Recently I shaved my head due to frustration managing my hair. But Ron told me a few days ago that he did not like the bald look and would really like me to grow my hair back. So these are the last pictures I took of me bald. Hugs
Last pictures of me bald
Scottie's Playtime 
you look good, kinda like a big, bald lovable Santa!
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Hi Jeff. I have missed talking with you. Thanks for the comment. How have you been. With all the cuts to social safety nets I have worried about you. For the first time in our lives Ron and I have had the last two months to put groceries on credit cards. This next month is our last payment on our car, so things should be getting a little better, but as I have posted the car is 7 years old and starting to have repair needs itself. Please either drop me a note to let me know how you have been doing, you can do it by email if you wish. I do hope all is well for you. Best wishes also, Hugs
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I’m trying to hang in there, Scottie but as you know it’s hard. I’m terrified of being homeless and without medical insurance. I keep thinking this prick is gonna take away social security and Medicare next. I’m doomed if he does. It’s terrifying. And the thing is, so many god damned idiots who rely on the same benefits you and I do voted for this fat, glob or urine. It’s mind boggling how people’s bigotry and hatred have been so easily manipulated by this orange fuck. Any way, Scottie, stay in touch, ok?
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smooth out the sideburns and you’d be damned adorable…
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Hi Judy. Thank you! I hate how scraggly the sideburns have gotten. I agree with you they need to be trimmed back as they grow in so sparse. One of the reasons I shaved my head was my hair got so thin it was hard to manage. I used to have such a thick beard and mustache and my hair while fine was thick and full. When I got so ill my hair thinned and then my doctors put me on testosterone to help my bones and muscles to grow back and stay strong. That made the hair on my body explode but the hair on my head got more fine, thin, and sparse. So I acted rashly instead of trying to trim it better. Now we have another chance. Hugs
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Thanks, Scottie. It’ll be interesting watching it grow out!
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Hi Ali. I will try to remember to take frequent pictures. But the real question is how to shape the newly growing in hair. Hair was one of the things used against me during my childhood. Until I got to my teen years I had to have my hair nearly shaved, kept short and when my adopting male would cut it he would leave bald spots. All to make me the outsider among the other kids. This was in the 1960s / 1970s. Every school picture had the other kids with shoulder length hair or such and me with a skinhead. At the same time my hell spawn male siblings who were offspring of the adopting couple could have their hair as long as they wanted. When I turned 15 or 16 I was finally allowed to go to the barber shop alone. Before that if the barber did not cut it short enough noticing my discomfort the adopting male would tell them to recut it shorter to his desired nearly buzzed cut length.
Once I got to go alone I also had to pay for it myself and I got away with it being a bit longer but if I returned home with it longer than the adopting adult male wanted I would have to go back and pay for a second hair cut again with my own money to get it shorter … and I would suffer punishment from his anger for not getting it short enough the first time. When I got hair long enough to part I always had to have it parted on the left, and the part had to be clear and defined.
When I went to the Christian boarding school I finally got to grow my hair out and due to what ever agreement they made with the Christian farmer who was paying for me to go there they never insisted the few times I returned home that I cut it shorter. Then when I went into the military I had to keep it off the ears, tapered on the neck, parted on the left side, swept to the front to the right. I kept it that was for the first ten years after getting out. Then I realized I couldn’t be punished anymore for how I did my hair. I grew it out, and still did the part. Then when covid hit I had no barber to go to and just let it grow. I loved it. But it got so thin it was breaking all the time. Plus I needed two hours before I left for an appointment after showering to let it somewhat dry. Some day soon I will make a post of the few pictures I have of me as a child. I think I have 6 or 7. Hugs
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Please don’t grow back you hair because Ron prefers it that way. Do it because you prefer not to be bald. I would never dream of asking my spouse to grow her hair longer or to wear skirts instead of pants even though I would prefer that. It’s not up to me to decide how she presents herself. It’s called autonomy, and as an autistic, I am very aware of how easily it can be taken away. Ron will love you no less because you are bald.
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Hi Barry. Thank you friend. I long ago stopped caring about my hair. My hair length was used as a torture and punishment when I was a child. During my young adulthood I was in the military so had to have it a set way, then took jobs in law enforcement then healthcare that required the same things about my hair. For more detail you can read the response I wrote to Ali. But once I got rid of any supervisory requirements over my hair I finally started doing what I had wanted to do all my life. I experimented with length and style. I loved each different look.
Then Barry I had to go on to testosterone for my back muscles and the bones which were getting dangerously thin. Plus my low testosterone was part of the reason I was having such a problem with slipping into depression from my childhood abuse the doctors felt. But that made my body hair grow out in a thickness and amount it had never done while it caused the hair on my head to grow thinner and more brittle.
But Barry what I found out when I finally realized I could do my hair anyway I wanted with no punishment was by then I was older and no longer really cared. I can have it bald or long, or shoulder length, swept back or parted. I no longer care. The feelings I had as a child no longer come into play. I have the control now, it is not a punishment someone can impose on me to hurt me. I still have the nightmares of being held down while my head was shaved as a 4 to 8 year old. After that I gave up and just let it happen.
What I am trying to say is if it makes my wonderful husband happier, if he likes it a bit better one way or the other, I am OK with it. That day he told me he would like me to grow it back he came to me later and said he was wrong to ask me to do that because like you said he felt I should do what makes me happy. But Barry at this point doing what makes him feel more comfortable, more happy makes me really happy. Because I have dealt with my childhood trauma, and I realize I do have control over the hair on my head. So it doesn’t bother me if he wants me to grow it back. The hard part is going to be when it goes from shaved as I have been keeping it to the short length that I was forced to endure as a child. Thanks again for your concern, but I am OK with honoring Ron’s request. I love him. Best wishes always.
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MOWHAWK!!
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WAIT…. That’s not how you spell that, is it?
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Hi Randy. I love you and I am wiling to try it … but the hubby says he thinks I will get picked up as a gang member. I told him I am the wrong skin color for that. In seriousness I just hope I can grow my hair back. It was getting thin and brittle before I shaved it. When we talk this weekend I have a funny story to tell you about a Mohawk, us, and James in Key West. Hugs
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