Newsweek observed that the White Dudes for Harris X account had been suspended after the group held a star-studded virtual call on Monday night that raised more than $4 million.
The automated message when the account was suspended read: โX suspends accounts which violate the X rules.โ Mike Nellis, who is involved in the organization, shared an update on Tuesday explaining that while the X account is live again, it still remains suspended.
He said the account is โpermanently in read-only mode,โ meaning it cannot post. When contacted by Newsweek for comment, Xโs press office responded: โBusy now, please check back later.โ
Classic. @elonmusk puts false video smearing VP Harris with lies in an AI generated audio/video of statements never made. He violates his own rules but because heโs on the wrong side of history now is reduced to muzzling honest support for #Kamala4President2024 . https://t.co/VTCxKDixLL
Our tweets are back (@dudes4harris) but our account remains suspended and according to Twitter our account is โpermanently in read-only mode.โ
Weโre asking people to keep donating to @KamalaHarris and to keep sharing our tweets on this and other platforms. Donโt letโฆ pic.twitter.com/IEzlCJX30E
Technically not GOP, but definitely a platform for white racist bigots, Nazis, and other hate-filled bigots. Which, I suppose, is pretty much the same thing nowadays.
I like to combine the old name into the new: Xitter, with the X pronounced as /sh/, because that is exactly what it has become since Musk took over. In a similar fashion, the messages are now xits, with x pronounced the same way
A priest is suing the gay dating and โhookupโ app Grindr after the company reportedly failed to protect his data, leading to his resignation from a top position at the U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops (USCCB).ย
In July 2021, Monsignor Jeffrey Burrillย resigned from his postย as the general secretary of the USCCB ahead of a report by The Pillar alleging that he had engaged in inappropriate behavior and frequent use of Grindr.ย
The app advertises itself as โthe largest social networking app for gay, bi, trans, and queer people.โ Its geolocation feature is popularly known to facilitate sex hookups between gay men.ย
The Pillar said its report on Burrill was based on โcommercially available recordsโ correlated to the priestโs mobile device. But a lawsuit filed this week claims that Grindr hadnโt taken steps to protect the data from third-party acquisition.ย
The suit,ย filed in the Superior Court of California,ย claims the โโgroup Catholic Laity and Clergy for Renewal (CLCR) purchased the priestโs data from the app and sent it to The Pillar.ย
The gay hookup app โassures customersโ that it โtakes stepsโ to protect data from unauthorized access, use, or disclosure, the suit says. But Grindr allegedly โknew they were failing to protect sensitive personal data of its customersโ yet failed to take steps to protect it, the filing says.ย
Public reports โreveal a stunning pattern of [Grindrโs] intentional and reckless failure to protect private data of its customers,โ the priest argues in the suit.ย
The company allegedly โfraudulently conceals and fails to disclose that it provides and/or sells its usersโ personal data to ad networks, data vendors, and/or or other third parties that sell the data or otherwise make it commercially available to others.โ
The suit requests damages, lawyerโs fees, and โinjunctive relief.โ It also asks the court to forbid Grindr โfrom committing such unlawful, unfair, and fraudulent business practices.โ
In 2022 Burrillย returned to active ministryย as a priest in his home diocese of La Crosse, Wisconsin, with then-Bishop William Callahan stating that the priest had โengaged in a sincere and prayerful effort to strengthen his priestly vowsโ and had โfavorably responded to every requestโ made by the bishop and the diocese.
The priest was appointed to St. Teresa of Kolkata Parish in West Salem, where he serves as pastor.ย
In his lawsuit, Burrill said his reputation had been โdestroyedโ by the data leak.ย
In addition to losing his position at the USCCB, he was โsubjected to significant financial damages and emotional and psychological devastation,โ the suit says.ย
Daniel Payne is a senior editor at Catholic News Agency. He previously worked at the College Fix and Just the News. He lives in Virginia with his family.
J.D. Vanceโs long friendship with a transgender friend who attended his wedding has been revealedโincluding how he spoke about hating cops and disparaged Donald Trump and conservative icon Antonin Scalia.
