FL Man Arrested On Felony Hate Crime Charges For Brutally “Beating The Gay Out Of” Five-Year-Old Boy

FL Man Arrested On Felony Hate Crime Charges For Brutally “Beating The Gay Out Of” Five-Year-Old Boy

West Palm Beach’s CBS affiliate reports:

A Florida man is facing life felony charges after allegedly brutally assaulting a defenseless 5-year-old boy in an act of hate-fueled child abuse. “This was a brutal and hateful attack on a defenseless child. There is absolutely no excuse for it. We will make sure justice is served and these children get the safety and support they deserve,” Sheriff Grady Judd said.

The Polk County Sheriff’s Office said that on Sunday, May 3, 33-year-old Andre Brown Jr. from Davenport was arrested for child abuse. According to officials, this charge has been categorized as a life felony because it is considered a hate crime.

During interviews with the children in Browns care, it was revealed that Brown had been physically abusive toward a 5-year-old boy, specifically targeting him because he was “mad at him for being gay.” Brown reportedly told deputies that he abused the child because of his sexual orientation, claiming he would “beat the gay out of him if possible.”

The Orlando Sentinel reports:

The boy told authorities he was afraid of Brown and did not want to talk much about what happened. He had the worst injuries of the three: marks and bruising on his legs, arms, back, and stomach; a fracture to his right wrist; and a contusion to his forehead. He had marks all over his body consistent with being hit by a belt, the sheriff’s office said.

When deputies attempted to remove Brown from the scene, he pulled away, became loud and began yelling slurs, the sheriff’s office said. He continued yelling and pulling away once placed in handcuffs, according to the release, and also was charged with resisting arrest.

Brown has a lengthy criminal history, including domestic battery strangulation, aggravated battery with a deadly weapon, kidnapping with intent to commit a felony, home invasion robbery with a firearm and battery on a law enforcement officer, the release said.

He’s being held without bond.

 

 

Political cartoons / memes / and news I want to share. 5-6-2026

Sorry this is not as long as I normally do.  Ron found me sleeping at my desk an d only gave me a few minutes to finish before he forced me to bed physically.   Hugs


 

Here’s a last strip from my new book Dating Tips for Trans and Queer Weirdos!

 

 

 

 

 

 

The house below was once owned by Scott Bessent the current Secretary of Treasury under tRump.  I would love to own a home like this or at least be able to afford one like it.   It is a famous home called the Pink House.  Hugs

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


These are fake The first three were posted by tRump but the left is the one that has to turn down the rhetoric.

This is the real Obama bowing picture.

 

And this guy posted 86 46 during Bidens term and the post is still up.  But Comey is on trial for threatening the cult leader and not Posobiec who did the same to Biden.

 

And this one is real.  tRump suluted an enemy general from North Korea.

And this one is real also.

 


 

 

 

 

 

 

“The more likely prospect, they say, is that he becomes an independent who caucuses with the GOP, or simply casts his vote to ensure Thune remains majority leader. Ensuring control of the Senate could be especially critical should there be a Supreme Court vacancy http://www.politico.com/news/magazin…

Randy Fair (@southerngayteacher.bsky.social) 2026-05-04T14:20:49.652Z

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

81 percent of young Americans say economic conditions are bad or terrible: Survey #TheHill

#TuckFrump (@realtuckfrumper.bsky.social) 2026-05-04T19:51:39.000Z

 

 

 

 

 

NYC reports fewest murders ever through April, violent crime declines in Bronx gothamist.com/news/nyc-rep…

Gothamist (@gothamist.com) 2026-05-04T15:53:49.333419Z

 

In many states, election-denying candidates are running to control voting http://www.npr.org/2026/05/04/n…

Ray Beckerman (@raybeckerman.bsky.social) 2026-05-04T15:08:27.517Z

NEW: A Republican U.S. Senate candidate said he's recruiting off-duty police officers to serve as poll watchers in Detroit for the 2026 midterms — and suggested they could flash their badges at voters.Intimidating voters is illegal. Interfering with someone's right to vote is a federal crime.

