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Scottie’s world today
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Misleading right wing media cartoons / memes
If they are not of straight White Anglo Saxon Protestant stock, or something similar, Republicans are terrified of them. I thought the only news story recently was that the far right was annoyed beyond belief that Disney was “normalizing LGTBQ” and recognizing that there are more families than the typical white family with a father, mother, and two children. Nobody, including Disney is afraid of or disdainful of traditional families. Accepting non-traditional families and treating them with respect TAKES NOTHING away from traditional families!!!! The fear is only coming from the ones who want want to go back to the days when all they saw was people who looked like, sounded like and worshiped just like them — with everyone else hidden in the shadows.
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And now some for fun
Scottie's Playtime 
I’m really, REALLY tired of all the gender stuff, but I did giggle at the “BenStraight” joke. 😄
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Hello Nan. I aways giggle at wordplay about sex jokes myself. I think the reason there is so much anxiety over the gender / sex stuff today is because of how prevalent heteronormative gender and sex is in our lives and something out of that norm jars us. It is like seeing something out of place when you just expect it to be there. That joke may have expressed the entire situation better than any essay. But to the jokes I like jokes about sex, even inappropriate ones. Some people think some subjects should be off limits for comedy, I disagree. If a comedian does a joke and it fails they won’t do it again, so why do we need to have a do not do list. I am a gay guy and I have had my best laughs at jokes about gay people. I think it is something people need both to laugh at themselves and to allow offensive things to be said. As I said a person who makes their income off people coming to see them will censor themselves when the public hates what they say.
OT. I don’t know if you picked up on it but I am having a real issue again with depression due to flash backs to my childhood abuse. It is again back in the front of my mind, and I cannot yet block my mind from going there. We don’t know what is causing it. Ron said that at night I am murmuring, whimpering, and sometimes shouting, mostly no no no. He said I am thrashing around and at sometimes pushing all the pillows near me off the bed. He said I once tried to push the cat away then grabbed the poor thing and held it to me. I don’t know I am doing any of this. Ron says when it gets bad I sound like I am trying to have a conversation, but all the words are garbled. This has been going on for / building for four days. For myself I noticed I have been struggling to focus and I have been watching a lot of mindless videos unlike my normal news ones. I keep going to lay down and trying to sleep but I don’t. The worst for me is I cannot concentrate on anything, like the comments I want to answer but I find my mind drifting. Some times I catch my self staring off not looking or seeing anything while the memories play in my head. I keep trying to do the comments but I cannot focus and for days have only wanted to go to bed and hope for sleep. I know it is depression, I have had it often enough in the past. I will try to get up some time in the night and answer some more comments. Best wishes.
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Scottie, I’m so, so sorry you’re having these flashbacks. I’m not familiar with the after-effects of abuse (fortunately!) so I wonder … is this something that will never go away? Are you cursed with episodes like this for the rest of your life? I trust you have had psychological counseling. Isn’t that supposed to help? You’ve never mention it so if you’re NOT going (anymore?), perhaps it’s something you need to think hard about.
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Hello Nan. I am doing better. What triggered me was not feeling well and added to that reading about all the abuse of kids in Ukraine. The videos did not seem to put me in a bad place at first but the more I seen and the more I thought of it the worse it affected me.
No Nan it will never go away. It is a lifelong after effect I can only manage. I have been through therapy several times; I know the tools and tips to help manage the episodes and effects. I am not in therapy right now, but if I had not started to pull out of the vortex, the tunnel of despair that seems to go on with no end, then I would have had to start again. It depends on how long an episode goes on and how deep it gets, how much it affects me.
I have bad dreams of different degrees at least 3 or four nights a week. Those bad dreams are hauntings of the abusers in dreams where I have to deal with them and in situations that are only threatening to different degrees. Those dreams vary in intensity and situations. Ron is the one who coined the term they are haunting me. At least once or twice a week, or more if I am triggered like I was this last week I have violent nightmares where I relive the abuse. As you can imagine those will tear me up badly. The problem is they can feed on each other, one causes the distress that will cause the triggers for more.
Management is the key, but it is like blood sugar, it can seem fine and under control until suddenly it is not. I thought I was doing well, and I thought I was safe enough with my defenses up. But it is like a shield or wall that gets eroded all the time by what I see and hear, what I remember, just life. And if I don’t keep constantly rebuilding and shoring up the walls, they develop cracks and can fall down. As I have mentioned part of that is to keep my mind busy, making it deal with incoming information to try to prevent the old memories from coming up, turning themselves on, replaying in my head like a web page with an unwanted advert on autopay. That is what normally works for me, it gives me other things to focus on so the memories don’t grab me and force me down into the pit, the vortex doesn’t have the strength to start any real pull to take me to the void. Any way see how it builds, it just becomes the focus, it takes over. Sometimes talking about it and expressing what is happening is helpful. And sometimes it is not. That is what the term “are you in a safe place” or “make sure you are in a safe place” mean before reading / watching some things? Clearly, I am a believer in trigger warning.
The trick is to change your thoughts, think of other things, move on to a new line of thought, derail that old train and power up a new rail line. Sorry the terms may sound silly, but the imaging helps.
Have no fear the Scottie ship’s shields are firming up and getting stronger. I took an attack but made it through it. All is good. Thanks for your support.
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These posts always manage to bring a smile to my face! Thanks, Scottie! Hugs
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Hello Jill. Thank you. I took a break from them, but they are coming back soon. I enjoy the cartoons also and they make a point we can all understand.
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