Why I have not been on the blog, and what is going on.

Hi everyone.  Thank you to Ali and Randy for keeping things running here.  I went from my own personal melt down to now helping someone avoid theirs.  I will explain.  

So many may have noticed I am only posting view email news now mostly, I am not keeping up with comments, however I have saved them all in open tabs to get to later after this passes, and I am rarely interacting.

I really wanted to do this as a video as I feel I could do it so much better.  But I can’t ever find the time and now don’t have the energy to do it.  So here is what is going on.   

I have a friend who is a fellow survivor.  He was kidnapped at 7 yrs old and then tortured and trained to be a sex toy.  Very harsh graphics if you ever read it.  It led to lifetime victimization that he details on MS and with me in our talks.  But the short version is he got out of it when he turned 40 but it has nearly destroyed his life.   So now you understand the backstory.  We have been working on and helping each with our abuses.  He is one of the few people that understands some of the things going on with me and my issues.  He has insights that have helped me and I help him.  He tells me I am one of the few who also understand what he is dealing with emotionally.  

My friend Kamyk was getting very sick.  He has diverticulosis, infected pockets in his intestines.  But his are in his in colon area, the upper sigmoid colon.  He started having fevers of 104 and me and others begged him to go to medical care.  He did.  They hospitalized him because one or more pockets burst and were killing him.  But the suddenness of it and the situation left him without any of his coping methods such as his computer but only his phone which he used to contact me.   He has since gotten some things to help him, but his situation medically is iffy and his emotional situation is protected only by me and one other person that really can only contact him a few hours during the deep morning hours.  

So the first days of communication were me trying hard to keep him from freaking out and his needing me to be with him almost all the time he was awake.  He left our communications on even when the doctors were talking with him, which he gave them permission to tell me.  I have not violated those talks as my own training tells me what I can repeat and what I can not.  I do not repeat the doctor’s words but my friend’s fears and worries along with his understandings of medical things.  

That set up a pattern that was made from his desperation and fear along with my wanting to be there for my friend just like Randy was there for me when I had my break down in 2014.   He did the same thing spending as much time as possible that I needed but in his case he was working nights in a 12 hour shift in a hard job.  But he did it to keep me from cutting myself and my wanting to die.  I am now so much better I am paying his grand wonderful sacrifice forward.  Every waking moment I had was spent with him in his waking moment and he slowly adjusted so has become calm. I have only my health, abilities, and emotional stability to work around.  Again Randy had it much worse and he did it.  So then should I try.  

He today was going in for a dirty surgery.  I am not posting the details but to only say that this is not preferred and going to be hard on my friend.  I stayed with him via text even during my doctor’s office.   My provider is so wonderful she took time to explain his situation internally and reassure me.  But he went into the pre-op about 1 pm my time.  It is now 8 pm my time with no word from him.  Ron has tried to get me to go to bed, but I am so worried I can’t do so.  Ron has reminded me of my training that I know a hard surgery could take a long surgery recovery time and now he will need / want / be kept under so he is not awake to text.   But even though I know all that, I worked that, I did that, I still worry about my friend.   Not really for the surgery.  It will be what it will be.   But his emotional state when he wakes up.  He is so fragile.  I have had all my life to deal with mine, I had my melt down mental break in 2014 so have had time to deal with that also.   Kamyk just remembered parts of his abuse a year ago and his horrible kidnapping at 7 and the total mind, emotional, and physical fuck of a 7-year-old boy is something that is only months old and he is trying to deal with.  He has turned to me as so much of what he endured was like what I endured.  Sweet soul he is he thinks my own abuse was worse because of the constant violence I experience for 17 years, and I think his is worse because of the constant sexual use of his body over the years while mine was again only 17 years plus three people raping me as an 18, 19, and 20 year old, one person a female that made it worse for me somehow did it 4 times before I found a way to stop it.  I guess we are two very damaged people desperately trying to help each other in our passage in life.  

