Tag: Being In Pain

My life with pain.

I will be having surgery soon.  I had a long visit with my pain doctor.  She had studied my last set of MRIs.  She also confered with the pain surgeon who I also see.  Seems I have all the bad things a back can have.  I have ruptured discs, herniated discs, and torn discs, but they hope that will heal, I have protruding discs, bulging discs.  I have arthritis in the length of the spine.  I also have a thickening ligament cord.  If I want to walk again I have to have a procedure called MILD.  The will put me under and then my current pain surgeon will make a 1-inch incision in my back and “shred” the ligament down to the proper size.  I simply have no choice, it is this or the wheelchair and ever larger amounts of pain.  They are not decreasing my pain medication my MRIs back them up, I have a limited quality of life now and would have none with less pain medication.  Ron asked me to ask her the prognosis of where she saw me in the future with my issues.  Because of the way my bones are thickening, thinning, and growing wrong, and the trauma of my childhood it will get worse.  I will some day lose the ability to stand and walk.  Unless things change even surgery to fuse the vertebra will not give me much relief and will cause me more issues.  But I still have my computers and the grand people it lets me stay in touch with.   Best wishes to all and hugs to those that want them.   Scottie

We all have pain

#addicted from What Are You Really Afraid Of?

Wow I am so glad I listened … sort of. I guess I screwed up some. I will do better from now on.

So I read all the advice on my stepper work out post.  I did listen … sort of.  I wish right now I had listened to the advice better.  Several people said to do 2 minutes and then 12 hours later or the next day to do 2 minutes more.  

Today was the day I wanted to do legs, tomorrow will be arms with light weights, as Sunday is the day for heavy ones.  So I did two minutes like people advised.  I waited 30 minutes and did not feel any issues, so I did another 2 minutes.   Then I sat down at my desk and sharpened the house knives.  It took a while.  Then I made supper in the deep frier of breaded chicken strips and french fries.  By the time I got halfway through frying the food, I was struggling to bend my legs as my thighs felt like tree trunks.  I did not tell Ron as I put the food away and came into my office.  I had already taken my evening morphines, muscle relaxers, and 800 mg Ibuprofen.  And my legs still hurt.  They ache.  

I am sitting at my desk and my legs feel like they can’t fit inside my pant legs.  As I sit they are better bent as if I stretch them out it hurts more.   

Ok I goofed, you all can say I told you so.  I thought since the first two minutes did not seem to cause pain I could do another 2 minutes.  I know it was suggested at least 12 hours before doing more.  I can clearly see I will have to do that at least if not wait longer.   I guess I want to get healthier faster and I can see there is not going to be a shortcut with this.  This is going to take far longer than even I had thought it would.  

So I will wait two days, then do 2 minutes on the stepper then put it away for the next couple of days.  Then do two more minutes.   As several said and Ten Bears reminded me he had advised me about before, this is a slow process that I can not make go at the speed I would wish it to.  Not and do it correctly and keep from being in pain.  I just took a 15 mg instant morphine my legs hurt so bad.   Ok I fucked up … again.  But I just wanted my leg muscles to fill out again so I can walk and do stuff.  Hugs