As some may already know I have been struggling recently. Hopefully soon things will get better. But some of the problems are my eyesight, Ron being in NH, the van has a tire that is leaking air badly, other issues like the house renovations leaving the bathrooms torn up and two rooms unusable, also I am hurting, tired, and I noticed recently I was getting depressed over everything.
Yesterday I had an appointment with my pain doctor. I have to by Florida law see them every two months. It used to be 3 months but the people in the state legislature felt poor people needed pain help should pay for more frequent visits and jump through ever stringent and needless requirements. I filled the tire with air, went to the appointment, my back muscles were so spasmed that I needed 12 shoots into the muscles on both sides of my spine from my shoulders down to my butt cheeks. The muscles were so hard the provider struggled to get the needle in and each shot hurt a lot.
I left the office and had to fill the tire with air. It had gone from 36 psi to 20. Thankfully I took the small battery operated compressor with me. But lifting it from the passenger side of the van then carrying it to the driver’s front tire, kneeling to fill the tire, then carrying it back was enough to cause me so much pain I was crying. I drove went quickly to the store next to our home, got the stuff to make the sauce, and drove home. I again had to fill the tire back to 36.
I was so down I sat here in my Pink Palace office and broke down. Then after a while I decided I needed to break these feelings so I dried my eyes and started to cook. I made short videos of it as I went along. I had no plan for the recordings and just stumbled my way through them. I knew that I had to keep them short as before I tried to email them to WordPress and they were too large of a file. But I figured out I can hook my phone to my computer and transfer the files to the computer and then to WordPress. So the videos are not great, I made verbal mistakes and I repeated some of the same things I already said without realizing it. I start out rather shaky, but as I went along I felt a lot better. The sauce came out great. I used the rest of the peppers and the celery, but did not add more onion. Not a fan of strong onion flavor. So I combined them into a short video to post here.
My plan this morning is to go for a walk, fill the tire go to the vet and get the cat medications, come home and rest / blog. Tomorrow I will take the van to a nearby tire shop and see what the issue is with the tire. Thanks for reading and maybe watching the video. As always comments are welcome. I wish I could share the sauce. I sure made enough. Hugs
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It sounds as you’re doing a great job picking yourself up and caring for you. There’s nothing wrong with crying, especially when pain is involved! And cooking is, indeed, good therapy! Maybe you can freeze some of the sauce, and have it again when Ron comes home. I’m really thrilled with the way you used sheer fortitude and your tools, and lifted yourself, instead of falling. Great work, Scottie. Wish I could send you a few slices of the loaf of bread I made Sunday before the storms.🍞💖
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Hi Ali. Thanks. I bet the bread is grand. I find it helps when I get so overwhelmed that getting and staying focused on something else to distract me to be good therapy. Yesterday I had a flat tire on the van. Everything that could go wrong went wrong. So Ron called his work from his home or come to yours car mechanic and the guy agreed to come here today and deal with the mess I made and put the spare on for me. He likes cash for parts and he gets them at a discount that he passes on to you. So not everything is bad right? Hugs
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Nah. And it was probably good to see the guy who did you so well with the car several weeks ago, too! 🙂
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Hi Ali. Yes he was here 16 minutes and did everything while his young son played in the back seat of his truck. He showed me a few things, loved our small batter operated compressor and said he was going to get one of them. Then I handed him a fifty and asked if it would cover the job, he smiled and assured me it was “perfect”. I thanked him again. As he started to walk to his truck he turned back and left me with this. “Next time before you try, call me. Any car job, call me first before you try”. I agreed with my pride a bit stung a bit, and watched him drive away.
But that socket I couldn’t budge he pulled right off. I told him I couldn’t budge it he smiled and said “I am strong”. He seems to be a good man willing to do a hard job in the Florida heat. His pickup has a hard cover and when he opened it the inside was full of compartments and cubbies for tools of everything needed to work on cars. Except the small compressor. I offered him water he declined, and his hands were all dirty from the spare so I offered to let him wash up inside but he had some stuff in the truck for he said. He seemed to care as he told me to be careful with the donut spare as it was old and he did not trust it much. As Randy said a man of skill worth knowing about. Hugs
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Well, I just put some nice energy out for good things to happen for him and his loved ones! What a wonderful person. It’s interesting how good people find each other, yes?
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