I made another goulash with a different recipe. Here is the video

Ok yesterday afternoon I was so tired but after washing dishes Ron asked me to make supper.  He had taken a pound of hamburger out and asked me to make a beef goulash.  I said OK but realized I was going to have to wing it.  I did misspeak a few times and I need to remember when doing a video with a TV or other sound on to stop them or turn them down.  But it does show how bad my intrusive thought problem is that I need constant input from something to keep my mind occupied to keep the thoughts at bay.   I hope you enjoy the video and my recipe as such as it is.  Hugs

The last few days and the next few.

The last few days I have been trying to help Ron as he took drywall and cabinets down to move the wall between the bathrooms.  I am terribly bruised and Ron wants me to tell everyone that may see them that he did not cause them.  He is worried that if my doctors see all these bruises, marks, and cuts that they will ask me the question we were required to keep asking in the hospital … do you feel safe at home?  He is terrified that one of my providers will suspect him of abusing me.   No it is that my health is so fragile that I bruise easily and helping him as best I can leave me marked.

Today Ron slept until 8:30 am.  I had made it a thing that if the shopping included more than 5 items we went together.  Since we both had to shower, it was late when we got to it.  So we did a quick shop and tomorrow will be the big shop at multiple stores which will exhaust me.   Ron wanted to me to make a spaghetti red sauce so he could use the ravioli he bought and eat up the leftover pasta.   But at the same time due to the work on the house, normal chores that wear me out such as laundry which I am trying to do, and I am going to be too tired to really post.  I am struggling to finish this.  I will be able to click and paste, I will be able to watch videos, but serious thinking, answering comments I will try but doubt I will make much head way.  Best wishes for all, loves and hugs for those that wish it.  I am almost too tired to eat and I have not eaten yet today.  Hugs