Just an update on the week and my actions.

Hi everyone.  I have a video started to address a lot of what happened.  But I had a horrible week and only wanted to hide from life.  Long story short if I don’t finish the video as so often happen.   At the beginning of the week I talked to my primary care doctor about my childhood in vague terms, the intrusive thoughts that have gotten worse, and the nightmares / yelling out at night.  He admitted he was out of his depth on the issue but would help as much as they could and that they have a therapist on site that works with a psychiatrist and if I would see her she could help me better.  Next week I will call her.   He prescribed a medication to help me but I won’t take it.  It kills your sex drive and ability entirely.  Ron got on it before we knew what it did, and so now he will try to get off it.  For a long time we did not know or understand why his desire and ability just stopped, now we know that it was the medication.  Then Thursday coming home from the allergist the car broke down.  I was lucky I was able to get it safety off the road on to a side street.  Then I dealt with the getting it towed and all that.   Then Friday I saw a podiatrist and found out that there is nothing they can do to help me, another one thing I have to learn to live with.  It was all too much for me.  Today we are finishing the floor in the small bathroom and reseating the toilet which is a horrible hard job for a weakening 70 year old man and a disabled 62 yr old with bone / muscle / nerve problems.  My plan for this weekend is to catch up on all the comments I missed over the week by withdrawing from everything.   Thanks to everyone for being here and to Ali and Randy for all the posts they make.   Hugs