β€œparagraph 175” had said that men who engaged in acts of β€œunnatural indecency” could go to jail. In 1877, the German Supreme Court of Justice clarified that to mean evidence of anΒ β€œintercourse-like act.” But the law was only enforced sporadically. And the fact that it was almost impossible to convict anyone unless he confessed to such a crime in court meant thatΒ police just kept a watchful eyeΒ on gay bars and events, and Germany ended up becoming home to a vibrant gay community.Β Historian Robert BeachyΒ argues that, ironically, the law spurred scientific interest in the study of sexual preferences, and that research tended to encourage a more scientific understanding of human sexuality, which further allowed the idea of gay rights to flourish.

According toΒ the United States Holocaust Memorial Museum (USHMM), that changed when the Nazis came into power in the 1930s. Hitler saw gay men as a threat to his campaign to purify Germany, especially because their partnerships could not bear children who would grow the Aryan race he wanted to cultivate. During that period, gay-friendly bars and clubs started being shut down, authorities burned the books at a major research institution devoted to the study of sexuality, and gay fraternal organizations were shuttered. These efforts only increased after theΒ Night of the Long Knives, the 1934 purge of Nazi leaders who were accused of trying to overthrow Hitler; they included Storm Troopers leader Ernst RΓΆhm, whom the SS murdered, laterΒ citing his homosexualityΒ as justification for his murder. A Nazi revision of the 1871 law took effect in September of 1935, outlawing anything as simple as men looking at or touching one another in a sexually suggestive way, and enabled authorities to arrest people even if they had only heard rumors that people had been engaging in such behavior. (Lesbians, however,Β didn’t face the same criminal penalties.) The Gestapo began to keepΒ β€œpink lists” of violators.

Between 1933 and 1945, by the USHMM’s count, an estimated 100,000 men were arrested for violating this law, and about half went to prison. It’s thought that somewhere between 5,000 and 15,000 men were sent to concentration camps for reasons related to sexuality, but exactly how many died in them may never be known, between the scant documentation that survived and the sense ofΒ shameΒ that kept many survivors silent for years after their ordeal.

From the few survivors and prison guards who have shared their stories, it’s been learned that those sent to concentration camps were segregated, for fear that their sexual preference was contagious. Many wereΒ castrated. Some were used as guinea pigs in various medical experiments to find a cure forΒ typhus feverΒ and a cure for homosexuality, the latter of which led the SS to inject them with testosterone to see if it would make them straight. At the same time, someΒ KaposΒ (prisoners selected by the SS to keep fellow prisoners in line) are said to have demanded sexual favors from prisoners, who were known as β€œdoll boys,” in exchange for extra food or protection from hard labor.

Yet in the post-war years, fear of arrest and imprisonment didn’t go away. The Nazi law stayed in place until a 1969 West German law decriminalized gay relationships among men over 21. As one of the USHMM’s curators hasΒ pointed out, even as the Allied powers carefullyΒ worked to scrub NazismΒ from Germany, they left that part alone β€” perhaps because they had anti-gay and anti-sodomy laws of their own. Paragraph 175 wasn’t repealed until 1994.

As the gay liberation movement grew in America in the ’70s and the ’80s, so did awareness of the persecution of gays during the Holocaust, as books and data about period started being published.

FormerΒ β€œdoll boy” Heinz Heger’s 1972 memoirΒ The Men With The Pink TriangleΒ describedΒ SS guards torturing prisoners by dipping their testicles in hot water and sodomizing them with broomsticks. Data on these victims started to be cited in 1977, after a statistical analysis by sociologist Rudiger Lautmann of Bremen University claimed that as many as 60% of the gay men sent concentration camps may have have died. TheΒ first referenceΒ to pink triangles in TIME also appeared that year, in a story about gay-rights activists in Miami who attached the symbols to their clothes as a show of solidarity while protesting a vote to repeal a law protecting gay people from housing discrimination. When the magazine noted that the symbol was β€œreminiscent” of Nazi-era yellow stars, a readerΒ wrote in to noteΒ that they were in fact analogous, not β€œreminiscent,” as both the star and the triangle were real artifacts of that time. β€œGay people wear the pink triangle today as a reminder of the past and a pledge that history will not repeat itself,” he added.