One last thing for this post.  I should have gone to bed at 5 or 6 when I was tired.  Ron is asking me to try to go to bed now.  But I don’t feel sleepy even though I woke at midnight and only had a 2 hour nap because he came and laid down with meat 3 pm today.  But remember I got shot up with steroids today.  It is going to wreak havoc with my emotions, with my sleep, and my eating needs for a few weeks again.  Thank each one of you that comes to Scotties Playtime and for each of you that read this post.  It is important to me.    Hugs.  

Vote Blue-From Janet

Work to focus on engaging communities during the energy transition

(It can’t hurt to put bits like this out into the universe. Somebody’s working on this, and more people ought to. So a nice little discussion of what’s working is appropriate. -A)

October 11, 2024 ARC Laureate Fellows

This Cosmos series on Australian Research Council Laureate Fellows 2024 reflects excellence from world class researchers in Australia.

Chris Gibson is a Senior Professor in the School of Geography and Sustainable Communities at the University of Wollongong. For his ARC Fellowship, he is investigating how decarbonisation impacts Australian regions.

Professor Chris Gibson: finding a truce in the climate wars.

Decarbonisation and energy transition are at the sharp edge of a hot political battle. There is a lot of dispute over new technologies like offshore wind, and exactly what mix of energy we need. It’s like a second iteration of the climate wars. But after a decade of stalled policy on climate, we have to embrace the decarbonised future, whether we like it or not. It’s an issue that needs to transcend the political divide.

But we’re faced with a dilemma: we need urgent change, but urgent change rarely occurs, if ever, in a way that is fair. The burdens and benefits of change are not distributed equally across society. And the quicker the change, the more risks there are. Regions can be all too easily left behind.

Geographers think about how substantial change, like this energy transition, affects communities. We think of ourselves as an integrative discipline. We bring together expertise from across environmental science, economics, social geography, legal geography, and from experts who are good on governing transitions. By stitching together insights from all directions, we try to see the bigger picture.

My ARC project is aiming to put together a systematic understanding of what’s happening in decarbonisation, both from the top down, with a nationwide view, and from the ground up, about how people in different regions are responding to change.

We’re putting together a team to look at how decarbonisation hits the ground in different regions, and how it affects different workers, different industries, what kinds of opportunities come out of that, what kinds of changes are needed, how communities and households are responding to the decarbonisation challenge, and how a First Nations’ perspective can lead the way.

Community responses have to be taken seriously. It’s too easy and too convenient to cast aside sceptics as “nimbies” (Not In My Backyard) or selfish or ignorant. If you take the time to hear the diversity of opinions that come from communities, you’ll often find that people are worried about real issues, with valid concerns. Local communities are very knowledgeable about their patch, and have a capacity to understand what kinds of changes are needed. If we can forge a more inclusive process that brings regional perspectives, skills and experience to the forefront, we reduce the risk that regions are left behind. And governments might actually see regional communities as an opportunity rather than a hindrance to change.

A good example is here in the Illawarra, (Coastal New South Wales) where offshore wind has been very controversial in the last year. One of the lessons to be had is to not underestimate the community’s ability to understand what an energy transition means, and not to underestimate the degree of attachment people have to their local places.

The community here is highly knowledgeable about energy. The Illawarra has a workforce with a long history in heavy industry – the number of electricians per capita in the Illawarra must be as high as anywhere in Australia. And people have opinions – it’s not a passive region that knows nothing about the change that’s coming. The task is not purely to convince local people that this is a good thing, but to have a mature conversation with them about the pros and cons.

Who benefits in the energy transition?

There are all kinds of philosophical questions about who benefits, how those benefits are shared, what it means to turn our oceans into a space for energy generation. Some members of the community are asking for a proper conversation, because they don’t feel like they’ve been part of the story so far.