Sofia Nelson, a Yale Law School contemporary of Trumpโs running mate, revealed how they corresponded by text and email for years until falling out over his support for a ban on gender-affirming medical treatment for minors.
In October 2014, after the police killing that summer of Michael Ferguson, an 18-year-old Black man in Ferguson, Missouri, caused widespread protests and violence, Vance wrote to Nelson: โI hate the police. Given the number of negative experiences Iโve had in the past few years, I canโt imagine what a Black guy goes through.โ
The emails, in which Mr. Vance criticizes former President Donald J. Trump both for โracismโ and as a โmorally reprehensible human being,โ add to an already-existing body of evidence showing Mr. Vanceโs ideological pivot from Never Trumper to Mr. Trumpโs running mate.
And they reflect a young man quite different from the hard-right culture warrior of today who back then brought homemade baked goods to his friend after Nelson underwent transition-related surgery. The visit cemented their bond.
Nelson, now a public defender in Detroit, said they visited each otherโs homes, talked on Zoom during the pandemic and exchanged long emails discussing a range of subjects, from the minutiae of daily life to weighty discussions of current events and public policy issues.
An enraging, depressing, and beautifully written story on JD Vanceโs falling out with a transgender friend.
Views from 2014-17 include: Scalia is a shrill old man, support for some reparations, Trump a morally reprehensible racist, โI hate the policeโ https://t.co/mKSQj0yiRP
“Vanceโs opposition to affirming oneโs identity is complicated by his decision to change his name, not once, but twice. He was born James Donald Bowman and took the surname Hamel from his stepfather before finally choosing the name Vance to honor his grandmother, The New York Times reports. Critics argue that Vanceโs childhood experience should have fostered empathy and understanding toward the LGBTQ+ community. Instead, he has used his platform to undermine their rights, leading to accusations of hypocrisy.
At breakfast today, hubs and I debated the question: “Is there any chance that Trump will dump Vance now that Vance’s past actions and verbal horrors are coming to light?”
I think “yes.” Vance would have to “excuse himself” from remaining as the orange felon’s VP running mate — claiming, perhaps, some family or personal emergency he needs to devote his time to.
This is my first time commenting after reading for 15+ years. This story really resonates with me. I had a best friend through high school and college. We were practically inseparable. He was there for my coming out and a major part of my life. He was always supportive and caring. I was his best man at his wedding along with 2 other gay men were groomsmen. However, 2 years after he married a daughter of a preacher. He was radicalized to the right. He found god and couldnโt bring himself to even come to my wedding because it would offend his god. His entire family came but him. Some can be surprised or saying that Vance is faking heโs opinions but I believe he was just radicalized. I have seen it first hand. Religion is a dangerous tool that has caused so much pain.
Idaho’s recently enacted bill encourages parents and children to bring legal action against schools and libraries that refuse to move certain material into “adult only” sections.
Books are displayed at the Banned Book Library at American Stage in St. Petersburg, Fla., on Feb. 18, 2023. (Jefferee Woo/Tampa Bay Times via AP) ย
A recently enacted law requiring Idaho schools and libraries to remove materials that are โharmfulโ to minors infringes on the First Amendment rights of private entities, a group of private schools, privately-funded libraries, parents and schoolchildren say in a Thursday lawsuit.
House Bill 710ย โ which took effect July 1 after Governor Brad Little signed it into law in April โ allows citizens and the government to file a lawsuit against any school or library that doesnโt move certain material into designated โadult onlyโ sections within 60 days of a complaint.
โH.B. 710 is the product of a social climate in Idaho (and elsewhere) in which schools and libraries have been inaccurately and unfairly castigated and villainized for using and making available constitutionally protected materials with content that the state and some Idahoans disapprove of,โ the plaintiffs say in theย 57-page complaint.
The suit was brought by private schools Sun Valley Community School and Foothills School of Arts and Sciences, along with the Community Library Association, a privately funded public library, and Collister United Methodist Church, which operates a lending library.