Democracy Docket (@democracydocket.com) 2026-05-04T15:48:35.403313056Z

 

🚨BREAKING: Florida voters and pro-voting group Equal Ground Education Fund filed a lawsuit Monday challenging the GOP’s new congressional gerrymander, urging a court to block the map for violating the state constitution’s ban on partisan gerrymandering. http://www.democracydocket.com/news-alerts/…

Marc Elias (@marcelias.bsky.social) 2026-05-04T18:40:56.248Z

 

 

New: A Probe of Trump Foes Upends Justice Department Hub in MiamiDeep dive from Chris Strohm and Michael Smith –>buff.ly/ApWT31g

Zoe Tillman (@zoetillman.bsky.social) 2026-05-05T16:47:20.073Z

 

 

 

Both headlines are from today.

Adam Isacson (@adamisacson.com) 2026-05-04T21:27:03.352Z

 

Mamdani condemns ICE action at Bushwick hospital, says NYPD didn’t coordinate gothamist.com/news/mamdani…

Gothamist (@gothamist.com) 2026-05-04T17:18:52.774838Z

 

Judge mulls contempt over DHS’ ‘patently false’ allegation in deportation caseThe Trump administration attacked a judge for releasing an accused murderer, but it withheld existence of the foreign warrant.www.politico.com/news/2026/05…

Lauren Ashley Davis (@laurenmeidasa.bsky.social) 2026-05-04T21:35:32.535Z

 

You see this press release from DHS about a federal judge? The agency pushed it out 5 days ago. Today, a DOJ attorney admitted to the judge that it “simply was not true.”(It’s also still online at DHS dot gov as of 540 pm Monday)1/

Bill Grueskin (@bgrueskin.bsky.social) 2026-05-04T21:43:02.441Z

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

WASHINGTON (AP) — US military says Iran has launched missiles, drones and small boats at ships the US is protecting in Strait of Hormuz.

Kyle Griffin (@kylegriffin1.bsky.social) 2026-05-04T16:35:18.324Z

 

BREAKING: UAE says three missiles from Iran intercepted. MS NOW's David Rohde has the latest.

MS NOW (@ms.now) 2026-05-04T15:43:14.006Z

Trump describes Iran war horrors in Oval Office full of kids: ‘Right between the eyes’

The Independent (@the-independent.com) 2026-05-05T16:42:02.720027Z

* SOUTH KOREA'S FOREIGN MINISTRY: FIRE AND EXPLOSION HAPPENED ON A KOREAN VESSEL IN STRAIT OF HORMUZ* SOUTH KOREA FOREIGN MINISTRY: CHECKING CAUSE OF FIRE AND DETAILS ON DAMAGE AT THE KOREAN VESSEL* SOUTH KOREA FOREIGN MINISTRY: TO CLOSELY COMMUNICATE WITH RELEVANT COUNTRIES@reuters.com

Carl Quintanilla (@carlquintanilla.bsky.social) 2026-05-04T14:11:52.060Z

 

President Donald Trump threatened Iran, saying it will be 'blown off the face of the Earth' if it doesn't stop attacking ships in the Strait of Hormuz.

The Express US (@the-express.com) 2026-05-04T19:05:50.273Z

 

 

 

 

 

More Than 150 Wind Projects Stall as Pentagon Delays ReviewsThe delays, which companies say have worsened significantly in recent weeks, are the latest step in the Trump administration’s efforts to block wind power.www.nytimes.com/2026/05/04/c…

James Hughes (@dystopian-fashion.bsky.social) 2026-05-05T01:15:37.587Z

 

 

 

 

Most US Voters Support Trans Rights, Even Republicans

This video explains what everyone on the real left already knew instead of forgetting the trans  / woke culture wars and moving right, the center left keeps demanding which is simply code speak for leaning right.  While all the same democratic strategists since the Bill Clinton days demand candidates move to the right to “triangulate” to capture republican voters these polls show what we already knew.  The culture wars are losing for the republicans.  After republicans spent nearly 3 million dollars in ads against trans people the polls showed almost no one felt those adverts influenced their vote.  Even as red states rail against higher education, acceptance, and tolerance of people who are different it is losing them votes.  Some thing the Christian nationalists who are in the height of their influence now in political circles don’t understand is that people who grew up with LGBTQ+ classmates, friends, and even dated some do not find them the evil that these hate religions preach they are.  