People react unpredictably to change that they see is imposed upon them. Let’s say it’s closing down a coal-fired power station in the Hunter Valley in New South Wales, or proposing a green hydrogen hub in South Australia – people don’t necessarily assess these as singular proposals that exist outside of everything else in their region or in their lives. People make sense of change in relation to their place, their community, their household, their family.

My work is about putting those people and their households first, and looking at it from their point of view. How does structural change look when we take into account the pressures of cost of living, on housing, on employment? People are grappling with these issues in their everyday lives.

There’s also a real risk in introducing changes that are presented to communities as if they have arrived from elsewhere, as a fait accompli. The direction of the flow of ideas and proposals, how they hit the ground, are a very important part of the process. If a proposal seems to arrive in their backyard from the top down – from a government or a corporation provider – you can get a community offside from the outset.

My work is about setting up different kinds of approaches that recognise that these communities have their own capacities and their own perspectives to offer. What we hope to do in the five years of the ARC Laureate program is develop an evidence base so that we can craft better models of how to manage this change. We’re looking at some of the implementations that have already occurred, tracing where those decarbonisation initiatives are hitting the ground, and looking at different kinds of community reactions – what sorts of processes work better than others in terms of building that relationship with community, as well as what happens when things end up in a more antagonistic situation.

Geography is the study of the relationship between humans and our environment. It has always occupied a slightly slippery position in universities and in public life, because we’re both a science and a social science, because we do this work of integrating perspectives from different areas of knowledge. In fact, we call ourselves all sorts of different things: we’re also environmental managers and coastal managers, policy officers and sustainability experts. It’s a discipline that connects, that fills the gaps. We often find solutions to problems by putting knowledge together from those different perspectives. It’s making these connections that can make a big difference.

As told to Graem Sims

https://cosmosmagazine.com/energise/engaging-communities-during-energy-transition/

Scientists Are Turning Mosquitoes “Trans” So They Can Fight Malaria

New LGBTQ+ insect just dropped. (From A: But is this really trans?)

By Abby Monteil October 8, 2024

From gay polyamorous flamingos to a “half-male, half-female bird” sighting, Mother Nature has proven that she’s pretty damn queer. But sometimes, scientists like to get in on the fun, too. It turns out that some are even using their talents to engineer “trans” mosquitoes (yes, really).

On October 5, the X account @Rainmaker1973 shared a video of a female mosquito attempting to bite a human hand. However, its blood-sucking attempts are thwarted because its proboscis — aka its needle-like mouth — could not break through the skin.

“Using the CRISPR technique, it’s possible to genetically modify mosquitoes by disabling a gene in females, so that their proboscis turns male, making them unable to pierce human skin,” @Rainmaker1973 explained.

Before we go further, a quick science lesson: According to the National Human Genome Research Institute, Clustered Regularly Interspaced Short Palindromic Repeats, or CRISPR, is a technology that allows scientists to selectively modify DNA.

So why use this technology on mosquitoes? Well, malaria, which kills more than 600,000 people per year, is transmitted to humans by female mosquitoes belonging to the genus Anopheles, which, per the National Institute of Allergy and Infectious Diseases, encompasses between 30 and 40 mosquito species. According to a 2018 study in the journal Nature Biotechnology, using CRISPR technology on female mosquitoes resulted in egg production reaching the point of “total population collapse” within 7 to 11 generations. In other words, this technique allows scientists to not only ensure that female mosquitoes carrying malaria can’t spread the disease to humans, but that they can’t reproduce in general. This CRISPR-enabled gene editing is just one of several techniques that researchers have used to fight the spread of malaria in humans.

So, sure, in a manner of speaking, scientists are doing their best to curb the spread of malaria by making some mosquitoes “trans.” In addition to being a genetic achievement, @Rainmaker1973’s viral video sharing the news also unsurprisingly inspired some excellent tweets. (see on the page)

She strokin tryna wake it up OMG… hrt no joke,” one X user tweeted.