And while the MiamiΒ effort did not succeed, the activists did succeed in bringing national attention to the way they had reclaimed the pink triangle as a symbol of solidarity. In 1979, Martin Sherman’s playΒ Bent,Β inspired by Heger’s memoir, opened on Broadway; in the play, one of the characters trades in his pink triangle for a yellow star, β€œwhich gives him preferential treatment over the homosexuals,” as TIME’s review put it. The magazine called the play β€œaudacious theater” and a β€œgritty, powerful and compassionate drama.” ShermanΒ later saidΒ that he had also based the play on research by Holocaust scholar Richard Plant, who was having trouble finding a publisher who would turn it into a book, as the topic wasΒ still considered taboo. It was later published asΒ The Pink Triangle: The Nazi War Against Homosexuals.

By that time, the gay community was facing a very different threat: HIV and AIDS. The activists who formed the organization ACT-UP toΒ raise awarenessΒ about this public health crisis decided to use the pink triangle as a symbol of their campaign and alluded to its history when they declared,Β in their manifesto, that β€œsilence about the oppression and annihilation of gay people, then and now, must be broken as a matter of our survival.” Avram Finkelstein is credited with designing the campaign’s pink triangle β€” which is right-side up, instead of the Nazi-era upside-down pink triangle β€” after conservative pundit William F. Buckley suggested thatΒ HIV/AIDS patients getΒ tattoosΒ to warn partners in a 1986 New YorkΒ TimesΒ op-ed.Β Earlier this year, Finkelstein said that the op-ed was a β€œgalvanizing moment,” at a time when there was β€œpublic discussion of putting gay men into concentration camps to keep the epidemic from spreading.” This bolder stance required a more boldly colored triangle. He explained that the triangle in the middle of the campaign’s signature β€œSilence=Death” poster was fuchsia instead of pale pink, as aΒ nod to the punk movement’s adoption of the β€œNew Wave” color. (He said the background of the poster is black because β€œeveryone in lower Manhattan wore black.”)

More recently, pink triangles have been visible during gay rights demonstrations worldwide that were sparked by reports thatΒ gay men were being persecutedΒ in Chechnya. For example, outside of the Russian embassy in London on April of 2017, protesters scattered pink triangles with messages written β€œStop the death camps.” Three months later, the German parliamentΒ voted unanimouslyΒ to pardon gay men convicted of homosexuality during World War II, awarding €3,000 to the 5,000 men still living, and €1,500 for each year they were imprisoned. The vote came aboutΒ 15 years after the issuing of an official apologyΒ and almost a decade after theΒ unveilingΒ of a memorial to gay Holocaust victims in Berlin. Another well-known memorial is theΒ Pink Triangle ParkΒ in the Castro district in San Francisco, which calls itself β€œthe first permanent, free-standing memorial in the U.S. to gay Holocaust victims.”

The last death of someone forced to wear the pink triangle during the Nazi era is believed to have come in August of 2011, with the death ofΒ Rudolf BrazdaΒ at the age of 98. The symbols of pride that will be proudly worn around the world this month are a reminder of both what he survived and the pride that came after.

I cried also

..this is perhaps off topic: but I have a thread at Talking Points Memo, in “the Hive”: “Pride is Every Day”, and a friend shared this, by ‘anonymous author K’:

Ruminations on the death of Pat Robertson

I don’t like to think
About Pat Robertson going to hell.
That lets him off too easy.
I like to think about
Pat Robertson finding himself
In a heaven he never believed
Would exist.
Where Divine is reading in drag
To the children murdered at
Sandy Hook and Ulvalde.
While Edie Windsor
And Gertrude Stein drink coffee
In the breakfast nook
talking politics with Harvey Milk.
Where Matthew Shepard relaxes by
A stream, reading poetry to
a nameless young man whose family
Never claimed his body
when he died
Of AIDS.
Where the music plays loudly
Welcoming dancers from the Pulse
and Club Q to the floor where they
Twirl and vogue with
All the murdered trans women of color
Whose names we never knew.
Where Jesus puts his arm around
Pat Robertson’s shoulders and
Drapes them with a rainbow feather boa.
And, gesturing around him says
Come, meet my disciples

I’m not a believer.
But I cried.