*** Personal note.   I explained to Ali in an email that I am not functioning.  For what ever reason wheither it be anemia or something worse I am desperately tired from the time I manage to get up.  I often get up only to a few hours later go back to bed for four or more hours.  I have started taking vitamin B-12 and a woman’s one-a-day vitamin.  That with more red meat which was recommended to me in the past every time I go into anemia.   How ever I get up, I have coffee and stuff with Ron then I need to go back to bed for normally 4 hours, get up and do dishes while watching The Majority Report.  How ever some days like yesterday I did not even get that far, going to back to bed by 2 pm only to have Ron wake me and beg me to eat.

I have done better today only going back to bed for 3 hours later in the morning.  I wanted to go to bed two hours ago, but Ron was all upset he couldn’t sleep due to the neighbors having new skirting put around their home outside our bedroom.  So I got him in his recliner and moved his CPAP out to his chair.  Still he was not tracking.  Good news as I was falling asleep at my desk he woke up and is fixing supper.  At this point I am so tired I don’t really care whether I eat or not.  

I tried to reply to comments, but I couldn’t.  I even started to move old saved open tabs out by making a new cartoon / memes post but I simply couldn’t do it.  Right now the best I can do to function is make doctors appointments and watch videos that don’t take too much thought to understand.  That means most political videos are outside my ability.  I am sorry but right now I am functioning at the level of a confused grandpa.  Sorry.  I hope to get better soon.  Ron says if I don’t clear up by next week we will demand the primary care see me and deal with it. I’m not sure if I want that as my last visit he was insisting I think  about getting a colonoscopy.   Anyway.  This is a good video and one I watched several hours ago when I was much sharper than I feel now.   ***  Hugs

 

Surprise inspection catches shocking state of ICE immigrant prison

Israel Has Created Hell On Earth

This is a doctor working in Gaza.  He describes the conditions. The Israelis are sniping World Health doctors. Israelis are moving the “yellow line” that they are claiming is the new boundary line between Israel and Palestinians.  They are slowly moving the line deeper ad deeper into Gaza.  The Israeli snipers were shooting the young boys in different areas on different days, now they are using drones to fire on young children alone with horrific results. Remember from the last clip he was saying how Israel is blocking and destroying the medical supplies and equipment. Israel is deliberately shooting and killing children.  They want the chaos it causes, they like the fear it promotes, and they like that no new generations of Palestinians are growing. The doctor spoke of other atrocities that Israel is inflicting daily on the Palestinians.  Israel is a criminal nation doing a genocide, and much of our democratic leadership is deeply in the pockets of AIPAC.  Notice that Hakeem Jeffries was also at the same event.  People here have asked why I am so anti-democratic leadership; this is one of the reasons why. They are beholden to the big money donors and lobbies doing their bidding while ignoring the desires and will of the people they are supposed to represent, not rule over.  Hugs

Senate Minority Leader Chuck Schumer has emphasized his commitment to maintaining pro-Israel sentiments within the Democratic Party. In recent statements, Schumer articulated that his role is to ensure that the left remains supportive of Israel, a position he conveyed during an interview with The New York Times. This assertion reflects a broader concern regarding the changing dynamics of the Democratic Party’s support for Israel and Jewish causes. Schumer’s comments have sparked discussions about the implications of this shift, particularly in light of the party’s historical alignment with pro-Israel policies. Opinion pieces have noted that Schumer views the preservation of American institutions as integral to protecting religious minorities, highlighting the intersection of Jewish identity and political advocacy.  https://deepnewz.com/middle-east/chuck-schumer-emphasizes-role-keeping-left-pro-israel-says-job-to-keep-the-left-f0ff217c

“I have many jobs as [Senate] leader… and one is to fight for aid to Israel — all the aid that Israel needs,” Schumer said at a gathering of Jewish leaders and community members in New York on Sunday.

