I did it again, and I am sorry.

Ron has not said much but I know he is not pleased because I waited too late to cook and heat up the bags of french fries and chicken parts.  But even if I did I couldn’t eat a bite.  In a few minutes I will soon go to bed.  Sorry for not posting more.  I have to carefully check my blood sugar to inject the correct amount of insulin.  I respect and love those who come here with love and acceptance in their being.   So very soon I am going to bed. But I have to do better.   Hugs

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I am an older gay guy in a long-term wonderful relationship. My spouse and I are in our 36th year together. I love politics and news. I enjoy civil discussions and have no taboo subjects. My pronouns are he / him / his and my email is Scottiestoybox@gmail.com

14 thoughts on “I did it again, and I am sorry.”

    1. Hi Michael. Thank you. I’m I trying to do better for Ron and myself. The problem with eating is that it is not a choice. If I am that tired and in that level of pain if I put something in my mouth I can’t swallow it. So the solution is to try to eat before I get that tired. I tried yesterday. I at in mid afternoon a bowl of chicken noodle soup, which was alis suggestion, but couldn’t eat after that. I had three pieces of toast with cheese wizz on them this morning earlier than I normally eat. It is one 1 pm and I am going to cook so deep fried cripy chick strips and french fries now so I will have some now and then as left overs if I get too tired / sore to cook later. But I have spent two days mostly in bed. I will explain in a post later if I can get to it. But Monday I had a visit with my pain doctors who explained better to me the damage and what it means. Long story short I am screwed. Epidurmals will no longer work on my lower spine as there is too much damage so I need a neural surgeon to operate on my spine, she also ordered an MRI of my upper spine as she is sure the damage there has grown worse. But I will write a post later on what she told me. It is not good. Hugs

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      1. I know you’re trying, Scottie. I know, too, it’s not as easy as the words that we think and type. Simple actions are loaded with unexpected consequences. I continue to admire your courage and efforts, and I hope for better news for you, better health, and better times. Hugs, Michael

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    1. Hi Judy. Thank you. While I ate in the early mid afternoon a bowl of chicken noodle soup recommended by Ali, I have spent most of the last three days in bed. Combination of factors really, pain, not eating have caused me to be very nauseous which pain medication with out food can cause, PTSD, and depression which my pain doctor said it is clear I have. But I got a horrible report from my pain doctor and she confirmed with the primary surgeon in the clinic and he agreed with her. I need surgery as the lower spin epidurmals wont work anymore. However with the report they disregarded the normal wait of at least two months for trigger point / epedurals and not only gave them to me this last visit which was only a month and scheduled them every month for three months. My next spine shots are mid next month, I will write a post on this as soon as I feel up to it. I just got done cooking / eating late lunch and I made enough leftovers to have a selection of different foods to eat. Hugs

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    1. Hi MDavis. Thank you. I slipped a bit but now I am feel a little better. My back pain made me to sore to stay at the computer and too tired to eat by late afternoon / evening. But I am working on a post to explain it all. Hugs

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  4. I think Michael has us all covered on this (I know; I shouldn’t speak for the reader-lurkers, but I bet they agree.) I was a bit worried this morning, but now at lunch I see you’re posting, so great. I hope you rested decently, and packed in some calories yesterday afternoon and this morning.

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    1. Hi Ali. I was in so much pain and distress that I went into a depression. I couldn’t post and only wanted to lie in bed even though I was not sleeping or eating. I have been trying to force myself to eat twice a day even if it is small meals. I am trying to force myself to post more again but I barely manage to get the cartoon / meme roundup done. Hugs

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    1. Right now, Ron’s over in TX helping his sister, who’s broken her wrist or something with her right arm. So, Scottie’s taking care of Scottie and Tupac the cat and the house by himself for a while, yet. Ron’s been gone at least 2 weeks. Otherwise, the guys mostly share household and cooking duties, though each has dishes they do better than the other one. If that makes sense! I also remember reading that Ron and Scottie both like their chicken and fries deep-fried, rather than oven fried! I guess they think the mess is worth it.🤣

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