Vitriol From An Asshat In Spokane

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I’m an Anglican Priest in the Diocese of Nova Scotia and Prince Edward Island and I get to serve in the Parish of St Margaret of Scotland, in the beautiful city of Halifax, NS, that sits on the ancestral and unceded territory of the Mi’kmaq people.

My pronouns are he/him/his. My theology is primarily Christo-centric – Jesus is at the centre and it is against Him that all values are bounced off. I believe all people are created in the image of God and are children of God and are heirs to the throne of God – no conditions – therefore every single person we meet deserves our love, and respect.

Pinned by Rev Ed Trevors

Rev Ed Trevors2 weeks agoAn article… https://www.kxly.com/news/spokane-sermon-goes-viral-for-violent-anti-trans-message/article_74d97ad8-f907-11ed-8a37-a3dc71ff6f01.html

Uganda Made Homosexuality Punishable by Death. American Evangelical Groups Played a Role

https://www.teenvogue.com/story/uganda-homosexuality-law-american-evangelicals

The fundamentalists drool and dream of accomplishing this here and worldwide.Β  Β They are going after trans people and LGBTQ+ media first, then outlaw the LGBTQ+.Β  They may keep lesbians, as the male fundamentalist love watching girl on girl porn.Β  Β These religious groups spent over 20 million in Uganda alone over the last few years to get these hateful anti-gay bills passed.Β  Β This is the enemy we face here in the US.Β  They are driven, they will sacrifice any money time and time again for the cause of their god.Β  Β  Hugs

The legislation comes after years of lobbying from American Christian groups.
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This article was originally published byΒ Vanity Fair.

After more than a decade of anti-LGBTQ lobbying from American evangelical groups, Uganda has finally enacted what’s among the harshest antigay laws in the world. On Monday, Yoweri Museveni, the president of the East African nation, signed the Anti-Homosexuality Act 2023, a bill that makes homosexuality punishable by life imprisonment and β€œaggravated homosexuality”—a vague phrase that applies to both predators and those who use β€œmisrepresentation” or β€œundue influence” to engage in gay sexβ€”punishable by death. Even attempting β€œto commit the offense of homosexuality” could lead to a seven-year prison sentence. Moreover, anyone found guilty of β€œpromoting” homosexuality in the country could face up to 20 years in prison, while so-called β€œserial offenders” and those who transmit HIV/AIDS through gay sex could be subject to capital punishment.

The law has faced widespread condemnation abroad. In a MondayΒ statement, Joe Biden condemned it as β€œa tragic violation” of human rights and said the White House was β€œconsidering additional steps, including the application of sanctions and restriction of entry into the United States against anyone involved in serious human rights abuses or corruption.” (For his part, Museveni previously praised Uganda’s parliament membersΒ for defyingΒ β€œimperialist” pressure campaigns against the law, which is alsoΒ being challengedΒ in court by in-country activists.)

Antigay sentiment in Uganda has climbed in recent years due in no small part toΒ American evangelicals, who spent more than $20 million fighting LGBTQ rights in the country between 2007–2020,Β according toΒ The Washington Post.Β Scott Lively, an American pastor,Β spearheaded this effortΒ in the early 2000s, participating in a series of popular antigay lectures in Uganda and describing homosexuality as a β€œdisease” propagated by the West. Several years later, Uganda’s parliament proposed initial legislation, known as the β€œKill the Gays” bill, that was supported by a number ofΒ American Christian groupsΒ and eventually signed into law. While that measure ultimately buckled under court scrutiny, its draconian vision has now been revived and etched into law by Museveni’s pen.

