Tag: Sexual Abuse
News I want to share. 10-10-2026
A very religious woman I do tech work for.

This woman is a good person. She goes to church there or four times a week. She volunteers 4 days in the church thrift stores. She is not a bad person; she really is very nice, not just bright. So one day I was working on her computers, and it was something I needed to do about 3 times each month.
As I was working on her two computers, she kept telling me about her god’s love. Until I exploded!
Where was your god every time I was repeatedly raped as a kid, and why did he not stop it? Did he enjoy watching it? I admitted shouting.
She was silent for a few seconds. Then she said, Scottie, he was holding your hands. Really, I know the guys holding my hands. I knew the girls who were holding my head to force me down on their sex organs. I nearly walked out of the house. That level of stupidity is stunning, that level of excusing the abuse I had as a kid, to give her god credit.
I did finish the job. I also asked her if she wanted me to work on her stuff she kept her god herself. For the last 10 years that has been the truce we have. She still thinks her god is the entirety of existence, and she doesn’t seem to understand that her god watched each of my rapes, the violent rapes, the forced to drink urine, the tied to a stair rails so I could be raped by teenage males. Damn I have to get some relief. I think soon my head will explode. Maybe it should. I am tired. Maybe …maybe. No, not yet, not now. I promised Randy I would tell him before I did. Not yet, not now. But ever closer.
I just don’t understand why a good god would have watched what happened to me and let it go on, no matter what about free will. What about my free will not to be raped or forced to give blowjobs? Doesn’t that count to her god? Hugs
News I want to share. 8-11-2026 part 1

Randy asked for songs, few replied, I have some from the other side, songs that have haunted me since I first heard them.
Do you have a secret you can’t tell anyone. As a 12 year old I had to please my drunk adopting mother because she promised to tell me about my real father if I did. She did not. I had secrets I could not tell anyone.
As anyone can imagine I spent most of my time either out of the house and away from danger or when I got one at 7 or 8 years old in my room listening for the sounds of footsteps and angry voice coming closer to me. Hugs
This last one I played so often to drive my demon thoughts out and to ask the question in my mind there was no answer to. When I cried why … well I know why, small town politics, fear of my adopting father, not wealthy but a man of great strength and fighting skill. No one wanted to cross him. Maybe some day I will find the answer. Or at least peace. Hugs
Sorry for this post. I was really doing well today. But the last hour everything crashed in on me. In Star Trek The next Generation Data the unfeeling android has an off switch hidden but for those that know where it is he can simply be turned off. Right now I want to turn off. Where is my hidden switch that will keeps these damn intrusive thoughts and memories turned off. Anyway I was going to make baked ziti for supper but I picked up three pounds of ground chuck and will use a pound to make sloppy joes instead. Hugs
Mar-a-Lago Spa Would Send Teen Workers on House Calls to Jeffrey Epstein’s Mansion: Report
Full disclosure. Ron was working for tRump at Mar-a-largo as his nighttime butler and nighttime house supervisor. He knew all about this and told me of it. Sadly he couldn’t do anything about it other than give the doctor and staff comfort and support.
https://people.com/mar-a-lago-spa-would-send-teen-workers-to-jeffrey-epstein-s-house-report-11877952
A new report from the ‘Wall Street Journal’ reveals new ties between Epstein and President Donald Trump
Clips from The Majority Report
Trump Epstein Removal Happening?
MTG Begins Wave Of Republicans Quitting Congress
Fox News Can’t Spin Their Way Out Of This
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