The groups are also joined by a set of parents and two high school-age students, who say that they want access to these reportedly “harmful” books and other materials to further their education.
The plaintiffs say the law violates their First Amendment free speech rights and their Fourteenth Amendment rights to due process. They ask the court to block enforcement of the law and to declare HB 710 unconstitutional.
โThe actโs vague and overbroad definition of โharmful to minorsโ conflicts with decades of settled constitutional law and extends well beyond the stateโs limited authority to restrict the materials that private parties, like the private entity plaintiffs, may provide to minors,โ they write.
Under the actโs definitions, the plaintiffs say, materials like health and sex education textbooks, literary works like Maya Angelouโs โI Know Why the Caged Bird Singsโ and artworks like Michelangeloโs David would all be subject to removal, possibly based on arbitrary and subjective reasons.
โEven the Bible, if a defendant or citizen complainant subjectively believes members of their community would find them offensive,โ could be targeted, the plaintiffs note.
The plaintiffs also take specific aim with a clause of the act that restricts materials that depict or represent โsexual conductโ โ a definition that includes โany act of โฆ homosexuality.โ
Beyond the โvague and overbroadโ definition of what constitutes “harmful for minors,” the plaintiffs also take issue with what they called the โincoherentโ enforcement provisions outlined in HB 710. The act โfails to provide constitutionally meaningful guardrails on enforcement,โ plaintiffs say.
โIf a private entity plaintiff disagrees with the content-based assessment of the parent or minor and declines to segregate the challenged material, the parent or minor is authorized to file a civil suit against the private entity plaintiff and incentivized to do so by a cash reward and the availability of โactual damages,โโ the plaintiffs write, referring to a provision in HB 710 that allows for a possible recovery of $250 and statutory and actual damages, if the complainant prevails in the case.
The government itself is also permitted under HB 710 to seek an injunction against any of the plaintiffs, who say this could lead to financial and reputational harm.
The plaintiffs name Idaho Attorney General Raรบl Labrador as a defendant, alongside Jan Bennetts, prosecuting attorney for Ada County, and Matt Fredrick, prosecuting attorney for Blaine County.
HB 710 is not the first attempt Idaho legislators have made to restrict library access in the state. A version of the measure made it through the 2023 session but was rejected by Little.
In a letter after he signed HB 710, the governor commended the 2024 bill for having tighter definitions for restricted material and for lowering the recovery from $2,500.
โI share the co-sponsorsโ desire to keep truly inappropriate materials out of the hands of minors,โ Little wrote in April.
Libraries initially pushed back on the bill, citing free speech concerns and the financial burden it could levy, particularly on smaller libraries, but legislators stood by the measure.
โI can assure you that there is no book banning and thereโs no book burning and thereโs no book removal anywhere in this legislation. What we have to look at when you look at these libraries is that you have differing viewpoints and different opinions from taxpayers,โ Representative Jaron Crane, a Nampa Republican and bill co-sponsor, said in committee, the Idaho Capital Sunย reportedย in March.
I have followed Gronda for a long time, before she took her long break.ย But she is back and her writtings while in debth and a bit long are so very interesting and well researched that they are more than worth the time to read.ย I love them.ย I hope everyone here will.ย Hugs.ย Scottie
โLetโs sayย Roe vs. Wadeย is overruled, Ohio bans abortion, you know, in 2022, letโs say 2024, and then every day George Soros sends a 747 to Columbus to load up disproportionately black women to get them to go have abortions in California.
โOf course, the left will celebrate this as a victory for diversity. Thatโs kind of creepy, right? If that happens, do you need some federal response to prevent it from happening because itโs really creepy?
โAnd, you know, Iโm pretty sympathetic to that, actually.โ โ J.D. Vance, appearing on the podcast of far-right activist Aimee Terese during his 2022 campaign for the US Senate.