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In a strange twist, one of the leading evangelical politicians in the US has joined the White House, the UN Human Rights Office, and a corporate coalition in condemning the law. β€œThis Uganda law is horrific & wrong,” tweetedΒ Senator Ted Cruz, a Texas Republican. β€œAny law criminalizing homosexuality or imposing the death penalty for β€˜aggravated homosexuality’ is grotesque & an abomination. ALL civilized nations should join together in condemning this human rights abuse. #LGBTQ.” In his own country, Cruz has consistently advocated against the civil rights of gay Americans. As recently as last year,Β he calledΒ Obergefell v. Hodges,Β the Supreme Court ruling that legalized same-sex marriage nationwide, β€œclearly wrong” and an act of judicial overreach. (Those remarks were mild compared to hisΒ initial reactionΒ to the 2015 decision, which heΒ describedΒ at the time as β€œthe very definition of tyranny” andΒ β€œamong the darkest hours of our nation.”)

Anita Among, Uganda’s parliamentary speaker,Β respondedΒ to criticisms of the law by stating that Museveni had β€œanswered the cries of our people.” In a separate statement, AmongΒ urgedΒ the β€œduty bearers under the law to execute the mandate bestowed upon them in the Anti-Homosexuality Act.”

Let’s talk about Texas teachers and me missing something….

The short life of Baby Milo

I originally posted this from The Washington Post but I understand many couldn’t read it.Β  Β I will add the original post here because Frank had a great comment on it.Β  Β But I want everyone to realize the heartbreak of this family, the expenses they were forced to incur, and the risk to the woman’s life who had a child already who could have lost his mother, all due to some republicans on the right demanding to make the medical decisions for this woman and her family.Β  Β They were forced to give birth to a child who couldn’t live risking the woman’s life, give that child a name, and then under law bury that child with all the emotions / exspeces that goes along with all of that.Β  Β  I cried reading this the first time, and I cried hard reading it the second time.Β  Β I wonder if the radical fundmentlist religous right that forces this cry at all when they read it?Β  Out of respect I wont color any of it as all of it is serious and importantΒ  Hugs.Β Β 

THE WASHINGTON POST: The short life of Baby Milo

The short life of Baby Milo

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Nobody expected Baby Milo to live for long.

He arrived in the world with no kidneys, underdeveloped lungs and a life expectancy of between 20 minutes and a couple of hours.

He lived for 99 minutes.

Milo Evan Dorbert drew his first and last breath on the evening of March 3. The unusual complications in his mother’s pregnancy tested the interpretation of Florida’s new abortion law.

Deborah Dorbert discovered she was pregnant in August. Her early appointments suggested the baby was thriving, and she looked forward to welcoming a fourth member to the family. It didn’t occur to her that fallout from the U.S. Supreme Court’s decision to overturn a half-century constitutional right to abortion would affect them.

A routine ultrasound halfway through her pregnancy changed all that.

Deborah and her husband, Lee, learned in late November that their baby had Potter syndrome, a rare and lethal condition that plunged them into an unsettled legal landscape.

The state’s ban on abortion after 15 weeks of gestation has an exception for fatal fetal abnormalities. But as long as their baby’s heart kept beating, the Dorberts say, doctors would not honor their request to terminate the pregnancy. The doctors would not say how they reached their decision, but the new law carries severe penalties, including prison time, for medical practitioners who run afoul of it. The hospital system declined to discuss the case.

Instead, the Dorberts would have to wait for labor to be induced at 37 weeks.

For the next three months, the Dorberts did their best to prepare for their second son’s short life. They consulted with palliative care experts and decided against trying to prolong his life with high-tech interventions.

“The most important thing for us was to let him know he was loved,” Deborah said.

The day before Milo was born, the Dorberts sat down with their son Kaiden to explain that the baby’s body had stopped working and that he would not come home. Instead, some day, they told Kaiden, they would all meet as angels. The 4-year-old burst into tears, telling them that he did not want to be an angel.

Without functioning kidneys, a fetus with Potter syndrome cannot produce the amniotic fluid that allows the lungs to expand and that cushions the growing body. The babies who survive until birth typically have contracted limbs, club feet and flattened features from being compressed against the uterus wall.

