I am struggling

Hi. I am torn up right now with memories.  I am not sure what to do.  I wrote one of them to Jill telling her some of my abuse because she has told me it is ok to do that.  Still it bothered me.  My mind won’t release.  I am having one of those times that the vortex of dark despair is hovering me right outside me.  I am trying to distract my self.  Damn it!  I am 61 now, my last rapes happened in my early 20s.  I am safe.  I am happy.  I have a wonderful husband who is even now making ravioli baked in the red sauce I made.  Yet the memories come over me in waves.  I want to forget, I want to not feel it like I did when it happened.  But … but … Oh hell, I am going to do comments to help my mind settle.  But today my emotions are raw and I have memories that hurt.  At what point in my life do they go away?  Really I am 61.  I am safe, it is water under the bridge.  Yet ….  OK hug.  Scottie

House kills child online safety bills that could’ve hurt LGBTQ+ kids & allies

The man plays computer games at home. Young guy is bored during online learning. Neon light in the evening. Weekend at home at the screen.The boy lost, was tired and upset.

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Despite passing in the Senate earlier this week, the Kid’s Online Safety Act (KOSA) is reportedly dead in the U.S. House after progressives, like Rep. Alexandria Ocasio-Cortez (D-NY), worried that it would possible censor LGBTQ+ content. Some Republicans also opposed the bill, stating that it would violate free speech protections for social media platforms and their users.

KOSA would have mandated that social media companies take measures to prevent recommending any content that promotes mental health disorders (like eating disorders, drug use, self-harm, sexual abuse, and bullying) unless minors specifically search for such content. Opponents worried that Republican attorneys general who see LGBTQ+ identities as harmful forms of mental illness would use KOSA’s provisions to censor queer web content and prosecute platforms that provide access to it.

“KOSA was a poorly written bill that would have made kids less safe,” said one of the bill’s most vocal opponents, Evan Greer, director of Fight for the Future, a nonprofit that protects human rights in the digital age. “It’s good that this unconstitutional censorship bill is dead for now, but I am not breathing a sigh of relief.”

“KOSA was always too controversial to succeed, and divided our coalition,” Greer added. “If we want to take on Big Tech and win, we have to quickly regroup and make a plan for next Congress. We need strong privacy, antitrust, and algorithmic justice legislation that address the harms of Big Tech without endangering free expression and human rights.”

Many other groups opposed the bill, including the American Civil Liberties Union (ACLU), the Woodhull Freedom Foundation, the LGBT Technology Partnership, as well as LGBTQ+ advocacy organizations in six states.

While KOSA passed in the Senate earlier this week in a 93-1 vote, three senators voted against the bills: Ron Wyden (D-OR), Mike Lee (R-UT), and Rand Paul (R-KY) — all three made statements explaining why.

Wyden specifically said he voted against the bills because he worried a future administration could use the legislation to “pressure companies to censor gay, trans, and reproductive health information,” The Hill reported.

Lee said, “This legislation empowers the [Federal Trade Commission (FTC)] to censor any content it deems to cause ‘harm,’ ‘anxiety,’ or ‘depression,’ in a way that could (and most likely would) be used to censor the expression of political, religious, and other viewpoints disfavored by the FTC.”

Paul wrote in a recent Louisville Courier Journal opinion article, “KOSA would impose an unprecedented duty of care on internet platforms to design their sites to mitigate and prevent harms…. This requirement will not only stifle free speech, but it will deprive Americans of the benefits of our technological advancements.”

KOSA was introduced by anti-LGBTQ+ Sen. Marsha Blackburn (R-TN), who said that one of the bill’s top priorities is to protect children from “the transgender in this culture.” Blackburn’s office told LGBTQ Nation that her comment had been “taken out of context” and wasn’t related to KOSA. Nevertheless, the anti-LGBTQ+ conservative think tank Heritage Foundation has also said it wishes to use the law to “guard” kids against the “harms of… transgender content.”

Jenna Leventoff, senior policy counsel at the ACLU, said, “KOSA compounds nationwide attacks on young peoples’ right to learn and access information, on and offline. As state legislatures and school boards across the country impose book bans and classroom censorship laws, the last thing students and parents need is another act of government censorship deciding which educational resources are appropriate for their families.”

Israeli Soldier BOASTS Of War Crimes – They Couldn’t Be Prouder Of Genocide

Never stop being shocked by this.

“A MAN!”: Lies Spread Over Olympic Fight Between Algerian And Italian

One of the best examples of anti-trans being wrong, she was a born woman, and showing the bigotry towards trans people he debunks in this very short video.  I love it.  J. K. Rowling chimed in as she always does to hate on trans, yet again she was wrong this was an assigned at birth woman.  These haters against trans people do not care about facts or science, they want their hate, bigotry, and their feelings to be what is normal in society.  I won’t ever watch or read anything by Rowling ever again.  She doesn’t care, she is very wealthy and very rich.  But she also doesn’t care the harm she does innocent people with her hate.   Hugs.  Scottie

Correcting the misinformation around an Olympic boxing match between Angela Carini and Imane Khelif.

