I am worn completely out and my day is not done.

Right from the start my day has been on my feet with little pauses.  During those pauses, I quickly posted a few things I felt important.   I got up at 3:30 am.  I feed the cats, did all that stuff, handled a few things on the computers.  Ron got up and informed me he had two appointments he failed to put into the calendar, one a doctor’s appointment and the other a Zoom meeting I needed to set my computer system up for.  Ok, I got a quick shower and started doing the dishes from last night, kept dealing with cats.  Then Ron left for his appointment and called me from the grocery store he stopped at on the way home.  He had forgotten to take the cane he uses, and he was struggling to walk.   I asked if he needed me to come get him.  Nope.

When he got home, I had already set up the computer system, just needed him to sit and do a sound check.  But when he pulled in to the driveway, he couldn’t walk, so I got his cane and helped him inside.   Then I brought the few groceries in.  I put them away.    I got him settled in my Pink Palace and ready for the Zoom meeting with family and his brother in the nursing home.  

As he did that, I started a red spaghetti sauce for supper.  After his meeting He came out and I got him some lunch.  I was struggling my self by now so I took even more medications.  After he ate he went to bed, I finished making the sauce and got my own lunch.  

After eating a great meal of Chicken Supreme with egg noodles and lots of the gravy, I took the remainder out of the large baking dish and put it into smaller containers, then washed all my dishes, his dishes, and the stuff I used to cook the meal.  I then got stuff ready for Ron, who wants to make meatballs for the sauce.

I am beat, I am done.  At this point, I don’t even care if we eat tonight.  I have clenched my teeth so much my own teeth and jaw aches.  My back won’t hold me well, my legs hurt and are so shaky.  I have four open windows with many tabs, I did not answer any comments or read any other people’s blogs.  I keep having pain shocks and muscle spasms, and I am afraid Ron is going to want me to help him more when he gets up.  I have 10 minutes left of The Majority Report with Sam Seder and Emma Vigeland.  Then I will shut the computers down and go to playing Halo.  If you don’t hear from me tonight or you had something you needed a response to, I hope I can get to it tomorrow, but for today I have reached the end of Scotties rope.  I know that has happened a lot lately, but the fact is with Ron hurting himself and us not having access to needed healthcare, and being rather lowering income, hell just say it we are poor now, things are much more demanding on me at this time in my life than ever before it seems.   Plus I also am old, disabled, in bad health, and today very tired.   Hugs, loves, Best wishes.   Scottie