JD Vance said this on a podcast hosted by a Twitter user he follows who calls for putting โmisogynists back in the Oval Officeโ and says โwe need to stop normalising consentโ https://t.co/ElrkbAf5VJpic.twitter.com/BEwX61QfpB
A complete Christian take over if the US and an attempt to turn society back to 1850s mentality with a 1950s society.ย And if tRump wins, we all well have to start attending the hate church nearest us.ย The women in the back, on one side, black people in the back on the other, and white men in front to show their privilege.ย After church while the men relax the women and girlsย will be cooking meals.ย The gays will be converted in camps and if they still have the demon gays, the LGBTQ+, they will be removed from society.ย ย Hugs.ย Scottieย
Heritage Foundation leader has long received spiritual guidance from group and his policy goals align with its teachings
Kevin Roberts, the Heritage Foundation president and the architect ofย Project 2025, the conservative thinktankโs road map for a second Trump presidency, has close ties and receives regular spiritual guidance from an Opus Dei-led center in Washington DC, a hub of activity for the radical and secretive Catholic group.
Roberts acknowledged in a speech last September that โ for years โ he has visited the Catholic Information Center, a K Street institution headed by an Opus Dei priest and incorporated by the archdiocese of Washington, on a weekly basis for mass and โformationโ, or religious guidance. Opus Dei also organizes monthly retreats at the CIC.
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Kevin Roberts, president of the Heritage Foundation, speaks at an event on 12 April 2023.ย Photograph: J Scott Applewhite/AP
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In the speech โ which he delivered at the CIC and was recorded and is available onlineย โ Roberts spoke candidly about his strategy for achieving extreme policy goals that he supports but are out of step with the views of a majority of Americans.
Outlawing birth control is the โhardestโ political battle facing conservatives in the future, the 50-year-old political strategist said, but he urged conservatives to pursue even small legislative victories โ what he called โradical incrementalismโ โ to advance their most rightwing policy objectives.
Kevin Roberts explains ‘radical incrementalism’ to advance rightwing policy objectives โ video
Robertsย gained notorietyย this year as the leading force behind Project 2025, a foundation plan backed by more than 100 conservative groups that seeks to radically upend a broad range of policies if Trump gets elected again, from limiting abortion access and LGBTQ+ rights andย dismantling the Department of Education, to ending diversity programs and increasing government support for โfertility awarenessโ programs, like ovulation tracking and practicing periodic abstinence, instead of more reliable contraception.
But Robertsโ personal ties to Opus Dei and the significance of his affiliation, have received far less attention.
Gareth Gore, the author of aย forthcoming bookย on Opus Dei, called the Catholic organization โa political project shrouded in a veil of spiritualityโ. The groupโs founder, Saint Josemarรญa Escrivรก, saw his followers as part of a โrising militiaโ, Gore said, who were seeking to โenter battle against the enemies of Christโ.
โLike Project 2025, Opus Dei at its core is a reactionary stand against the progressive drift of society,โ Gore said. โFor decades now, the organization has thrown its resources at penetrating Washingtonโs political and legal elite โ and finally seems to have succeeded through its close association with men like Kevin Roberts and Leonard Leo.โ
Leonard Leo, the Federalist Society executive vice-president, speaks to the media at Trump Tower on 16 November 2016.ย Photograph: Carolyn Kaster/AP
Leo is a conservative activist who has led the Republican mission to install the rightwing majority in the supreme court andย finances many of the groupsย signed on to Project 2025.
Like Roberts, Leo also has links to the Opus Dei-linked CIC. In a 2022 speech accepting the CICโs highest honor, the John Paul II New Evangelization award, Leo praised the center while also referring to his political opponents as โvile and amoral current day barbarians, secularists and bigotsโ who were under the influence of the devil.
Democrats, including Kamala Harris, have beenย sounding the alarm on Project 2025ย to warn voters of what a second Trump administration could do.
