Billionaire try 3

I tried to spout off on my view of the things I heard on the Sunday news shows. It took many takes and trying to find my old files as this new program simply wiped out my first video attempt. This is a combination of three videos.

Too tired and too discouraged.

My own doctors have been pushing for 8 years that I need a neurologist. It got much worse after I had my stroke in 2023. But I put it off. But I have seen Ron decline. I admit that the string of numbers I need to put in due to two factor authentication. I need Ron to read them to me, or I have to keep refreshing them as I can’t remember the numbers. I also am dyslexic on numbers. I have never been able to spell but also numbers are not my friends.

But while my doctor has said I need a neurologist due to the lost of strength on my left side due to my stroke, and the ever increasing tremors, and while I have a standing order for an MRI on my left shoulder due to a spasm that my doctor thinks tore my rotator cuff. I put it off. Glad I did.

Ron has been failing mentally for years. I took over the bills a decade ago because he said it was too much for him … I have seen the writing on the wall. Now at 70 I have to often remind him of things, make sure he puts appointments into the calendar. He will open food and walk away leaving it on the counter, he struggles to understand why some of his lapses upset me, always promising to do better … then repeating it.

When it comes to construction issues he is spot on, but now on cooking he comes to me confused. When Ron met me and moved in I had eggs and hot dogs in my refrigerator, it was all I knew how to cook, he taught me all I know. Now he comes to me confused asking what I think we should do. To be clear he understands he is losing memory and time and it terrifies him. He has begged me that if he ever has Alzheimer’s that I will kill him. But he is simply forgetful. I have to get up and check the security system after he goes to bed, but also I have made my own mistakes in my nighttime pills when I am exhausted. I am not sure where this is going to go. I did not think the problem was as bad as this doctor did, but when Ron told me the tests he took … I couldn’t pass them either. We are older people. So … Hugs

My computer issues last week

I am down to one computer.

As most who follow my blog might remember I have two computer systems two monitors, and two speaker set ups … you get the idea. I use one for watching videos / movies which I call the video computer and the other I use to blog, look up stuff, and I call that one the blogging computer. The system works for me.

A month or more ago I was having trouble restarting the XPS blogging computer that I bought in 2016. I found a workaround by using the reset / testing button on the power supply and using the start button. However that is no longer working. Why knowing this did you shut the computer down in the first place I hear people asking? I had an important program that just refused suddenly to work. It let me move the keyboard and mouse between computers with complete easy by simply going to the edge of one monitor to move it to the other. The problem was the program suddenly claimed that it couldn’t see another computer on the network. I tried everything I could think of including reinstalling the program, restarting the router, uninstalling the either net connections, unplugging and plugging the cables. I tried the restart 3 times with each computer. The only thing I could think of is I had a radical handshake that the only way to cure was to turn off the computers, then restart them. I figured I could use the workaround with the power supply to start that computer. It failed. The power supply won’t stay on long enough for the bios to hand the start up to the hard drive.

Why is this an issue. I was able to move all the open tabs from one computer to the other computer via Vivaldi, a browser that Barry told me about and I strongly recommend. The program allows you to set up a session memory for however many days you wish. I have mine set for three days. So after the blogging computer wouldn’t start I could go into the synced cloud of my devices and move all the windows with all the tabs into the video computer. Unfortunately it is stressing it out badly.

However what I couldn’t move is the video files I had just done this morning. I finally figured out two different programs to record the videos that look and sound great. I did two this morning to go with posts I set up two days ago. I can’t get to those videos files. I could if I take the C drive out of that computer and plug it into a very inexpensive device I bought that allows me to plug all the different kinds of drive into it up to three at a time and read them all. But I won’t do that because I found a replacement power supply that will be here tomorrow. But I have a doctor’s appointment tomorrow, and Wednesday Ron and I were going to go shopping, and again Friday I have another doctor’s appointment. Told everyone I have some real health issues.

I had made and was uploading what I think were really great videos. I finally got the programs to work. They were uploading to go with the four posts I had ready to go. They were short, sweet, and looked / sound good. I can still post the posts without the videos. Which I will now do. But I am frustrated. But these computers are 9 years old. Ron and I talked about it. To get me the computers I need to do the work I do would take at least $1,800.00 times two. But if it comes to that we will do it. But my next computers will be at least an Intel 8 chip, the highest ram architecture possible I can afford, and as I learned that in the modern age higher ram makes a huge difference now in how a computer operates. In my days when first learning about computers ram and memory were much less important than the processor speed. I have found out with my own computers the one with a slower processor works far better / faster with a huge memory boost than the one with the bigger processor but locked into a far smaller memory.

So we put the computer on the counter and opened it up. Then we copied all the power supply specs and plugged that into Dell the manufacturer. They no longer have that part available which I already suspected when I went to my Dell page with my products and when I clicked on parts it offered me only three cables. Useless. But Amazon had the power supply I needed. It was not that expensive, fit the chassis and had the same power in / out rating. Plus it could be here tomorrow. So I won’t lose the computer, and will still be able to upload the new videos somewhat late. Ron chided me for know the power supply was failing and not ordering the replacement. I was trying to save money. It will be all good. Thanks for reading. Hugs

Some clips from TizzyEnt

Sorry this may be the last post I make today. I am not doing well. I have had 3 hours sleep in two days. Monday I got a steroid shot in each shoulder so I could move them again. My bones ache so bad I wondered if I had gotten a cold or flu again. Steroids do depress my already depressed immune system. But I can hardly stand the pain in my hands, arms, legs, and I am not a jolly fellow today. Tomorrow I have my allergy shots. That should be great, right, what could go wrong with how I feel. Ron is going with me and we are going to buy the flooring for the Florida room Ron built and that will be my new office. As I have said before it is to give me more light and not feeling so isolated and will give us a spare bedroom for visitors. Hugs

My first video with the new program 2 26 25

I am trying to use a new program to make videos. This video coverers a bunch of topics. Hugs and love. Also I have a new address to send stuff to Kamyk to for those that wish to do so. Hugs.

