Category: Sex / Sexual

Memories, Ron, tears.

Short update.  When Ron got home from shopping, he sensed something was wrong.  He asked me about it.  I told him briefly I had some more intrusive memories.  He was quiet and then said when we put the groceries away we will talk.  After we got done I went and sat down, I was not sure that I wanted to tell him, I had hid so much for so long.    He asked if I wanted to talk and could he know what was upsetting me.  We sat and talked, I told him the new memories, the details that were flooding my brain, the feelings I was experiencing with them.  Every time I got to points where I would be too upset to talk, starting to cry he would tell me to slow down, breathe, take your time.  Then when I got it all out, I couldn’t look at him.  He softly said I needed to distract myself, and I explained how that was what I was trying to do but that wouldn’t help me heal or get over anything, we both knew from experience.   I told him I needed a few minutes alone and he gave me that.  When I came out he walked slowly to me and held his arms out, and I grabbed him, I clutched him.  He held me back and kept telling me they were gone, they couldn’t hurt me anymore.   Finally, I stepped back and said to him, but that is where you’re wrong, the memories don’t stop.  The feelings don’t stop.  And when I remember the abuse, I also feel the abuse.  He pulled me to him and held me tight.   He had no words, and I don’t have any either.   I know eventually I will share this with all of you who want me too or are able to deal with it.  I have learned that talking about it does help in a weird way.   Yes it hurts at first, deeply intently, but ignoring it makes the pain build and become much worse.    

For some reason at first when I was telling him I thought Ron was going to reject me as he started looking away.  Then after I now realize he was struggling not to cry and with his anger, both which would have hurt me had he shown them. He has gone to lay down for a nap, talking to me about it first.  I feel weird again.  I know he will be watching me, he will be worried.  Did I do wrong to tell him?  Should I have hidden it, gone back to the days before he really knew much?  Now my doubts are creeping in and trying to take root.   

I am not going to proofread this for errors.   Sorry, I do need to step back.  Please overlook them or if they are important call me out in comments.  I have spine shots tomorrow at 10.  I have to get my mind in a better place, I have to find peace.  Hugs.  Scottie

Another few intrusive memories hit, new memories of abuse. So hard the last 6 months.

Know I am safe.   Ron is grocery shopping, but I have people to contact.   Please understand once I got past the shock and could deal I texted Randy.  But he is at work and the boss, so I am OK enough not to need his time, even though he offered.   He is so grand, if the abused people ever had the same set-up as the AA / friends of Bill, he would be the world’s best sponsor.  I am not in a safe enough mind place to tell everyone about the new memories / fragments.   I have just stopped crying because I wanted to type and forced my attention on the keyboard.  Every time I try to type what I remember, I fall apart.  But part of me knows to turn to the computers, to Scotties Playtime, to focus hard on this … what ever this is.  Because if I don’t the vortex may come.  Even the thought of it just started body reactions I am struggling to control.   Part of me is trying to deny the memories, to force them back into forgetfulness, to put them back in that chest wrapped with chains thrown into the deepest part of the ocean … but … I know enough to understand I can not heal or maybe even really deal with them until I am able to write them, to vocalize them, to accept them and then conquer them with all the strength of the person I am.  I have to get the emotions under control.  I want to slide into despair, wondering if it will ever stop, to what if I lose control, to wanting to hide, to crying / shaking / scared when as an adult right now in my home I have no reason to be afraid.   I think that now that Ron knows so much more when he gets home, I should tell him about this.  My instinct, what I have always done, is hide it from him.  But maybe it will help if I tell him.     Anyway.  Got to go, everything hurts, I … Just have to go.   Love and hugs.  Scottie

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The True History of Male Gay Brothels

Same sex relationships and male gay brothels were normal until Christianity took hold.  Then the bigotry started.   Sexual activity was an accepted part of everyday life, until regressive repressive Christians ruined it for everyone.   And they are still at it today.  Hugs

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These WILDLY Delusional Stories Told by Conservative Will Make Your Head Explode

As conservatives become more radicalized and grow more detached from reality, their perception of the world is changing as well. In this video we’ll look at several delusional claims made by conservatives.

