I had my allergy shots this morning. Ron and Diane have gone to see if they can find the casino in the next county over. I am trying to stay awake. I want to see if I can reply to a few comments before going back to bed. Fof those that don’t know I am not eating. I have one meal in the morning and spend most of my time in bed these days. My blood tests showed my red and white blood cells were all messed up. Animia? Cancer? Depression? My body breaks down under stress, and I have been stressed since November of last year. It is a lot less right now with Ron home but he still has little time for stuff at home because of the need to spend so much time with his sister. Plus he is having health issues as well. The real issue is I am tired. Just so tired I am unable to think, eat, or even engage with Ron. I find I am easily irritated, and when he reached out to touch me in bed I snaped at him for it. I have not reacted that way in a long time. I like his touch. I have lost between 8 to 10 pounds because I am not eating. I keep this up and I could get from my normal 170 t the goal of 150 pounds I want. 😀😃😉😎. Ron is concerned and says if we don’t see improvement next week I have to contact my primary care doctor. It all seems like too much work, I just want to go back to bed. The pain is less there. My right leg becomes so painful after five minutes of use I can’t really walk and I have to do the dishes with a rolling very high adjustable stool.
Anyway the video below is a great example of why real Christians are not bigots. I wish I felt up to posting more videos, it is all I seem able to do right now, just watch videos. Be well, and enjoy the Rev. explain why bigotry is a really bad thing for the Christian church. Hugs
Scottie's Playtime 
Scottie, it sounds like you’re really sick, whatever the origin. I wish there was a way to let Ron and Diane know how I’ll you are. You’re going to literally waste away to whatever is fatiguing you. It”s making me a little bit angry, and a lot worried. The situation you’re in won’t last a long time; your body will begin to shut down if it hasn’t.
You did great work back in Nov. and Dec., keeping up your spirits and your household and your blog, along with Tupac. You did that alone, and you did really well, all things considered. But there was supposed to be a light at the end of that tunnel, and instead it seems as if the tunnel is simply getting longer and longer. This is past you making up your mind to get up and eat, and do the dishes or change the litter. You should see a medical care provider, but you need someone to get that set up and help get you there. At least, that’s how it sounds. I can’t come down there and do it, or I would.
I’ll stop there, because I wrote somewhat more, but it’s pretty buttinsky and judgmental, and I don’t want that. But I don’t want you to die from malnutrition, either. sigh
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“know how I’ll you are” should be “ill.” I changed it twice, and it was “ill” when I clicked the Reply button. Freakin’ autocorrect! 🤬
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Hi Ali. Thank you. I don’t know what to tell you. I told Ron what you wrote and he agrees. I thought this morning I was doing better as I only went to bed for 2 hours. Nut it is 2:40 here and for the last 20 minutes I have been falling asleep at my desk and I am so tired. I would go to bed for the day but Ron is sleeping and is worried about the new house his sister is buying. It must be nice to have no money worries. I am taking vitamins and trying to eat. I am watching the medications I take carefully. Ali I am not being stubborn; my primary care doctor wanted to wait 3 months and he would go over the situation then. But I can tell Ron is getting worried. I can tell because he wants to kiss more, and he has talked to me about getting boost or other enriched drinks. I had to take them for a while the last time I was anemic. The question I have that no one is asking is this if my not eating and anemia are because I am too tired or is it because I am also depressed? Also the equation has to add my pain levels. After I hurt myself lifting things I shouldn’t but Ron’s anxieties were going to make him do it after his heart catheterization which would have opened the artery and caused him to bleed out if I did not promise to do it when he left. But it was not needed by either of us as Diane’s furniture has not even left Texas yet. My pain levels have risen drasticly as I did damage to my torn up spine. I can’t really use my right leg for more than a dozen steps before the sharp pains come and the already existing feeling of my leg being hooked to an electrical socket being intensified.
Ali I am not being stubborn or ignoring the facts of the situation. I am concerned. I appreciate that you want to come here and be my big sister like Diane is Ron’s big sister. But it is not needed because you already gave me a way to get to the doctor’s office if I can’t drive and Ron couldn’t take me, the Uber gift you gave me. But Ron agrees with you he should go with me and make sure I get the treatment I need. Ron was so concerned he talked to the pharmacist while getting my medications this morning. The pharmacist recommended Ron have me take a covid / flu test just in case.
Ron just got up at 3 pm, see how slow I am dealing / typing / thinking? I started this at 2:30 pm and now it is 30 minutes later and I still have not even finished, it is why posting is so very hard for me now unless I just post a news link. I have been trying to do a cartoons / memes / news post for tomorrow to get back to doing it. But I am torn as I want to reply to comments instead. It has been a month of comments I have not gotten to. And the sad thing is I have to be able to think clearly to do that. I can’t reply if I sound like a person totally divorced from reality.
Mostly what I have been doing is watching short videos, it really doesn’t matter what. I find longer videos I just zone out on. I just need to sleep. Ron is insisting I have at least a small salad or a hamburger before I go to bed. He loves hamburgers me not so much. I told him I would have a salad. Maybe 1 burger. But right now I am so tired I fell asleep writing this. Hugs
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I don’t think you’re being stubborn. I think you’re fatigued. I don’t think you’re being stubborn at all. This has been coming, over the weeks, and you are fatigued.
Hey-maybe Ron can crumble the hamburger in some sauce that you enjoy-barbecue?- and scatter it on your salad so you get some protein. It works amazingly well with ranch, vinaigrette, or both together-I promise, because I do it often. I make burgers, then crumble some and cook it for myself so I can watch the sodium and get my greens. Sodium’s not a problem for you-there’s a plus! Anyway, no, dear; if it doesn’t translate through, I am saying everything in a caring tone, not a bitchy or angry tone. You know how sometimes it’s difficult to tell the difference, with my writing! 😀
I would just add, as to a previous comment, I don’t think the Shield test was out when you blogged about your visit to your primary care provider; it’s only been being marketed for around a month, up here. So there’s that, but also, they put people all the way out for colonoscopies anymore, so there’s that for you and your provider to review. I remember you had medication vs. anesthetic troubles over your cataract surgery.
You’re probably in bed now, at 4 pm CDT, but you can read this later, too.
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