A bit tired out today.

I was up all night fixing a modem then router problem. The modem kept cycling and negotiating channels. Normally restarting it would solve that issue. It did not. So I factory reset it. Then that was where me being tired after being up all day and now about 2:30 am, I missed an important piece of the puzzle. Ron got up at three to use his iPad and it wouldn’t connect because I had the modem out of the system. I had it hooked directly to my main computer.

Then trying to reboot the router I forgot to change the Ethernet cables back around and was getting frustrated I couldn’t access the router controls. I was factory resetting and rebooting the router, I was using my phone to try to access the system, nothing was working. I was super frustrated when Ron popped his head in the door and asked what I was doing. I explained it, then he told me his pad did not connect saying the Wi-Fi was not there. I sat there trying to explain it to him when the light bulb over my head came on. I told him to give me five minutes and he would have internet.

In trying to explain what I was doing to him after nearly 20 hours awake it dawned on me, I had failed to move the cables back to the router so I was trying to access a piece of equipment not in the loop, not connected. I quickly redid the correct cable configuration of modem to router to computers and then I accessed the now factory cleared router. I restored my security settings, all the passwords, and in about 7 minutes had the system up. I went to bed around 4 am. Tired but happy. I noticed that everything I did stopped the modem from cycling also. I got back up at 7:30 am. I am doing laundry now and will start on comments. It is going to be a long day. I still have to go into the router and bind the devices so they can’t be spoofed but I am too tired to work on it now. At least I don’t have Ron’s job of cutting out flooring around metal support beams and plumbing lines for water and sewer. Hugs.

New videos and stuff coming tomorrow.

Hi Everyone. Hope all is well for everyone. I have been in bed for the last 48 hours. Two days. The first day I was in too much pain to function well. This morning I got up to watch the morning Sunday news shows and was in so much pain I took so much pain I had to go to bed by 10 am. Great news is I got all the issues surrounding my video recording taken care of. I can and will start doing them very soon. Hugs and so much love to all. Scottie

Hells bells and tortious shells as I once heard the curse.

*** Posting from me will be sparse or disjointed as will me responding to comments. More on that later ***

I had everything set up to answer all the comments I have saved. I have like 70 open tabs of all the comments I really want to read and address. I know a few have said never feel like you need to respond to me, but I really like to. I don’t have the ability to get out and see many people is because I am disabled, so I love interacting with people online. Maybe I get the community / personal interaction to them people who interact with other people get.

I also had cued up 8 tabs from Male Survivor I was trying to read and respond to. Understand that reading and responding to those posts are very draining to me. But before I could get to much of that, Ron wanted to take a walk before he went to his doctor’s appointment.

Please notice the change of color. I am very tired as I write this and Ron is cooking the supper we worked on during this crisis. But I need to get this written and eat then I fall into bed exhausted.

For weeks or months I have been telling my wonderful husband I smelt sewer shit smell. He kept telling me it was the wind on the air vent for the toilets. But it got worse and worse. So he said turn on the vent fans and see it will go away. But then it did not. I kept telling him there was a leak under the house. He was telling me I was just being reactionary … sound familiar, just what the republicans accuse the democrats of being. Turned out I was correct.

So today after he got home from his doctor’s appointment, he walked into the house a said wow this place smells like shit. I replied I kept telling you that. It did not go over well. But I convinced him to take up our bathroom floor which has a trap door to the underneath of the house. When he did that he came to me and admitted he was very, very wrong. We had a large pool of sewage under our home. Oh fuck, fuck. It appears one of our toilets has been dumping all its waste on to the ground. But worse the break was not under our second bathroom toilet. It was between the bathrooms. He would have to take up both bathrooms to fix it. Oh be still my racing heart.

I spend the entire afternoon showing him how if he had to rip up everything to fix the sewage leak, I had long been wanting a change to both bathrooms. See the second bathroom was added as only a sink and toilet but when James moved back in he needed a bathroom shower so he did not come into our room to get a shower … sometimes in the middle of us having sex. I did not mind, and James said it did not bother him, but Ron being old school was mortified. So he carved a large chunk out of our bathroom to put a shower in the “guest” bathroom.

So I have chafed about that intrusion preventing me from having the bathroom I wanted in my own bedroom. But it has been years since James moved out. I have told Ron we could have a much better bigger shower and the rest … as I have been telling him for years. But now that he has to rip it all out anyway … he suddenly seen the light. So I spent the last part of the time I have awake showing him my vision of the two bathrooms and helping him do the measurements to show I was correct. He agreed with me and that is the plan moving forward. Then he shut down. And so will I. I am going to bed. If I post it will be hit or miss or reply to comments it will be even more sporadic than what I already do. Trust me to put the comment in an open tab backed up by my computer program. I will some year get to them. Best wishes, Hugs, and lots of love. Scottie