“I will continue to fight for it.,” Schumer continued. “We delivered more security assistance to Israel, our ally, than ever, ever before.”

According to Jacob Kornbluh, who provided footage of the remarks while reporting for The Forward, Schumer told the audience that his support for Jewish security funding will only continue growing under his leadership, calling it his “baby.”  https://www.commondreams.org/news/schumer-israel-aid

Sen. Chuck Schumer (D-New York) said on Sunday that one of his most important jobs as Senate minority leader is to “fight for aid to Israel,” as the Trump administration’s masked federal agents continue their deadly raids of the U.S. with little to no pushback from Democrats.

In remarks at a breakfast gathering of Jewish leaders in New York City, Schumer said, “I have many jobs as leader … and one is to fight for aid to Israel, all the aid that Israel needs.” Part of the remarks at the ​​UJA-Federation of New York gathering were posted online by The Forward reporter Jacob Kornbluh. House Minority Leader Hakeem Jeffries (D-New York) also spoke at the event.  https://truthout.org/articles/as-trumps-dhs-ravages-us-schumer-says-his-job-is-to-fight-for-aid-to-israel/


 

Dr. Tarek Loubani, a Canadian emergency room physician who has been volunteering in Palestine joins the program from Gaza for a harrowing interview. If you can, please support Dr. Loubani’s Glia Project, a medical solidarity organization that empowers low-resource communities to build sustainable, locally-drive healthcare projects.

 

Doctor Reports from Gaza | Dr. Tarek Loubani | TMR

Dr. Tarek Loubani, a Canadian emergency room physician who has been volunteering in Palestine joins the program from Gaza for a harrowing interview. If you can, please support Dr. Loubani’s Glia Project, a medical solidarity organization that empowers low-resource communities to build sustainable, locally-drive healthcare project.

Perkins Celebrates SCOTUS Ruling On Ex-Gay Torture Because “God Created” All People To Be Heterosexuals

Remember a couple of things as you read this below.  First there is nothing wrong with being LGBTQ+ and the feelings associated with those letters.  Second most children are desperate to fit in to the majority, to be “normal”.  The country was well on the way to reassuring these kids / adults that those feelings were normal and OK.  That the child was not damaged not an abomination to god, and did not need to be fixed.  Then the right wing religious hate machine managed to pass don’t say gay laws, bathroom bills, and “lets make those who are not straight or cis be attacked outcasts again” laws. 

There are two errors not really mentioned here. Minors who are going to these “religious anti-LGBTQ+ be straight cis only” therapest  / religious leaders are normally forced there by parents who have been convinced by religious leaders in their church that their child is damaged and needs to be fixed as they are sinning just for feeling as they do and so will be going to hell.  (Side note Jesus never said anything like that.  I remember being told that I was “acting gay / doing gay things” because I liked sinning.  To which I replied, You have it backwards.  I was born gay and I like doing / being gay and so I don’t care that it is sinning to you.)  The child is often told this to the point where even if they don’t fully hate themselves they are willing to do anything their parents want to “be normal” or get their parents off their backsides about it. And often the child is threatened with being thrown out of the home if they don’t go to conversion therapy.  And then the religious therapist reinforces the message that they are damaged, broken, that they cannot be as they are but must be fixed, must be healed of the sin / feelings.  Every major medical association has reviewed and studied conversion therapy and they conclude it is harmful, has no basis in science and those kids who go through it are far more likely to try to end their lives  so they recommend helping young people to accept themselves and their feelings except for the minor one started by a religious group that has rejected all the studies and findings for the religious belief that god wouldn’t create anyone that way and because we are not that so those people / kids that feel that way must be forced to change to make them and their god happy.  

