Hi everyone. As many of you mentioned and one of my doctors said I have PTSD. and it has really been pushing me hard lately. He came to me about 2 hours ago and asked me to stop blogging and watch a move or play Halo. He was getting very worried about me. I told him OK, but first I wanted to answer some comments. He came in a half hour later and seen I was still blogging. He again asked me to stop and watch a movie. I told him only a few more, I don’t want to lose them. He came in a few minutes ago after an hour and half, and said enough. He asked me what newish movie I would like to see. I told him I have never seen Spiderman No way home. He asked me to find it. I did on Prime, but it was $8. and I balked at paying that. Ron told me to buy it, and then as I ate supper watch it. Anything. Just stay off the blog, no news, and no MS site stuff. So dear viewers, I give in to my husband I bout it, and will now watch it. Hugs. Scottie
Ron asked me to step back and take me time.
Scottie's Playtime 
Good for Ron. And good for you for finally listening to him.
I once had a cat who loved me very much. I didn’t listen to him as much as I should have. He thought I should go to bed earlier than I usually did and would try to get me there by trotting past and looking very interested in whatever he saw in the bedroom. Five minutes later he’d trot by again, same thing. I wish I’d listened to him about this. He was right, and I could have spent more time with him if I’d gone to bed when he wanted.
Don’t be a me, Scottie. Blogging serves a need for you but I really hope for you to spend more of your time in pursuits that don’t harm you, that help you rest when you need it.
So, good for Ron. And good for you for listening to him.
Hugs…
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Hi MDavis. Thank you. I did enjoy the first half of the movie and plan to watch the rest later today.
Yes Ron has been the adult in our relationship when he needs to. Part of it was his 25 years in being a health caregiver that he can not give up. He worries I will have a breakdown again if I get too tired and overwhelmed I might fall into the vortex of my emotional memories of abuse that is always nearby without defenses to stop it.
I just wrote to Jill how one of my abusers contacted me a maybe a decade or less ago and it left me hysterical on the floor as he admitted he knew everyone else including the boyfriends and husbands of the female hell spawn were raping me, he denied his own rapes, forced oral sex he made me give, the times he peed on me so I would be punished harshly or then making me drink his piss to not be harshly punished. His response when I reminded him he was one of my abusers he replied
“Well you can’t blame me for that, I was a black out drunk then”! He was abusing me when I was 3 up, he was 9 years older than me. At 12 he was a blackout drunk? No way. But the end of the story was I hung up on him, he kept calling and Ron and James came home from grocery shopping and found me on the floor hysterical, crying and sobbing. Ron grabbed me trying to get me to tell him what was wrong when the phone rang again and I screamed, then shouted out “Stop them please stop them they won’t stop calling”. Ron held me while James grabbed up my phone, hung it up, blocked all the numbers from the hell spawn, told Ron they couldn’t call me only him. Ron helped me to bed, gave me some medication, and lay there hugging me until I fell asleep while James brought all the groceries in and put them away. Ron has always been there for me, I love him. He has shown me how to be a good human. Hugs. Scottie
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I’m so sorry you’ve been put through all of that, yet glad you now have someone who takes care of you and reminds you to take care of yourself.
Hugs, Scottie.
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I thought of commenting last night, but didn’t want to maybe cause you to come back to answer! So, instead, I sent healing energy and good thoughts into the universe for you and recreation and sleep. I hope it helped, but I’m still doing it, and you can’t stop me. It’s important to spend time with your loved ones, as MDavis eloquently states above, and I hope you reschedule your computering in order for you to spend time with Ron. It’s so fun to read what you write when you two get into the kitchen together, or put the kitty supplies away, etc. I don’t mean write right now, I mean take time and do those things, then write about them later. We can keep the Playtime working. As far as I know, anyway. We’re all cheering for you!
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Hi Ali. As I said before, you are a wonderful grand person. And as soon as I finish your comment I am going to stop blogging and watch the rest of the movie.
Never fear Ron and I are together in the house close to each other talking back and forth all day. If I see a headline or story I want him to know about I open my door and tell him. And he does the same. Other than when one us goes out into the unwashed masses, we are always close by each other. Hugs. Scottie
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This makes me Happy! I’m glad to know that you two spend much time together.
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Hi MDavis. Ron retired in 2020. I am disabled and getting worse physically as time goes on. We have always loved to spend time together and when younger were one of those couples that worked well together on jobs. We are not only lovers, partners, spouses, but we are best friends as well. If one of us does the dishes (hurricane Ian destroyed our dishwasher) the other jumps up and dries them. We work together on things in the house including making the bed up together, doing the laundry, doing home repairs, other things like that. Hugs. Scottie
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