But after Deborah’s 12-hour labor, Milo turned out to be 4 pounds and 12 ounces of perfection, with tiny, flawlessly formed hands and feet and a head of brown hair.

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“When he came out you could hear him gasping for air. He was really trying to breathe. … He didn’t cry when he was born and he didn’t open his eyes at all. But I mean, he struggled.” – Deborah Dorbert

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“I thought I had my miracle,” said Peter Rogell, the baby’s grandfather, who attended the delivery. He allowed himself a moment of hope until the obstetrician cut the umbilical cord that for 37 weeks had performed the functions Milo’s underdeveloped lungs and missing kidneys would now take over.

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“When they pulled the baby out I thought my miracle happened. ‘Cause he looked perfect to me.” – Peter Rogell

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Milo remained blue, swaddled in a blanket hand-knit by his great grandmother.

He never cried or tried to nurse or even opened his eyes, investing every ounce of energy in intermittent gasps for air.

“That was the beginning of the end,” Rogell said, recalling the persistent gulps that he thought at first were hiccups but turned out to be his grandson’s labored efforts to inhale.

Lee read a book to his dying son – “I’ll Love You Forever,” a family favorite that the Dorberts had given Kaiden for Valentine’s Day – and sang Bob Marley’s “Three Little Birds.”

For 99 minutes that lasted a lifetime, they cuddled and comforted their newborn.

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“The baby just went to my chest, and we just cuddled with him. … My parents held him for a little bit. And we kinda just gave him all the loving until he passed.” – Deborah Dorbert

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At 11:13 p.m., a doctor declared Milo dead.

The nurses took some photos, clipped a few pieces of Milo’s dark brown hair and made imprints of his hands and feet on the inside cover of Kaiden’s book before taking the infant down to the morgue. Milo’s organs were either missing or too damaged to be donated; his body was so small that even his heart valve could not be used to save another baby.

Milo would be cremated, with some of his ashes embedded in a pendant for Kaiden and two spherical glass ornaments.

Deborah feared that mementos would serve as reminders of her pain.

But gradually, she realized she might want something to hold onto, or as a teaching tool for Kaiden.

“Down the road he might have questions,” she said, imagining how she might pull out an object to help explain “what I went through, how the laws dictated this.”

Two weeks later, about 40 of the Dorberts’ friends and family members gathered at Lakeland Funeral Home and Memorial Gardens for a service.

A three-inch-tall silver urn – delivered by Amazon the previous day after other child-sized urns turned out to be too big – sat on a memorial table with two vases of flowers, carefully picked out at a nearby Publix supermarket, and a photo of Milo, wrapped in the hand-knit blanket and held by his parents in the hospital bed.

Deborah and Lee sat rock still and silent in the front row as Milo’s aunts and uncles and several cousins walked in and took their seats. Her usually free-flowing hair was pulled back from her face and held in a bun.

The service, which mixed Christian gospels and the Lord’s Prayer with “Three Little Birds,” lasted about 45 minutes – half as long as Milo’s life.

The pastor from a local Lutheran church had a message for the congregation. “Not everything happens for a reason,” she said, echoing Deborah’s own rejection that the manner of Milo’s birth and death carried some special spiritual significance.

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“Milo. Milo. For such a little love, he leaves a giant hole in our soul and in our hearts. And nobody – nothing else – can completely fill that hole.” – The Rev. Pamela Smith

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Deborah occasionally stifled sobs or turned to quiet Kaiden, until she could contain her feelings no longer, and Lee reached over to embrace her slender shaking frame.

Rogell lingered at the funeral home after others left, staring at the urn that contained his 16th grandchild’s ashes and trying to reconcile his own misgivings about elective abortion with the months of suffering he watched his daughter and her family endure.

Now, he was haunted by the sound of Milo gasping for air and the sight of his body struggling to ward off a death that had been inevitable for three long months.

“To me it’s just pure torture,” Rogell said. “The law has created torture.”

In many ways, the routines of daily life returned swiftly after Milo died.

Deborah shuttles Kaiden back and forth to preschool. The Dorberts take occasional outings to the aquarium or hike the trails near their house. They visit family.

