My own doctors have been pushing for 8 years that I need a neurologist.  It got much worse after I had my stroke in 2023.  But I put it off.  But I have seen Ron decline.  I admit that the string of numbers I need to put in due to two factor authentication.  I need Ron to read them to me, or I have to keep refreshing them as I can’t remember the numbers.  I also am dyslexic on numbers.  I have never been able to spell but also numbers are not my friends. 

But while my doctor has said I need a neurologist due to the lost of strength on my left side due to my stroke, and the ever increasing tremors, and while I have a standing order for an MRI on my left shoulder due to a spasm that my doctor thinks tore my rotator cuff.  I put it off.  Glad I did.

 Ron has been failing mentally for years.  I took over the bills a decade ago because he said it was too much for him … I have seen the writing on the wall.  Now at 70 I have to often remind him of things, make sure he puts appointments into the calendar. He will open food and walk away leaving it on the counter, he struggles to understand why some of his lapses upset me, always promising to do better … then repeating it.

    When it comes to construction issues he is spot on, but now on cooking he comes to me confused.  When Ron met me and moved in I had eggs and hot dogs in my refrigerator, it was all I knew how to cook, he taught me all I know.   Now he comes to me confused asking what I think we should do.  To be clear he understands he is losing memory and time and it terrifies him.   He has begged me that if he ever has Alzheimer’s that I will kill him.  But he is simply forgetful.  I have to get up and check the security system after he goes to bed, but also I have made my own mistakes in my nighttime pills when I am exhausted.  I am not sure where this is going to go.  I did not think the problem was as bad as this doctor did, but when Ron told me the tests he took … I couldn’t pass them either.  We are older people.  So … Hugs