“Mosquitoes pissing me off so I took out my crispr and gave them gender dysphoria,” another joked.

The past few years have introduced no shortage of queer bugs, from fruit flies who were potentially turned gay by air pollution to cicadas who became hypersexual zombies after being infected with a sexually transmitted fungus. What’s a few more trans mosquitoes?

https://www.them.us/story/mosquitoes-trans-crispr-gene-editing

Let’s talk about checking Trump’s Man of the Year claims….

Bathroom problems for a man who looks like a woman. Plus some memes supporting trans people.

As I keep saying all these bathroom bills and trans people in the bathroom trash talk is the cis people who don’t look feminine or masculine enough for other people.   I have read and watched videos of women who look mannish who get assaulted or harassed for going into the woman’s bathroom.   One woman was a cancer survivor who lost all her hair due to treatment and two men were calling her horrific names and threatening to beat her up on video because they were sure she was a man.  It all goes on looks for these people.  Unless people are going to line up for a genital inspection by these gang thugs before entering the bathroom, how else do these maga think they are going to be able to tell?  Oh and this post took me two days to put together.  Hugs.  

@lucass502

The worst part… i cant even blame him fr 😭😭 #androgony #storytime #story

♬ Cumbia Buena – Grupo La Cumbia

It is not trans people assaulting cis people in restrooms.  It is cis people assaulting trans people is what is really happening.  Hugs.  

https://www.fox32chicago.com/news/2-assault-transgender-woman-in-north-carolina-bathroom-police-say

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Red State Fear

Telling the men in our lives the reality of our lives

Read on Substack Jess Piper Oct 10, 2024

(Note from Ali: Jess wrote the anti-misogyny rant I was thinking of.)

“Do the best you can until you know better. Then when you know better, do better.”

~Maya Angelou

I go solo camping often. I head up to the North Shore in Minnesota or down to Northwest Arkansas and hang out a few days by myself or with my daughter. My husband is a big ole, corn-fed country boy who will not sleep on the ground, so we leave him at home.

I love to sleep outside, but the very thing I hate about camping is sleeping outside — exposed. As a woman, this is something I think about a lot. When I wake up for some unknown reason and wonder if I heard something in my sleep. Or, I wake up to actually hearing something or someone. I get scared. I get nervous. I wonder why in the hell I do the things I do and take the chances I take.

And then I go back to sleep and wake up on Lake Superior or Devil’s Den and hike to waterfalls and forget it all until it is time to go back to sleep outside. Love and hate.

Lake Superior, Split Rock Lighthouse State Park.

I once asked my husband if he’s ever afraid when he is alone. He laughed out loud.

“Of what? Why would I be scared?”

I tend to be an overthinker, but I can’t tell you how many times I have wondered about his statement of fact. He is not scared. Of men or animals or most of the danger I intuitively see around me. He has nothing to be scared of — he is physically imposing and there is not one law on the books that will harm him.

He has never worried about walking at dark. Or encountering someone on a trail. Or sleeping outside. Or most of the things that take up a lot of my mental space.

He has lived his life completely unencumbered by his environment, even as a resident of a red state. A homegrown Missouri man.

Sure, the Missouri GOP trifecta, a supermajority, has defunded the schools and let our roads crumble and closed hospitals and generally made a nuisance of themselves, but that is exactly what they were to him. An inconvenience. Annoying. Turds in the punchbowl, but nothing to get too riled up about.

He was just living his life.

He didn’t see it. Not because he is not empathetic. Not even because he doesn’t pay attention to politics. It’s because he has lived his life with a privilege he didn’t know existed until I pointed it out. Because, until he saw the world through his daughters’ eyes, through my eyes, these things just never occurred to him. He didn’t deny privilege, he just didn’t see it. He isn’t uncaring or a dolt — he just had absolutely no experience being marginalized. I had to tell him.

Once he saw it, though, he couldn’t look away. He was disgusted. He understood.