Deborah held her brother’s baby girl, born a few days after Milo – the products of pregnancies that had followed parallel paths until Thanksgiving.

“I’m happy for my brother. He has a precious baby girl that brings so much happiness to his family, and that makes me happy,” she said. “Is it hard to see her because my son’s not here? Absolutely.”

Deborah says she is wrestling with anxiety and depression. She hasn’t returned to her part-time job filling Instacart orders. And she still hasn’t figured out how to respond to Kaiden, when he asks whether he can see his baby brother.

“We tell him he’s something he feels, like the wind. Or we point up to the stars and say he’s an angel with the stars,” she said. “We’re still kind of navigating that question, for him to understand.”

Kaiden brought a card home from preschool for Mother’s Day. It showed a family of four purple stick figures with bulging torsos – Mommy, Daddy, Kaiden and Baby Milo.

Deborah said her grief is complicated by ongoing anger that her decision to terminate her pregnancy early was thwarted by politicians she has never met and who are not experts about obstetrics.

The mail brings reminders of the Dorberts’ new financial burdens, invoices for all the things they wish had never happened: $12,320 so far in medical costs – not including induction and delivery, $7,000 for Milo’s cremation and funeral, and $500 for the keepsakes in memory of their son.

The bills keep coming. Deborah estimates that Lee’s health insurance will pick up about half of the medical costs, some of which will be offset by a GoFundMe appeal that one of her sisters set up.

The Dorberts have no idea how their grief will evolve, or if they will ever come to terms with losing control over the most painful decision of their lives.

“It’s really becoming our reality now,” Deborah said. “We don’t know what six months is going to look like. We don’t know what a year looks like. We’re just kind of taking it one day at a time. Because that’s all we really can handle, is just taking it one day at a time.”

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“If people want to really know how I’m doing, I’m not doing okay.” – Deborah Dorbert

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In the midst of that uncertainty, Deborah has endeavored to find some purpose in Milo’s short life, sharing the story of her pregnancy as broadly as she can, even as she has watched Florida legislators move to restrict state laws around abortion even further.

It surprises family members to see Deborah take such a public stance.

“I always thought of her as my shy child,” Rogell said.

But Deborah wants other people to know what happened, how politicians intervened in decisions about medical care with a law that made doctors fearful of terminating even hopeless pregnancies.

“If it helps another family or a mom, then good came of it because we’re all here to help one another,” Deborah said. “It’s not something easy to go through alone. You need all the support you can get.”

A Texas woman was killed by her boyfriend after getting an abortion, police say

https://www.npr.org/2023/05/13/1176007305/texas-abortion-woman-killed-boyfriend

May 13, 202312:29 PM ET

By 

Emily Olson

A screenshot taken from Google Street View shows the gas station parking lot in Dallas where Gabriella Gonzalez was fatally shot the morning after she’d gotten an abortion in Colorado.

Google Street View/Screenshot by NPR

A man fatally shot his girlfriend in Dallas on Wednesday because he was upset she’d gotten an abortion, court records allege.

Harold Thompson, age 22, is facing murder charges in connection with the death of 26-year-old Gabriella Gonzalez.

The pair were in a “dating relationship,” according to an arrest affidavit, and were seen walking together in a gas station parking lot the morning after Gonzalez had traveled to Colorado to get an abortion.

Texas has outlawed abortion in nearly every stage of pregnancy sinceΒ the overturning ofΒ Roe v. WadeΒ in June 2022. Colorado abortion law is among the country’s most permissive,Β allowing for legal abortionsΒ at nearly every stage of pregnancy, without waiting periods.

A police investigator wrote that Thompson was believed to be the father of Gonzalez’s child, and that he did not want her to end her pregnancy.

Video surveillance shows that Thompson put Gonzalez in a “choke hold” as they were talking, police say, but she “shrugs him off.”

Thompson then pulled out a firearm and shot Gonzalez several more times before fleeing. Police declared Gonzalez dead at the scene.

