

As an abused trafficed kid I was constantly told I was unworthy of anyone loving me. I was constantly told that unless I agreed to do what my abusers wanted I would die alone on the streets under a bridge. I had it drilled into me I was not loveable, I was not worthy of normal human respect. I think you can understand they used different words, more hateful, along with physical violence to reinforce it. I have had to struggle against it all my adult life. I had the ability but every time it looked like I would succeed, my mind would short circuit. Ron has worked 36 years plus to show me they were wrong, that I am not the thing they tried to make me. I am loved, I am a good person, I do have friends, I am… not what they wanted to make me. Hugs




















Btw, here’s a picture of Joe Biden alert and standing up in NYC at the ceremony today–you know, the same Joe Biden who the press ratfucked out of the White House 2 years ago by insisting he was at death’s door and basically braindead.















Notice the date on the meme above. Hugs






























































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I do this. I share on this blog. But if in trouble I call Randy. I desperately do not want to return to the bad times. But if the nightmares get bad, if I am crying I reach out to him. Does he deserve to be my main support person? No, but he is willing to be so. Just weeks ago I was struggling with selfharinging again. I called randy. I did not know but I interrupted his getting supper after a hard time at work. He talked me off the ledge, he calmed me down, and he did not let me off the phone until I assured him I wouldn’t hurt myself. That is the person Randy is. I am so sorry to put my friend through this. Hugs







































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































