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Klanned Karenhood Lady Has Her Own Sex Tape, Go Figure

Klanned Karenhood Lady Has Her Own Sex Tape, Go Figure

Tengrain has a great post on the hypocrisy of the family values republican crowd.  Well worth the visit.   Hugs.  Scottie

GOP Rep: “Good Conservatives” In Congress Are Being Blackmailed Over “Naked Motel Sex” With Strangers

GOP Rep: “Good Conservatives” In Congress Are Being Blackmailed Over “Naked Motel Sex” With Strangers

We know that tRump hung out with mobsters, and acts like a mob boss wannabe.  The maga cult is all thugs and gang bangers who want to rule by force in might makes right violence.  I have often looked at how fast Lindsey Graham went from tremendously anti-tRump to in one gold game with tRump coming out a whole owned servant to tRump’s and a person willing to do crazy things to support the hard right.  We know many republicans are owned / paid by Russia.  That may include blackmail as this congress person admits.   If you watch the video, he says the people behind it want to control the world.  He claims Jeffery Epstein was killed as he was blackmailing people, both men and women, selling that information to foreign intel agencies, and he knew too much while not being useful behind bars.    Hugs.  Scottie

December 21, 2023

“Why in the world would good conservatives vote for crazy stuff like what we’ve been seeing out of Congress? Here’s how it works. You’re visiting, you’re out of the country or out of town or you’re in a motel or at a bar in DC and, whatever you’re into – women, men, whatever — comes up and they’re very attractive and they’re laughing at your jokes. And you’re buying them a drink. Next thing you know, you’re in the motel room with them naked.

“And next thing you know, you know you’re about to make a key vote. And what happens? Some well-dressed person comes out and whispers in your ear, ‘Hey, man, there’s tapes out on you.’ Or, ‘Were you in a motel room or whatever with whoever?’ And then you’re like, ‘You really ought not be voting for this thing.’

“You know? And what do they do? It’s human nature. And, you know, no man or no woman actually is an island. And they know what to get at. You know, if it’s women, drugs, booze, it’ll find you. And they say, and in most elected offices, and that’s what people of power and influence do.

“And it’s just, you know, I’ve been in this game my whole life. I spent 16 years in the state legislature in Tennessee and eight years as county mayor. And now I’m in my fifth year in Congress. But it’s just — the stakes are higher. But the game is still the same.” – GOP Rep. Tim Burchett, speaking to far-right podcaster Benny Johnson.

The clip is cued up.

 

Pollos Hermanos ✓ᵛᵉʳᶦᶠᶦᵉᵈ15 hours ago

He’s gonna get Cawthorned.

MrRobotoLA  Pollos Hermanos ✓ᵛᵉʳᶦᶠᶦᵉᵈ15 hours ago

Sounds like he’s on, or knows plenty of politicians, who will be on the Epstein list.

Todd20036  Pollos Hermanos ✓ᵛᵉʳᶦᶠᶦᵉᵈ 15 hours ago edited

Cawthorn was turned out because of the gay thing..No other reason

Paddycakes2001  Pollos Hermanos ✓ᵛᵉʳᶦᶠᶦᵉᵈ10 hours ago

Yep.

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Ninja0980  Pollos Hermanos ✓ᵛᵉʳᶦᶠᶦᵉᵈ15 hours ago

Only way he’ll leave Congress, as his district is one of the reddest in America.

JCF 15 hours ago

LOL, that’s shockingly honest!

“whatever you’re into – women, men, whatever”

Even a sexy, sexy sheep: “good conservative” bed-buddies, all!

You Again?  JCF13 hours ago

It’s so honest that I think he might have some personal experience with these scenarios.

And, what he’s into is the “whatever”. No proof, just a hunch.