Thompson is being held in a Dallas County jail. Court records show he will be represented by state-appointed counsel but did not list the name or contact information of his attorney.

A separate arrest warrant for Thompson, issued in March, was still active at the time of the shooting, court records show. The March affidavit does not name Gonzalez as the complainant, but the May affidavit describes her as “the victim” in the incident reported then.

The March affidavit states that Thompson had beat the victim, a woman pregnant with his child, several times throughout their relationship, including trying to strangle her and leaving her with a black eye.

The victim claimed that Thompson had “violently attacked her and left her bruised up” and remained “very fearful of the suspect,” police wrote.

“She is scared of the suspect because he had made threats to harm her family and her children,” the warrant states. “She has kids from a different relationship, and suspect is very jealous of the complainant’s ex-boyfriend.”

Court records show Gonzalez’s sister, Mileny Rubio, was a witness to the shooting.

“He was so angry that she wanted to get away from him,” she told local news outletΒ local news outlet KXAS. She added later, “I knew she wasn’t OK but we couldn’t get help, we didn’t know how.”

Gonzalez had just ended a tumultuous, four-month relationship with Thompson when the shooting occurred, her family said.

Some news stuff I have been reading over the last few days

ND Gov Signs Bill Ordering Outing Of Trans Students

Texas Mass Shooter Posted Praise Of Libs Of TikTok

BeccaM17 hours ago

Republicans hate democracy and free-and-fair elections because they and their vile policies cannot win majority popular support.

So they have to rig and cheat.

https://nymag.com/intelligencer/article/desantis-florida-trump-education-politics.html

The governor’s office also pointed to a β€œPBS Newshour” feature on parents’ support for various gender care treatments including puberty blockers, a gay character in β€œWork It Out Wombats” which airs on OETA, PBS Kids’ β€œClifford the Big Red Dog” introducing LGBTQ characters β€œOklahoma taxpayers are going, β€˜Hey, hang on, time out for just a second. That’s not my values,’” Stitt said. β€œI’m just tired of using taxpayer dollars for some person’s agenda. I represent the taxpayers.”

tbj521 hours ago

“Stop using taxpayer values to push an agenda!” the bigoted governor screeched, as he used taxpayer dollars to push his agenda on everyone in the state.

Dave B21 hours ago edited

Stitt said. β€œI’m just tired of using taxpayer dollars for some person’s agenda. I represent the taxpayers.”

Who the fuck are LGBTQA+ people and their families if not fucking tax payers?

Thorn Spike Dave B21 hours ago

And he’s using their tax dollars to push his own agenda. Irony still dead.

MrRobotoLA Dave B21 hours ago

LGBTQIA+ Oklahomans need to start demanding their tax dollars back.

Elagabalus MrRobotoLA20 hours ago

That’s the problem with being a minority which represents roughly 5% of the population (except in larger cities with large gay populations). Unless the majority of citizens stand with you, which they usually don’t, you’re on your own.

Darreth Dave B20 hours ago edited

And that’s the bottom line. Not that they’re taxpayers but rather the fact that that evangelical governor doesn’t see them as citizens, taxpayers, or as a demographic worth even bothering with; by acknowledging who and what they are.

Thus, he’s worse than evil. He literally can’t see LGBT people as a thing. His religion has rotted his forebrain.

Houndentenor Dave B17 hours ago

Yes, queer people are taxpayers, but they don’t consider us citizens with rights.

Frank McCormick Dave B2 hours ago

He reminds me of the Chicago aldermen that insisted that no gay people lived in their ward during the debate over gay rights.

Gregory In Seattle21 hours ago

No, sweetie, you represent a very narrow, exceedingly bigoted minority of taxpayers hell-bent on forcing the rest of the country to kowtow to your twisted views of morality.

The_Wretcheda day ago

“the [white male] ones that are blamed for any social ills”

Feel free to look at the office holders for the Republican (and some D) party. Pretty much white male. Also old, rich and christian. So yes, it’s entirely fair to put all the crap at their feet. it’s their show in a large part of the USA.

Nic Peterson2 days ago

When you don’t have a Benghazi but need one, you do this.