I have been barely functioning all day.  I feel right now the best I have since I got up at 1 am.  I keep going back to bed, can’t sleep like I can not sleep at night, so I get up.  I am so tired, I just don’t want to be.  I want to sleep.   I went to Ron a few minutes ago, told him I had answered all the comments I had, replied to everything, but I had not been to anyone else’s blogs in a few days.  Then I told him I just don’t want to do it.  I am tired.  I want to shut the blogging computer down and finish my Spiderman movie I started watching, maybe watch some Star Trek Piccard.  

Ron came over and hugged me, and said he thought that was a great idea.  He wanted me to do that.  I tried again to justify it with I was so tired.   He told me, Scottie you have not been sleeping, ten minutes here, 20 minutes there.  The longest I have seen you sleep in days has been 45 minutes.   You’re exhausted and you’re hurting yourself.  The medications you take should put you to sleep but they are not.  When you do sleep you moan, cry out, move defensively.  You’re not resting.  You need to lose yourself in a move and go to sleep.  

I have my heart doctor appointment in the morning.  I had to cancel an appointment for Wednesday as I was feeling far too sick to do to it.  I need to make this one tomorrow.  So I am sorry to all the grand blog creators, all the meme wanters but I can not do it, I am done blogging today.  I may just now go to bed.  Or watch a movie.  I think bed.  Loves.  Hugs.  Scottie