I am struggling with nightmares of something I don’t know if I should share with you.

There is something that has been preying on my mind and it is effecting my sleep and my day, every day.   It is not critical yet.  I started the post then sent it to draft.  The issue is my memories of two of the methods used to punish me when I was 3 until the family moved about when I turned 7 years old.   It is painful to think of and I know it will be even more painful for those who read it who did not live my childhood.  I started a post and then shoved it into drafts until I could decide to publish it. 

Here is the thing.  I have come to care about my viewers, and I really have learned to care about people, all people, every person in some way since my miserable childhood.  I have learned to see most people as good, and learned the hard way to recognize those that are not.     I try to find the best in people, try to find a way to understand them. 

I know if I write out what is inside me, it will hurt people, the people who come here.   I have even hesitated to put it on the Male Survivor forums I belong to as there are a bunch of new people struggling and I don’t want to trigger them.  I reached out to a good online friend there who had been pimped out all his childhood, professionally from 9 until 24 when he ran away.  Like me right from his earliest memories after being adopted he was abused and sexualized.  I asked him if he thinks I should write it and post it.  I will look for his response tomorrow.   

But while I may put it there, the question I have is should I put it here.   There are new people here also, and there are new authors, Ali and Randy.  Their followers may be shocked by what my childhood was and leave the viewership.  I am confused, I am hurting, and I am struggling with this.   I always used my blogs before to tell of my abuse before I even told Ron about them.  But now I am torn.  I want to get this out, yet I want to protect people.  

Ok wonderful people who come here and read our posts.  What do you think, please be honest.  Should I write what I am feeling, what is bothering me here, or try to keep it bottled up inside me and maybe only share it there on MS?  Thanks.  I do care about each of you.  Best wishes and / or Hugs as you prefer.  Scottie

Let’s talk about Harris, momentum, and numbers….

Buttigieg Recounts Trump’s Lies On Fox News [VIDEO]

 

“He didn’t keep his promise of 6% economic growth. He broke his promise to pass an infrastructure bill. He even broke his promise to that J6 mob when he said, ‘I will be at your side when you march down to the Capitol.’

“But he actually did keep two promises: He kept his promise to destroy the right to choose in this country, and he kept his promise on tax cuts to the rich.

“If you want to know what a second Trump term would look like, I would look at those rare promises that he actually managed to keep. He’s disavowed a lot of things. I don’t believe him. He lies all the time.

“Republicans who are in Trump’s personality cult look at Donald Trump and say he’s perfectly fine even though he seemed unable to tell the difference between Haley and Pelosi, even though he’s rambling about electrocuting sharks and Hannibal Lecter. We don’t have that kind of warped reality on our side.

“Crime is down under Joe Biden and crime was up under Donald Trump. Now, I don’t know how often that gets reported on this network, so if you’re watching this at home, do yourself a favor and look up the data.

“Why would America want to go back to the higher crime that we experienced under Donald Trump?” – Pete Buttigieg, this morning on Fox News.

VP or not, he’s an indispensable asset to the Party.

I heard that he’s helping Harris in the art of debating. That’s the kind of guy she needs.

I wish he would be, but a “Colored Woman” and a “Gay guy” would kill our chances with any even Pink Republican.

I’m not so sure. I think anyone willing to vote for Kamala wouldn’t have a problem with Pete.

 

I love to think so, but nevertheless, it’s risky.

I love how he goes on Fox and they don’t even know what hit them. God, I am so proud to play for his team.

Fuck it – Make that man VP candidate.

While I suppose it theoretically might turn off a few voters, a) he’s the best person for the job and b) if you won’t vote for a candidate b/c of a gay VP, you probably actually weren’t going to vote for the candidate in the first place.

(The ONLY good argument I’ve heard so far is that the young age of Pete’s children make would place an unreasonable demand on his time. [ETA: For clarification, I meant the job would place an unreasonable demand on his time with his children. But my brain no work gud this early.] If that’s true and he feels that way – fine, he can decline.)

There is no evidence Kamala Harris isn’t considering him as her vice-presidential nominee, but the Washington Post didn’t even include Pete in their readers’ poll.

Pandering to anti-gay bigotry by saying other voters might not accept a gay candidate is just another form of anti-gay bigotry.

 

I posted one of them, the day Harris got the nod.
I’ve thought about it and changed my mind. Pete’s proved himself. Anyone who wouldn’t vote for the ticket because there’s a gay guy probably wouldn’t have voted for the ticket because there’s a brown woman.

 

Dems, Non-Trumpers: Going on Offense in Pushing Back Against Trump’s Lies and Missteps

I have followed Gronda for a long time, before she took her long break.  But she is back and her writtings while in debth and a bit long are so very interesting and well researched that they are more than worth the time to read.  I love them.  I hope everyone here will.  Hugs.  Scottie

Let’s talk about Trump and never having to vote again….