Quick update.

To steal a line from a song, “I feel good”! Emotional I am not just in a good enough spot, I really feel good. Ron and I have been spending a lot of time together. Like this morning I got out of the shower and got dressed and came out to the kitchen to find Ron doing dishes. So I picked up a towel and started to dry them. He hugged me and told me I did not have to, but I wanted to just to spend time together. After drying the dishes we hugged and kissed, like we were 20 years younger. He is trying to be supportive of me knowing how not going to the MS site is making me feel so guilty. He wants to give me as many good feelings as possible.

I got all my parts needed, all my stuff is backed up, I rearranged my office space making my USB hubs more available and neater, which is important to me. I feel ready to take the Inspiron to the kitchen counter, put in the one of the new SSD hard drives, put it back on the desk, hook it up, initialize the new hard drive. Then repeat for the second new hard drive. I will then wipe both computers and reinstall a very old USB Windows install from Microsoft, and then spend hours doing updates and reinstalling all my mail and other programs. I am going to lose stuff sadly but I need to do this.

So this is the plan. I am going to rush through the comments. Everyone can help by holding your comments for a couple of days. I won’t be posting during this time. I shouldn’t have posted this morning but the news items were too important. Once I get the comments replied to I start this exercise. If I am gone for a few days no one worry. I am in a good spot, emotionally and physically. Loves and hugs for everyone who enjoys them, and Best Wishes for those would prefer them. Scottie

My computer woes 9 21 2024

My really bad day trying to fix up my computers. I am very tired and worked all day on my computers to try to speed them up, and it failed badly. Hugs. Scottie

The post I lost and the last three days

I talk about my weekend and reasons for not going to the MS site anymore, the fact I wrote a long heartfelt post on WordPress and due to one mistake lost the entire thing, and how I plan computer upgrades before continuing to post more videos. Best wishes, and Hugs

My day shoe shopping plus some news

I forgot to shut off the A/C in the room. Let me know if it causes too much background noise. Also we had a thunderstorm during this recording, so you might hear some of it. Hugs. Scottie

My morning, my day trying to find sneakers, a few news articles such as Kennedy and chem trails, red states block methane regulations, Israeli settlers attack Palestinians and kill them, steal their homes / land, and think genocide is not a problem.

My feelings and upset 9-3-2024

I am raw and upset. My childhood abuse memories and feelings are washing all over me and I am struggling to deal with everything today.

Why I have not done much on the blog in two days. 8 30 2024

Just me rambling about my busy two days and stuff that comes to my mind. Sort of a get to know me blog.

It happened again.

I was so excited to do the videos and set tomorrows up along with having such a bad day yesterday that when I got to the comments this afternoon, I realized I lost some. I am so sorry to those who commented and did not get a reply. If that was you, please either put your comment in again on any post or email it to me. My emails are in my profile. I will do better, now I think I will check comments first when I get up and put them in a set of tabs so I don’t lose them. Thank you everyone for understanding. I only have so much time and energy, I am running on fumes right now and so want to go to bed. I woke up at 12:40 last night, have had a lot of my pain medications which are sleep inducing, and I am so tired. I am trying to stay awake. I went to bed last night at 6:30 so when I woke I had only about 6 hours sleep. If that. So I may go to bed soon even though I am trying hard to stay awake. Hugs. Scottie

My Bad Day 8 28 2024

I had a bad day of muscle spasms and made a red sauce with Ron. Recap of my day.

My plans for the blog 8 24 2024

At the very beginning I goofed and misspoke the name of the blog, referring to my old blog and old YouTube channel instead of Scotties Playtime blog and channel. Unfortunately I do not have editing software yet, and so I left it in as I would have to dump the entire video and make a new one. Remember I do not use scripts so I don’t know I could do a new one without a mistake either. Also remember it normally takes YouTube a day or more to do the CC for videos. Hugs. Scottie

Well It happened again.

Hi all. For two days I have worked on a couple posts. Never seeming able to get to the end of them. I get up at 2 or early and work on the Male Survivor site, then I have an hour or more long audio call with a fellow survivor, then I go to Joe My God to collect memes and see if there are stories I should post. In between there is the morning walk with Ron, feeding and cleaning up after cats, and doing home stuff. After showering I notice most of the morning is gone. During The Majority Report which comes on at noon and runs for 2 or 3 hours, I turn the monitor around and put on headphones and do the dishes, a job that takes me about two hours. Then another check in with the person I had the audio call with. Then supper. I realize the day went by without me being able to check my blog, without reading what Ali and Randy posted, not even time to reply to comments before I am struggling to stay awake and end up going to bed. That doesn’t include the days my pain or exhaustion doesn’t require me to go lay down. Get up far too early only to do it all again.

So last night before going to bed I put all the comments I could find in open tabs. I am going to work on them now. But I know some passed the last few days I did not see. If you had something you wanted to say to me and I did not reply, please send it again even on a different thing I post. Remember I do not see comments on Ali’s or Randy’s posts unless I go to the post page. I do care about the blog, I do love the comments. I am simply severely trying to do too much and deal with personal issues also. I have to cut something and concentrate on what is important, which is Ron, the blog, and you all. As I have taken to saying lately, far more than I ever thought I would, I care about you, I care for you. Ron wants me to watch more movies and TV shows like Piccard, wants us to go out to eat, wants us to spend more time together. All of these will eat into my online time. I have some thinking to do, and right now thinking is sometimes hard for me. Best wishes. Hugs. Scottie