โ[Trump] and his extreme Project 2025 agenda will weaken the middle class. We know we have to take this thing seriously. And can you believe they put that thing in writing?โ Harris said this week in her first presidential campaign rally, to laughter. โRead it. Itโs 900 pages.โ
Trump, for his part, has sought to distance himself from the project, though the people behind it haveย close ties to the former president, and the policies it envisions often align with Trumpโs ideas. Roberts has said he is โgood friendsโ with JD Vance, Trumpโs running mate, and Vance has praised Project 2025 as having โsome good ideasโ. Vance, who converted to Catholicism in 2019, also wrote the foreword for Robertsโย forthcoming book, praising the author for articulating a โgenuinely new future for conservatismโ.
โWe are now all realizing that itโs time to circle the wagons and load the muskets. In the fights that lay ahead, these ideas are an essential weapon,โ Vance wrote.
JD Vance, Trumpโs running mate, speaks at a campaign rally at Radford University on 22 July 2024 in Radford, Virginia.ย Photograph: Alex Wong/Getty Images
Opus Dei does not disclose the names of its members. The groupโs roots date back to a century ago, when the group was established in Spain in response to a clash between conservative Catholics and anti-Catholic socialism and communism in Spain. Decades later, the group was granted special status by the conservative pope John Paul II, who supported Opus Dei and saw it as a response to the rise of liberation theology in Latin America, a progressive church movement.
Some of Opus Deiโs special rights were revoked in recent years by Pope Francis, who is seen as a more progressive pontiff.
One of the core tenets of Opus Dei is that it does not believe in the traditional separation of church and state. Instead, said Massimo Faggioli, a professor of theology and religious studies at Villanova University, it believes the two ought to have a symbiotic relationship.
โThey are secretive, so while they are not [outwardly] part of this [Project 2025] per se, it is not surprising at all that some of their members are part of it. They see this moment in politics โ and the possibility of allowing โwoke ideologyโ to win โ as fundamentally changing the nature of America, western civilization andย Christianity,โ Faggioli said.
He added: โOpus Dei is part of [a movement of] US conservative and traditionalistย Catholicismย that holds a view that the United States is the last bastion of Christendom, so that if the United States goes a certain way, so goes Christianity, and Catholicism.โ
Indeed Roberts made it clear earlier this month that he believes the US is at a crossroads, andโin the process of the second American Revolution, which will remain bloodless if the left allows it to beโ.
Asked whether it had a view on Robertsโ remarks or Project 2025, a spokesperson for Opus Dei told the Guardian in a statement: โOpus Dei is an institution of the Catholic Church that tries to help people come closer to God in their work and everyday lives. Opus Deiโs aims are purely spiritual and it does not endorse or have any opinion on any political project of any kind.โ
Opus Dei is controversial not only in the US. Dozens of women from Argentina and Paraguay filed a complaint to the Vaticanย over labor exploitation and abuses of powerย they say they experienced after joining the group at sites in multiple countries. Andย reporting in Australiaย gave insight into schools run by Opus Dei, where former students allege their education left them with โpsychological damageโ.
Robertsโ personal background suggests his ties to Opus Dei are not just limited to the CIC. A school founded by Roberts in Louisiana, called John Paul the Great Academy, considers Opus Dei-founder Escrivรก its โpatronโ.
Josemarรญa Escrivรก, founder of the Catholic group named Opus Dei.ย Photograph: REUTERS
Roberts was also involved in an Opus Dei-affiliated high school leadership program in Austin, Texas. A website that tracks Opus Dei menโs activities called Where You Are included a profile of the high school program in Austin where Roberts appears to volunteer and โcontributes significantly โ to the schoolโs career and leadership program.
Roberts was featured as a guest at another Opus Dei-linked school, the Camino Schools, in 2023. In introductory remarks before Roberts spoke, the schoolโs chairman, Bob Rose, praised schools that teach boys and girls they are โdifferentโ, they learn differently and are inspired by different things, and where boys are taught by โmanly menโ who serve as role models.
Robertsโ critics said concerns about his ties to Opus Dei were not connected to his identity or beliefs as a Roman Catholic.