There are facts, and then there are religious beliefs that disregard those facts.  The fact is that the data and medical studies show that helping non-straight non-cis children accept that they are normal also shows that gender afirming care is the most beneficial way to help young people who are LGBTQ+ and struggling with the idea of wanting to be “normal” or like the other students are.  I did not want to be gay as a kid growing up. I knew my attraction perhaps sooner than most kids due to my childhood situation. But all the time growing up I heard about how bad and horrible people who had the feelings I did were and how doing what I was being forced to do made me the worst possible human.  I was attacked at school even though I was not out but some thought I was different and that was enough.  When I had to join the church to get to leave my abusive home to get to safety I heard constantly how bad / sinfull / an abomination I and people like me were to god who wanted mankind to wipe me out… wait why does god need mankind to do that, especially white Christian men to do that, can’t he just stop making  gay people with out a demon in them? 

At my church school a lot of the boys were flirting with same sex attractions as they were horny teen boys separated from girls. Similar to the situation I found in the military where I had a group of “straight” guys asking me to go on passes with them.  And it was very fun, but they always claimed not to be able to remember what happened on those trips.  But each of those kids and some of those adults I had consensual fun with blamed themselves for failing god and failing to be normal.  I had one really cute fun guy who I would go on passes with who couldn’t wait to get into the hotel room to have sex.  And it was not just one way either.  He received as he gave and what he enjoyed he returned if you catch my trying not to be too explicit. But that was the same with all the guys, they were not hung up on straight norms while in a hotel room with me.  But this one guy would always on the way back to base tell me we couldn’t do that again.  It was wrong.  It was something we shouldn’t do.  I did not argue.  But 3 weeks or a month later he was begging me to go on a four day pass with him.   

My point was this guy was 18 / 19 like me.  I had already long accepted who I was and how I felt. He had taken the be normal message to heart.  He could have used therapy to accept his feelings and needs.  But the one thing he did not need and would have been harmful was conversion therapy. That guy was with me in Germany, after a wonderful weekend he again said we couldn’t do that again,  He got married and it lasted a year, then he got divorced.  I lost touch with him.  But lives were harmed because he just couldn’t face he was gay, couldn’t tell his religious parents he was gay, and would have been placed in conversion therapy if his parents had known as a teen he struggled with same sex attraction and was not straight. Hugs

 

Perkins Celebrates SCOTUS Ruling On Ex-Gay Torture Because “God Created” All People To Be Heterosexuals

From the Family Research Council’s website:

The Supreme Court on Tuesday delivered a major win for the free speech rights of counselors and therapists, ruling in an 8-1 decision that a Colorado law prohibiting licensed counselors from engaging in talk therapy to help a person “reduce or eliminate unwanted sexual attractions, change sexual behaviors, or grow in the experience of harmony with [their] bod[ies]” unconstitutionally violated the First Amendment right to freedom of speech.

FRC President Tony Perkins called the decision “A Supreme Court win for free speech and biological reality.”

“I’m encouraged to see the muzzle removed from therapists seeking to help willing patients come to terms with, and be at peace with, how God created them,” reflected Perkins in a statement to The Washington Stand.

“The Left is using the levers of government to block families and individuals seeking help. Under Colorado law, a girl could legally seek a therapist’s help to change her gender but could not seek help from that same therapist to align her identity with her biological sex. Where is the fairness or logic in that? I commend the court for striking down this deeply invasive and unjust law.”

Read the full article. In 2013, Exodus International – then the nation’s largest ex-gay group – disbanded. Its longtime president Alan Chambers declared that not one of his group’s thousands of victims had ever become heterosexual.

Conversion therapy is discredited junk science that inflicts harm on LGBTQ youth.The Supreme Court’s decision is disappointing and puts vulnerable kids at risk.