Sam_Handwich 15 hours ago

Who amongst us isn’t guilty of a few treasonous motel romps?

Victor  Sam_Handwich15 hours ago edited

Some say you were seen loafing in the lobby of the Motel Sex Six.

fuzzybits 15 hours ago

There’s nothing wrong with it unless you’re trying to pass laws to prevent others from doing the same thing.

Todd20036 15 hours ago

Someone is feeling guilty about having sex with someone he shouldn’t have

But honey, trump raped a kid, raped an adult, and cheated on his wives

So I’m pretty sure sexual blackmail isn’t the reason congress republicans have gone full Nazi

clay  Long Tom15 hours ago

And how many out of town motel trysts are necessary for one or enough of them to be honey-traps? His explanation doesn’t sound like he’s made any attempt at monotony, I mean monogamy.

(((GC))) – End the filibuster!  clay 14 hours ago

“Responsible nonmonotony” and “responsible nonmonopoly” are how Dr. Deborah Anapol riffed on “responsible nonmonogamy” in her (useful and otherwise quite serious) book Polyamory: The New Love Without Limits.

(It includes a chapter on various scenarios of “making the transition to polyamorous relating”. Easiest case: you’re currently single and unattached. Hardest: you’re in a monogamous relationship and one of you has cheated. In between: you’ve made a monogamous committment you wish you hadn’t.)

Professor Barnhardt 15 hours ago edited

You too, huh? I can’t tell you how many times this has happened to me. I’m walking along, minding my own business, and the next thing you know, I’m having naked motel sex with a stranger or strangers, depending.

It’s so inconvenient. I wish there were something I could do about that.

SkokieDaddy – wiener dog dad16 hours ago

Interesting that he only focused on conservatives votes being blackmailed this way. Could it be that those who constantly trying and regulate the sex lives of others are more likely to succumb to this kind of activity?

JCF  SkokieDaddy – wiener dog dad15 hours ago

It’s like they say: DC prostitutes, male and female, LOVE it when Republicans become majorities in Congress. “…because Democrats don’t have to pay for sex.”

Randy503  JCF14 hours ago

Actually, DC prostitutes love it when the republicans and christians are in town for a convention. Business booms. They cry when the doctors are in town, because they never want to hook up.

RMJ  Paula14 hours ago

Then WTF get into politics? If power, sex, and insider trading are eliminated from the game, why bother.

 

 

Debunking Israel’s “mass rapes” atrocity propaganda

This report is on the lies and atrocious propaganda of Israel and it’s supporters.  Israeli authorities themselves have lowered the number of killed by Hamas to 1,000. The lies about all the babies killed was debunked as only one baby was killed by Hamas and the burned babies and others turned out to have been by Isra

VIRAL VIDEO: Gay Student Roasts Mom For Threeways

VIRAL VIDEO: Gay Student Roasts Mom For Threeways

Listen to the student.  He makes it clear that the attempts by people like Bridget Ziegler and other haters to make only one man / one woman cis straight sex acceptable, the students still are tolerant of other ways to express sexual enjoyment.  What the students are not OK with is the hate and hypocrisy.  He calls her out for teaching hate towards same sex relationships and the LGBTQIA while engaging in lesbian sex and FFM sexual relations with her husband, again while demanding it is wrong to have sex out of marriage.  Hugs.  Scottie

December 18, 2023

USA Today reports:

As the Sarasota County School Board convened for the final time this year on Tuesday, Bridget Ziegler entered the board chambers facing a rift largely driven by agenda item No. 1: a colleague’s resolution calling for her resignation.

Zander Moricz, who was the class president at Pine View School in Osprey and now attends Harvard, said Bridget Ziegler deserved to lose her job, but not because of her private sex life.

“That defeats the lesson we’ve been trying to teach you, which is that a politician’s job is to serve their community, not to police personal lives,” Moricz said. “So, to be extra clear Bridget, you deserve to be fired from your job because you are terrible at your job.”

