Tomorrow I may be offline for a lot of the day.

My plan for tomorrow is to get one of the old barely running laptops out, and put all my saved tabs I have open with the pages that people made comments on it so I don’t lose them. Then I am going to take both computers offline and dump them. I will then dump both computers. See you then. Hugs

I am done and need a break.

All morning I did the three Sunday shows I watch. This Week, Meet the Press, and Face the Nation. Ranted while I wrote stuff to refute and talk about pushed by the republicans on the panels and interviewed as they crowed about how this was a clear mandate for them to take the country so far right the Puritans would be scared to come here. I stopped writing figuring I had recorded all of these shows. Then I spent an hour while listening to them trying to figure out how to record them from one computer to the other as I really need to change my desk configuration and have already ordered the ram to do drastically help one of my computers. Sadly my main computer is maxed out. I should have known better but it was on sale with great specs … so I bought it. Always. Yes always by a computer that is upwards expandable. I won’t make that mistake again. However even if I lose these recordings of the corporate media and on This Week Johnathan Carl was creaming his pants on the tRump win, so much for media impartiality, I need a break as Ron was telling me. So I am going to play Portal Two. It is a wonderful puzzle game using a portal gun to shoot an incoming portal and an outgoing portal. No shooting other players. This is a grand game for people not wanting to hurt others even in a game and for stretching the mind. If you don’t have a gaming console the game is also on PC, which is where I first played it. Hugs I am off to challenge my brain on more than politics. Hugs.

My thoughts after the election 11 7 2024

I talk about why I think Harris lost the election. What people heard and understood. Mistakes made from hiring people who keep running old playbooks to who was listened to on the ground. This is one of many videos I hope to make on this subject.

I just can’t today

Ron and I stayed up until 4 am watching the election results. We got about an hours worth of sleep. Then we got up and sat stunned. I am sorry this is going to take me a long time to understand and bounce back from. So many people of this country are so uninformed and so many thought sending a message by not voting for Harris would somehow be better for the Palestinians. What this means for Gaza and the West bank is no more restraints on Israel, no aid for Ukraine. More right wing ideologue justices who rule not by law but by ideology and feelings. Thomas and Alito have hinted that if tRump won and had the Senate they would retire so he could fill their seats with 40 year olds to be there for generations. What this means for other countries and our relationships with them … who knows. But what this means for the LGBTQ+ community is clear. We have large targets on us now. Sad hugs

Our bed!

About 4 or five years ago the mattress in our bedroom was totally destroyed. It was way beyond the use life. I am serious while both of us were much heavier than we are right now, while my side had a big hole where my body was his side had given up and was trying to run away. He had no side wall of the mattress and was trying not to fall on the floor. One night I got so upset I demanded an end to the bullshit and insisted he remove the mattress.

So instead of buying a new mattress he decided to remove the bed frame and instead put up a high air mattress we had for when we needed to go to the hospital during a hurricane and kept for visitors to sleep on. But that was too low for my hips and back and I was constantly struggling. One night as I was sleeping the value gave out and I ended up trapped in the bed, crying for help. James heard me and came down and got me up.

So Ron overcame his hate to spend money on his own comfort and realized we couldn’t do this. Now here is where our lives are different. I figured we would get a new bed frame, a storage bed I always wanted due to our abundance of stuff and lack of space to put it, and a normal mattress from the mattress stores that cost around $1,200.00

Nope, Ron listened to James who had just spend a large amount of money on a frame and mattress from the Purple company. So Ron told me to asked me to order the new king-size storage bed that was already very high, and he and James went back and forth over what mattress we needed for it. When Ron told me that the mattress was going to cost $4,000.00 I was shocked. I was like what about this or that one advertised locally. Nope he said we need this for you and your very painful bones. I tried hard to say my bones could deal … but he wouldn’t bend. So the king size bed frame I choose because of the storage and headboard space for $1,800 he added $4,000 grand for the purple mattress.

Now I was upset but decided if he insisted, I could live with it. But when the bed arrived and we set it up, it had a weight limit of … 300 pounds. But the new mattress that Ron bought was 300 pounds itself. So before Ron and James put the new mattress on the bed, Ron added a few under the bed supports and a couple large 2x4s to run down the length of the bed.

Move to this last week as Ron was frantically trying to figure out what was happening to our south sided wall outlets on a split circuit that seemed to go mostly to the south wall and a small part to my Pink Palace including his TV and player stuff. After we went to bed about 1 am we both woke to a huge … Bang, crack, boom. We did not realize what happened until he got up a few hours later after trying hard to stay in bed and hitting me in the face accidentally.

So after a few hours he gave up and got up. We took the mattress off. And Ron was shocked. All the support legs had twisted off, and the too thin boards had warped under the weight or broke. So Ron stopped replacing the outlets and electrical work he was doing for two days … We do have priorities and not sleeping on the floor is one of them. So he got his tools including his drill and saws out, and went to work. Sadly it was a time in the month when we only had $50 dollars in our account (yes we are now among the US seniors who are very poor) so he did not buy a sheet of 1/4 plywood which he feels would have fixed the problem, instead he grabbed all the different pieces of wood he had to patch things and promised me he would buy the plywood to fix it when I got paid.

Ron sadly tries to cheer me up by reminding me our life has become management by crisis. Great news. The bed is again very strong and comfortable … even able to stand … active seniors sex activities. Below are the pictures. Hugs and loves to all. And yes the drama of our grand life continues. Hugs

Lost the comments again

OK it happened again. Partly my fault, partly the tech gremlins that live in my computers. See I had 6 open windows, with many tabs each. I depend on the computer saving them. Well yesterday I was trying to pass on some stuff Kamyk wanted me to tell some of his friends. But when I went to open the program to do that it wouldn’t open it just flashed repeatedly. Nothing I could do would work including reinstalling the program would make the program work. In frustration I reset the computer only after realizing I had just lost all my saved open windows and tabs. All I can say is I was stupid to react that fast but also worried about not getting done what my friend in an ICU had asked me. So I will go open all the comments I can access and save them again. Hugs.