Governor Gavin Newsom (@governor.ca.gov) 2026-03-31T17:09:16.486Z

 


 

SCOTUS Strikes Down Colorado Ban On ‘Conversion Therapy’ For LGBTQ Youths

Hate and how to respond

I need to apologize for the lack of posts the last three days.  I have been spending a lot of time with Ron and I have been cooking three meals a day and doing the dishes and laundry which has left little time for posting.   Then late last night Ron realized how much he had been taking of my time and so today he wanted to leave me alone.  But then I did something I had not done for a month or more, I went to the abuse survivor site.   And one post led to the next and eventually to eventally 40 open tabs of fellow abuse survivors discussions of what they went through.  When Ron got back at 3:30 he noticed I was very upset.  He kept asking why until I told him.  Then he was angry.  He wanted to go in and close the entire window of open tabs.  He joked of taking my computer away from me like a teenager who went to the wrong websites.  I had to explain it to him.  I can’t talk to anyone about my childhood  / young adult abuse.  I don’t have anyone to share the memories with other than the blog and I feel horrible when I do that even though it helps me because I can’t help but think I am hurting people I care about like it hurts Ron when I share my memories with him.  But on that site, on the male survivor website are people who went through what I did, and they understand, they can hear me, and I can hear them with out it harming us, except that it becomes a loop I struggle to break out of.  I want to read every post and give a reply because I was there as they were, I am suffering as they are, and I can understand their pain and anger as they can mine.  It is a place to share my memories with people and not feel I am damaging them because they are already hurt.  Ron struggled to understand that and I told him.  “You did not know my abusers like I did.  But by the time you met them I had moved out of their home and they had moved on to their own homes and families.  I reminded him my abusive hellspawn sister who threw parties offering me as a party flavor to any teen who wanted me male or female required her own son to sleep in her bedroom from his preteen years until he left the house as an adult”. I know she made me please her, did she do the same to him?  I was paralyzed to help him.  At the time ron did not know of my abuse but he felt something was wrong.  It was well known in the “family” and no one thought it wrong.   I suspect my oldest male hellspawn did the same to his two young daughters.  I reminded Ron how my adoptive mother kept trying to kiss me on the lips when she was in the park model we owned.   He looked stricken and walked away, I think he had not connected the dots of that and how I had to try to avoid that.    Anyway I have deleted the window those tabs were in and I am going to reply to a few comments do the few dishes, and then try to do a cartoons / memes / news roundup hopefully for tomorrow.  Hugs

Let me explain the lack of posts, and I do feel bad about it.

Since Ron came home we have been very intuned with each other.  Each of us trying to give the other space and as much positive interaction as possible.  Yet I started to get irritable and Ron was noticing so I apologized this morning.  This morning is important, but let’s get back to that.    

Ron needs interaction and attention.  Plus I have gone back to making meals and making sure he eats.  That takes two hours out of my morning at least, but even more when I tell you what happened this morning.    

I got up at five, fed the cat who clings to me even though he is Ron’s cat.  I settled down to “work” putting together the cartoon / meme / news roundup that has not gone out in recent days.   Then Ron surprised me.  He got up early at 6:30 am.  OK.  

TMI to come.  

It is my birthday and knowing how sexual I am he appeared at my office door offering sexual relations.  One of the issues Ron had with the effects of the libido killing medication is he felt pressured some times to meet my needs when he really did not want to or feel it.   I had made a promise to not put such pressure on him when we talked about it when he got home at the same time he was trying to tell me he realized how important it was and wanted to work to be more sexual and he was starting to feel more sexual desire as the medications worked out of his system.  But when he appeared with his grand offer I had to gently tell him I felt that because today was my birthday he would feel pressured to offer me favors.  I did not want him to feel that pressure and because I am hypersexual … Again TMI… I masturbated in my office to porn before he got up… Twice.  When I explained that to him at first he seemed surprised and then I got the reaction I wanted when I explained it.  He blossomed and lite up understanding I was respecting him.  

Then I went back to my posting and and for the next three hours Ron kept coming to my door to talk to me, to ask my opinion on this or that or could I go with him to another part of the house to talk about something.  I guess I started to show irritation because Ron suddenly said this will be the last time I bother you.  