Read the full article. The clip below has gone wildly viral with millions of views on TikTok, where I came across it a dozen times last night. Watch every second.

 

Pizza Rat King a day ago

Reminder: this is the school valedictorian who came out as curly haired because he couldn’t say gay in his commencement address. Clever guy.

J.Martindalea day ago

He got it right. Her sex life is her business. His sex life is NOT her business.

Houndentenor  J.Martindale21 hours ago

I would agree with that IF she agreed that other people’s private business is their own private business. But she vilified people for doing exactly what she was doing in her own bedroom. She’s bisexual but mistreated others for identifying as lgbt. She thought this was okay for others, so it’s good enough for her.

ECarpenter  Houndentenor 20 hours ago edited

As J is pointing out, it’s not her sex life that’s the issue here – it’s her hypocrisy. Her bisexual, polyamorous sex life is evidence of the hypocrisy – that’s its only importance to anyone but herself.

J.Martindale  ECarpenter 19 hours ago

That’s it. Her fellow conservatives would kick her off the school board on the irrelevant issue of her sexual “immorality.” He realizes it is her hypocritical judgmental sanctimony that is the real problem, not the issue of her private sex life.

Gustav2a day ago
The bottom line is this: Ziegler’s refusal to resign her School Board seat is more than just a morality play. If Ziegler steps down or is removed, three out of the five School Board seats, not just two, will be on the ballot in August 2024.

That’s right: What’s truly at stake here is that we could vote on a majority of the School Board’s seats on Aug. 20, 2024. And that would give us a chance to have a School Board with leaders who are more interested in students, teachers and academic achievement than posturing for a national audience in the culture wars.

https://www.heraldtribune.c…

Sarah a day ago
“That defeats the lesson we’ve been trying to teach you, which is that a
politician’s job is to serve their community, not to police personal
lives,” Moricz said. “So, to be extra clear Bridget, you deserve to be
fired from your job because you are terrible at your job.”

Hear, hear!

eddiebeskeddie  Sarah19 hours ago

There was 1 more sentence in the 2nd video in case you didn’t hear it….”Not because you had sex with a woman.”

JoeMyGod Moda day ago

I had to look up the kid’s sweatshirt and it turns out that “you give me the ick” is teen slang for being grossed out by someone, often for undefinable reasons.

bambinoa day ago

Kids like Moricz is allowing me to hang on to the thread of hope for humanity.

Dramphooey  bambinoa day ago

They are proof the real goal of conservatives trying to wreck schools is because of their hatred of people with more brains than them.

unsavedheathen  Dramphooeya day ago

(pssst… the real goal is an electorate unable to carry out logical thought and that only acts on base emotion.)

fuow  unsavedheathen21 hours ago

I think it can be both at the same time. Sort of like one of our cats. She will watch the dogs play with a toy she wants. When they are outside, she’ll bat it with all her might to move it under something like a grandfather clock from under which the dogs can’t retrieve it.
She can’t, either, but the satisfaction she feels is tremendous.
I try to stay on her good side.

Houndentenor  Dramphooey21 hours ago

That’s part of it. It’s also racism. Private schools were rare in the US until local districts were losing the last of their desegregation lawsuits in the late 60s and early 70s. (Yes, I know Brown was 1954. It was up into the 1970s for many districts to finally comply!) And then homeschooling also for the same reason. They can say whatever they want and some of it is religious and political but a lot of it is not wanting their kids to get to know black and brown kids growing up.

Ščŏŧŧ Ċ – 🇺🇦 🕊a day ago

Context: This isn’t the first time Zander made a headline.

The class president at a Florida high school says he wasn’t allowed to share his experience as a gay student in his graduation speech or how the state’s so-called “Don’t Say Gay” law will affect students like him, so he got creative.

https://www.cnn.com/videos/…

Uncle Mark is back! a day ago

I loved this! The kid was brilliant, articulate, witty, and best of all…damning!