This is where I should mention something that I have spoken of in front of safe men. When I tell them that I have been sexually assaulted as well as almost every woman I know, they are astounded. When I tell them of sexual harassment, they are amazed. And then, one day it clicked for me. These are good and safe men and the predators know it. They don’t hurt women while they are around. They don’t talk about it or joke about it, because these men wouldn’t put up with it. The good guys have often really not been a witness to the behavior we have endured because they are just that…good guys.

I am not making excuses for the menfolk.

The men in my life will attest to the fact that I constantly push them to see what we see. I am hard on them. I ask that they look beyond themselves and be an ally to others. To be a witness and bear witness.

We don’t need protectors, but we do need witnesses.

As a woman, as a mom of girls and granddaughters, I have no degree of safety in Missouri and I know all of my girls fall into the same category. They are not safe from sexual assault or rape. They are not safe after a sexual assault or rape. They will likely be dismissed, or worse, blamed. They would be forced to bear the child of their rapist. They would likely be forced to co-parent with their rapist.

Missouri has a total abortion ban with no exemptions for rape or incest. Not that it would matter…I am sure there is some process to that exemption as well and I really hate the notion that a woman or girl can’t have bodily autonomy unless she has first been violated.

Writing that sentence made me sick at my stomach.

Missouri women have been denied care because of the abortion ban. A Kansas OBGYN, Dr. Ahmed, shared a story last week about her Missouri patient who suffered a miscarriage:

“She came in for a follow-up still bleeding,” said Dr. Ahmed. “Turns out there was some tissue that was still there. Retained tissue in that setting can become infected, can cause a lot of bleeding, so I discussed with her the options.”

The patient decided on medication and Dr. Ahmed says she prescribed it. But the following morning, she received a fax from Walgreens on Stateline after prescribing Misoprostol or Cytotec for the miscarriage stating, “Under Missouri law medication abortion is now illegal. Please advise patient to fill across Kansas border”.

Missouri has also had a 25% decrease in OBGYN residency applicants willing to come to our state because of the ban. That decreases care for all women, not just pregnant women.

We aren’t safe in Missouri.

The good news is that Missourians will get to vote on Amendment 3 in a few weeks. This amendment will restore abortion rights in Missouri. We will be the first state to overturn a complete ban.

The bad news is that our bodily autonomy is even put to a vote. That geography dictates our rights. That random folks will get to decide if we are first or second-class citizens. That we have been treated as less than. That our rights have been up for debate.

This is red state shit. We are used to it. It is constant and it is something we live in fear of every day. It is the thing I point to when I am speaking to the men around me. I never let them daydream their way back into complacence. I don’t let them fade into the peace of not knowing…of not being engaged. I don’t let them forget the fear of the women around them. I keep them awake.

Woke. (Emphasis mine- Ali)

I don’t want to be scared of living in Missouri anymore. I don’t want anyone to be scared in their home state. This is why we have to speak on it. Say it.

The reality is that we cannot gain our rights back without involving men. I have such good men in my life. Would they have voted yes on Amendment 3 without me telling them? I’d say yes. Would they be as rabid in telling other men around them to vote yes if I had not worked on them for so long? Maybe not.

It’s not that we are dealing with self-centered jerks. It’s that they didn’t know what they didn’t know.

Now they do.

~Jess

Transgender Youth-reblog from Janet:

“We need cis allies to speak up for us. Vote to remove the bigots from positions of power. The biggest thing you can possibly do right now is to vote. Vote for Democrats. Because, no, they aren’t perfect, and no one is. But they are a darn sight better than the alternative.”

5 Creepy Creatures Out to Suck Your Blood | Deep Look

This one is a bit creepy.  Maybe for Halloween?  But if you don’t want to learn about insects that scarf our blood and leave us with diseases this video is not for you.  Hugs.  Scottie

Let’s talk about Trump, Biden, Putin, and secrets….