But this is what has been happening since he has been home.  He doesn’t seem to understand I need time and ability to do the posts.  I need to understand he needs and wants my interactions.  I try to divert him to his own projects but he is not easy to divert.   

OK one of the reasons I voluntarily went to therapy was I was lashing out at Ron in irritation of everything.  I have PTSD and according to the therapist, I am OCD.  I use the OCD to try to manage my PTSD.  So when Ron is being himself and is not ordered, not picked up, not… well Ron is a old never reformed youngest child frat boy.  He leaves everything where he last used, he folds towels like if he just gets it somewhat near a shape he can push it on the shelf, or he will root for a towel leaving the rest looking like a possum made a nest of them.  He will leave his socks on what ever surface in the livingroom he takes them off near.  His shoes are all over the house I trip over them.  The end of last year I was exploding and very angry.  I went to therapy.    

Before I saw “Sally Sunshine” I had already figured out the problem and the solution.  I have lived with Ron for 36 years.  I knew and accepted what he was in the first few months.  I thought over the years I could change him but over the last year I was lashing out at him for these things and he was getting very defensive and withdrawing from me.  I realized the truth before I ever saw the therapist, and she was shocked I figured this out.  

The problem was not Ron nor his actions which he always apologized for and said he would correct.  The problem was my reaction to it and how I was letting my irritation build to massive anger.   I got to the point when the towel shelves were messed up I would angrily demand he come back down to the bedroom and refold every towel.  He would do it but he was hurt.  Once I steped back from it all then realized something important.  He was hurt!

Before I went to therapy I realized the simple truth of the situation.  If it bothered me so much I could simply correct it myself.  Why humiliate him and make him feel bad for something he couldn’t help as it was ingrained in him and he couldn’t stop it anymore than I could stop the nightmares at night that leave me screaming that he tries to save me from?  I vowed to change and I did.  Now when the towels are rooted through I simply take them out and refold them my self like I want them to be.  That is what I should have done from the start.  I love him.

Back to this morning.  While he was standing there nude in my office doorway I went to him and hugged him.  I apologized for my irritability the last few days and told him it was wrong of me.  I also told him it was OK for him to call me out on it if I get acting irritable with him again.   Boy did he put that to the test this morning with three hours of needing / wanting my attention.  But it worked out.  I gave him the attention he wanted.

This afternoon he went out.  Did I mention it is my birthday?  He came back with two big steaks, something I have always loved but on our income have not had in nearly a year.  He also had flowers he arranged and put in a vase.  He got all the things I might like such as baking potatoes and the fixing for them.  He had gone out for prime rib but he couldn’t find it, his other choice was to take me out, but sadly I have gotten to dislike leaving my home.  I know I need to change that but even as I offered to go out Ron realized I wouldn’t enjoy it.  I only leave the house now for doctor’s appointments or to accompany him on large shopping trips.  I have developed an anxiety about leaving the house just like I have for voice conversations on the phone.

So Ron is making a large birthday meal complete…

So Ron called me to eat.  He had set up the folding table we use as a dining room table while the remodeling is going on.  He had a vase of flowers and our plates of steak and spiral potatoes.  I could see he was frustrated as he apologized he never got the broccoli with cheese sauce done.  It was a good meal, everything was tasty and good.  I ate my fill of decent steak something I have not had in a long time and Ron cooked them on the grill.  It was wonderful.  

I did ask him what he wanted for his upcoming 71st birthday, and he suggested several things not available in our area that he got in Texas.  But then he said he would think on it.  What ever makes him happy I will do.  

But I had started tomorrow’s cartoons / memes / and news roundup but it is late here after 7 pm, and I am wearing down.  By this time normally I am thinking of bed and to tell the truth I am now.  I will try to do a bit more and get up at 4 am to get it out at a resonable tiime.  Just letting everyone know why posts have been sporadic and not timely.  Thanks in advance for your understanding.   This is our 36th year together and I am not going to jeopardize our relationship.  But I have to get him to find a balance.   I need to find a balance as well.  Hugs