โKevin Roberts, like all Americans, has a guaranteed freedom to worship or not under our constitution,โ said Lisa Graves, co-founder of Court Accountability, a non-partisan group that seeks to combat judicial corruption.โ That is not at issue. What is of concern is how some powerful elites, like Roberts, who have failed to persuade the American people to embrace their agenda, seem eager to use the power of the executive branch to impose their personal religious views as binding law on other Americans โ by barring abortion, using the government to endorse the rhythm method of contraception, even banning mention of โcondomsโ in womenโs preventative health, as well as assailing the rights of LGBTQ+ Americans.โ
Heritage did not respond to a request for comment. The CIC did not respond to a request for comment.
During Robertsโ September 2023 speech, which received little notice at the time but is posted on the centerโs YouTube page, Roberts detailed how conservative Catholics and their allies could advance US policy to end access to abortion, same-sex marriage and contraception.
Knowing the unpopularity of banning birth control โ a harder political battle to wage than advancing anti-abortion and anti-gay marriage policies โ he encouraged an incremental approach to pursuing this long-term goal.
โEven in a politically conservative setting, that can be a very difficult thing to advance,โ Roberts told attendees at the CIC event. โA majority of Roman Catholics donโt believe in that teaching, if public opinion surveys are the case. And so it makes it very difficult to advocate for that.โ
The faithful should practice the โgift of discernmentโ to know when to bring it up: โSometimes the right thing at the right time to the right person isnโt the full teaching of humanity, right? It isnโt the full teaching of contraception. And recognizing that thatโs not the time is no way turning into Judas. In fact, itโs being apostolic. And the very definition of the word, which is in modern common parlance, meeting someone where they are.โ
In espousing his theory of โradical incrementalismโ, or what he called the โenchilada theoryโ, he said it was critical for conservatives to work first to achieve a small part of a larger policy goal based on whatโs politically possible at the moment. Sometimes, he said, having even half an enchilada could be a victory.
On abortion, he noted that Roman Catholics believe โno abortion can be morally justifiedโ, but that even in conservative circles in the US, this is not a majority opinion, and itโs an โeven more difficult position to holdโ after the Dobbs decision. Using the โsame vocabulary of our faithโ in the policy arena has a negative effect on electoral outcomes, he said.
Roberts advised listeners not to accept the โnarrative framing of the other sideโ on these issues. He said conservatives who are anti-abortion should stop talking about it the way the left wants them to and instead โtalk about the fact that many of them want abortion to be legal until birthโ.
Strategies of incrementalism and narrative framing donโt always apply, he added, because sometimes you just have to fight.
โRight now, we have to fight on religious liberty and, in particular, religious liberty as it relates to protecting institutions of faith,โ he said. โAnd thatโs not a time for strategic retreat. Itโs not a time to be savvy, itโs not a time to be sweet. Itโs not a time to develop friendships with the other side. It is a time to take our fist โ figuratively, Father Charles โ and bust them in the nose because they hate what you and I believe.โ
A Texas constable spent two years working to bring criminal charges against school librarians for distributing books he felt were obscene. KXAS’ Scott Friedman reports.