Sorry not enough

There is so much I want to do. I really want to get back to videos, that will become my main passion while Ali and Randy do other content. But just as Ron started working on a camera setup to make the camera adjustable but straight on, we had a circuit breaker problem and wires burning in our wall. As always in our home it is one crisis after the other. Ron calls it management by crisis.

Ron was born in 1955. He will be 70 years old next year. I will be 62. Today he told me he feels it. Yesterday he had to take apart our very large king size storage bed because the thing is only rated for 300 pounds and the Purple mattress Ron wanted weighs that itself. Add two adults … So he added supports to it when we first got it. But it was not enough. I won’t apologize for us being active in bed at our age and Ron often says when I am having bad memories or times I thrash and struggle in bed. So the thin plank boards they sent with it were all warped and the supports had all been twisted or feel off.

Ron had to take the 300 pound mattress off the bed and lay strips of plywood he had left over from projects plus add new 2X4 leg supports below each brace that runs longways. No he refused to let me help at anything except to get him batteries from the Pink Palace for his drills. I begged him to let me help but he was not having it. He says the next time he buys plywood for a house project he is going to get a sheet for the bed and never have to worry about this again.

The bed is more flat and better than it has been for a long time. It did not really bother me as I am much lighter than Ron by 40 or 50 pounds but his side was so destroyed he couldn’t turn over in bed. Don’t tell him I told you this. We both mentioned how softer the bed had gotten but what we did not realize was that was because the entire support system for the mattress had collapsed.

Scary turn. Ron went out this morning after our walk to do the grocery shopping. I started to do the dishes. I got a call from Ron. He was very upset. He said I am coming home, I have to, I can’t do it. I was shocked he was very foggy this morning but that is normal for him. But he went to one store and simply did not go in and went to the store next door and found he did not have the strength to get out of the car. That is when he called me. I asked him if he needed me to come for him but he said no. He came home and went for a nap. Then he wanted to start projects but I only let him put up a small clip for my canes then I insisted he sit for the rest of the day and do fun stuff. Just as he tells me. Yesterday he had to stand split on the supports and lift his one leg that doesn’t respond well over the supports to fix the bed. He laughs that he got his stretching excessing in, but the truth is he way over did. My he man always taking care of Scottie hates to admit he needs care now also.

On the videos that is where I want to go with my content on the blog. Ali and Randy have the content they like to post. I could have knocked this written post out in 5 minutes and it has taken me 45 minutes to write out and correct. But every time Ron gets to fixing the camera and background issues we have a crisis. He has a list of things he wants to repair in the Pink Palace but other crisis come and he has to deal with them. Please hang on we will eventually get it all worked out, like five years from now … but we have a plan.

One last thing to bring people up to date. Kamyk’s O2 returned to a more normal range this morning. Over the night (when he called me) his O2 and blood pressure had dropped dangerously low, but like I said the ICU is the place he needed to be. They gave him IV drugs to help both and he is sating at 93 to 96 which is great. Side note if everyone took their O2 levels they would be surprised by the results. One thing you do not want is 100% as that is a bad sign that the lungs are not exchanging co2. So his readings are great. Love everyone, hope you understand why I am not on the blog more. I am either with Ron, doing housework, or with the family of my friend. I just need to find a way to add 20 more hours to each day. Oh speaking of that, my wonderful friend / brother Randy who works normally 60 hours a week or more, took a panicked phone call from me at like 10 PM. He not only was wonderful but got me to laugh and see a side of the world I had forgotten existed. He is so grand words don’t do justice. Hugs.

Well yesterday was a wash out

Kamyk was moved to an ICU with Covid and an O2 level in the low 80s. I spent all day after only getting 3 hours sleep texting on Skype in group chat and private chats all day and into the next. I got to bed at 12:30 … am. Yes Ron was and is upset about the long hours and the toll it is taking on me, but he understands I am doing my best. Kamyk is in the best place for care, the ICU. Problem is his mother and one sister have Covid and visited him in his old room for days. Knowing they had Covid. They find masks inconvenient and unpleasant.

That sister is a complete narcissist who kept trying to make the group chats about her. She was reminded several times we needed to concentrate on Kamyk, but she couldn’t even use his chosen name, constantly dead naming him. Finally the good sister started a separate private chat with me. She was very angry at her other sister’s actions. I just started ignoring the bad sister. Had a good talk with the good sister on the private channel. We learned about each other. I wouldn’t share with her what Kamyk shared with me as that was his right to do so if he wanted. She said she knew about some of the adult stuff but not the kid stuff. I advised her to talk with her brother when he gets better.

She also was abused, but did not go into details. I have a policy of not asking if the person doesn’t seem to want me to, I figure if someone wants me to know something they will tell me most of the time. Anyway Ron has gone out shopping, there are a few dishes to wash, so I am going to take medication and do them so he has clean counters to set stuff on. Hugs. Thank you all for not only understand but sending thoughts, feelings, and prayers for my friend. He has been through so much he did not need this set back. I know he was talking he wanted it all to end. I think that was desperation talking, not his normal self. Hugs all.

Ron is trying to find out why one side of the house circuit breaker is not working.

Later I will explain all the steps he has taken. But right now I have been up over 30 plus hours so I am going to stop trying to blog and watch movies, helping him as he needs me to. Hugs and loves.