Hello Everyone.ย As everyone knows my blog means a lot to me, I have used blogging the friends it brought me as a help against all the bad memories I have in my life.ย But for the last three weeks I couldn’t really do the blog and today at nearly 1 pm, after being at the computer since 3:30 am, I am just now starting to get to the comments I love.ย ย
I went to bed yesterday after a grand meal of a steak and large salad.ย Even though I did not finish all the steak but did eat the entire salad is because I just don’t eat like I use to, I now eat like an older person.ย But it was great and grand.ย But after, I went to bed about four pm.ย ย
I woke on and off until 1:30.ย I tried to go back to sleep but at 3 am Ron’s rescue cat tummy feed me alarm went off so I got up to feed him.ย At 3:30 I got to my computers.ย Then I went to the Male survivor site.ย I found I had several private messages and a bunch of replies to what I wrote before.ย Plus there were 20 more posts.ย I read them and replied to those I had something to add to the thread.ย Plus it is not just one person, every person is adding their thoughts and we all add our responses to them.ย It took me until 10 am this morning to clear it all out.ย Then I had to lay down and I slept for an hour and half.ย ย
When I got up, I went to the admin on my blog and checked the posts from Ali and Randy.ย I set them up in tabs to like, add comments to, or just read.ย I love that both Ail and Randy are adding their thoughts here.ย First it makes sure there is content when I can not get to it, and second what they both post is their ideas, their concerns, and different from what I might post.ย As Ron says it broadens the blog to give a far more diverse reason for people to come visit.ย ย Not to steal from the Christian or other holy books, but I looked on it and find it good.ย ย ๐๐๐๐๐
I have been feeling dragged out and tired.ย But I am hoping as the cold fades and I have more energy I can do better at handling both the blog and the other sites.ย I hate the feeling that there is simply not enough of me, and both Ron and Randy are worried about the time I am spending on the abuse site, immersed in others abuse and reliving mine.ย They are afraid it will cause me a relapse into depression on my own abuse.ย Yes it is possible I have already had bad dreams and been fighting that at night.ย ย
One guy was abducted at age 7, tortured and abused to be made a sex toy for a cult leader.ย Scary stuff, after a few years he was rescued, but still finds himself hitting himself if he doesn’t refer to the guy who abused him as master.ย He hits himself before he can stop it. Then he simply gave himself to anyone who demanded it or told him to please him. As a teen and young adult he simply lived in a house with no clothing thinking he had a boyfriend who loved him, but instead the guy would invite friends over and they used him when ever they felt like it.ย ย He got to the point that no matter what he was doing guys who were friends with his “boyfriend” simply would grab him and fuck him or tell him to drop down to suck them off.ย I understand the trained behavior, I was trained to it also.ย But most of mine stopped when the hell spawn left the house, only the adults were left to use me and occasionally the hell spawn came back or took me to their home to service them.ย One took me out in his semi and forced me to “please” him when he parked in a truck stop.ย I was an adult maybe 26 and still had not learned to tell them no.ย I never went out in his truck again no matter how much he tried to get me to.ย ย
The victim and I spend hours talking, writing back and forth.ย He wants more like a video call or phone call, but I have explained to him those things trigger me.ย ย Even now at 61 there are only two people in my life I feel comfortable / OK talking to on the phone, I still resonate with the beatings to never touch a phone as a child.ย I do much better on a computer or video app on the phone like FaceTime, because I don’t have to look like I am holding a phone to myself, getting open for an angry beating.ย But with ear buds it works also.ย
So right now I am tired.ย Again, I am going to lay down a few minutes because I can not finish this, my eyes are crossing.ย Yhrrn —————————————————————————————————————————————————————————
Several hours later …ย ย I just got up.ย ย What happened is along with my normal medication I took a med my doctor wanted me to try that is also given to MS patients.ย Ron has it at a much smaller dose.ย He wanted me to try it with my other when my muscles hurt or spasms more than I could stand with my regular medication.ย I took a half one.ย When it kicked in, my eyes crossed and I felt so tired, needing to lay down.ย Once the med cleared my system after a few hours I feel fine again but I will say my pain and spasms are much better.ย I got so foggy I wrote the last above the line before I went to bed.ย I decided to leave it in.ย ย
So the day is gone by, I have not posted or replied to comments, I have not helped Ron much around the house.ย I plan to make a sauce tomorrow.ย I did not even post my meme post this week, but I have not added to it in four days until today.ย So I think I will hold it a few days, or at least until tomorrow afternoon.ย ย
I thank everyone for hanging on here, to listening to me, Ali, or Randy.ย I feel so much better since I got up, I am going to go to the blog and reply to comments that are there I have not lost yet.ย As always to those who posted a comment I missed, reposted it or use my email listed to get my attention to it.ย Know I love you.ย This is a minor hiccup that is going to work itself out soon.ย ย Hugs.ย Scottie