Suzy Sunshine and I met today and we mutually agreed that she couldn’t help me. She started off the session on grounding technics, and when she told me what they were I led her through each sense and how I try to stop the vortex from taking me and the steps involved, I described every step involved she stopped and looked sad. I asked her what was wrong and she said you knew all this before I could tell you. I said I have been dealing with these memories, emotions, and the cascading tornado of the vortex along with the emotional roller coaster of what happens for most of my life. I have learned to image and use the positive things in my life as handles to keep the tornado black vortex from drawing me in to it. In the last decade or more I have had to seriously draw on them to stay sane. No one taught me these things, I found them on my own because I was in such distress. At that point she told me I had passed the point where anything she could offer me would help. We left it I would work on it more myself and if I started to get in a bad place like I was in November and December I would call her and she would get me in with a trauma therapist. We parted on good terms with her saying as I put my heavy over shirt on because it is really cold here in Florida, “I am sorry I wanted to help, but what you are dealing with is way beyond anything I was trained for or ready for”. I thanked her and explained what I am dealing with most people can’t understand … but all I need is their caring support and honest concern for my wellbeing, something I never got as a child. I think what broke her was when she asked about smells could I think of a positive smell that might pull me from a trigger. I explained to her that all smells are relative and for example Ron might be cooking hamburgers and french fries and it might make me happy. Or it could remind me of when as a child the rest got to sit at the table eating hamburgers and French fries while I was made to stand across the room and watch. I saw her start to close down and she stuttered as she said yes I can see how that may be triggering. Anyway a song for the attempt at therapy. Oh if no one noticed I updated the Kamyk post, please read the new part at the end. Hugs
Category: Sex / Sexual
After a long day of doing posting, getting stuff correct, starting supper and then this song landed in my YouTube feed.
OK everyone tired of myself pushing / punishing posts about my childhood please skip this one. I won’t be talking much about my abuse only in vague terms. I am very tired, got up early to take care of the cat and been doing as much as I could all day. But I was OK, when my back gave out I let Ron do the dishes while I dried them so we could have the supper I made. It was a pork tender lion seasoned my way, mashed potatoes, green beans, and brown gravy. By the time that Ron was done, I was exhausted and hardly able to stand up, so he took over washing while I dried the few remaining dishes.
Then when I finished eating and got back to blogging. That was when YouTube slammed me with the song I will put at the bottom. The song is about a man and child abandoned by the mother as she got wealthy. But in my case when I did talk to my sires kids they told me why the little boy that was so shortly in their home and disappeared never to be spoken of. Seems that my sire’s wife said she wouldn’t tolerate another one of his off spring with other women to live in their house. She was already raising several of his children from women not her, and she was going to pull the line here. The little boy who already knew to hide and not be seen did not come into her concern at all. According to her daughter she was not a really nice person as she tried to pretend to the world she was. She simply did not care what happened to me as long as I was not in HER house nor taking her husband’s time away from her own kids. I asked my real sibling if the wife knew what would happen to me, and she said yes but she was willing to have it happen rather than take me into her home. I still have the letter and it causes me to cry each time, that an adult knew what I was going to face but simply did not care as raising me safety was more work for her and a reminder of her husband fucking other women.
So the song. All that glitters is not gold. I often wondered what would have happened to me if I had been raised in that family instead of the abusive one I did. But would it have been as abusive in the house of my sire as in the house of my adopting rapists? My sister from that family thinks in some ways yes. No I wouldn’t have been raped but I would have been blamed for everything wrong, I might have been disciplined very harshly, and yes made the scape goat of everything wrong in the family … if the man who sired me had let her do it. All just too scary and hurtful. A little boy sold to abusers because adults couldn’t reconcile where and how they used their private parts. I will place the song below and you can tell me if my tears were worth it. Hugs.
Mar-a-Lago Spa Would Send Teen Workers on House Calls to Jeffrey Epstein’s Mansion: Report
Full disclosure. Ron was working for tRump at Mar-a-largo as his nighttime butler and nighttime house supervisor. He knew all about this and told me of it. Sadly he couldn’t do anything about it other than give the doctor and staff comfort and support.
https://people.com/mar-a-lago-spa-would-send-teen-workers-to-jeffrey-epstein-s-house-report-11877952
A new report from the ‘Wall Street Journal’ reveals new ties between Epstein and President Donald Trump
Two days of news that is all over the map.
Why I do these posts. This is three days of Joe My God that got away way from me. So why do I do these long news posts? Because I comb the Joe My God comment section for the best memes and snarkiest comments. It dawned on me I could post his news articles for those that want to read them. But three days is a lot to go throw and it is much easier just to quickly scan and snatch the comments rather than post them. So I need some inputs from everyone. Are these posts worth it? Or would you rather go to Joe My God yourselves. Or I can keep doing these. Up to you. Hugs
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tRumps Grifts / Scams / Ripping off the rubes / tRump’s ego / tRump’s Crimes / tRump’s health / Republican grifts & payouts for supporting tRump / other trump scammers
The Trump Mobile website recently scrubbed its “100% made in America” claim.
The Trump Golf Tracker estimates that the president’s golf trips have cost taxpayers some $110,600,000 so far in 2025. But that estimate, which was based on a 2019 Government Accountability Office (GAO) report on four golf trips during his first term, doesn’t even take into account the month of December.
Epstein Files / Sexualizing women
Criminal Israel / Genocide / How easy tRump is played
The right wing media / the media arms of the GOP & Republican Party / The over the top thuggery and complete disrespect for common decency / Ask if you would like your child to act this way …. because maga does want their kids to be this crass as it makes them feel good / Kennedy Center debacle
The video was shared by Vice President JD Vance. FBI director Kash Patel said he is aware of the video and the FBI is investigating. The YouTuber says he is uncovering new fraud in Minnesota, but media outlets like KSTP reported more than a year ago about more than 62 investigations into Minnesota child care centers.
What this is really about is they are afraid Walz will run for office and win as he is so well liked. They are trying to gin up a fake scandal to Benghazi him like they did with Hillary Clinton. I posted yesterday how fake and full of lies / misinformation the “report” the YouTuber did was. In the article above this one you can see how the Republican Party had a hand in helping the right wing influencer to push a fake story. The state has been investigating these things for several years. Hugs
Can these people hear what comes out of their mouths? How nuts are they? Why are they relevant anymore? Hugs
Wars / Other countries taking advantage of tRump’s weakness / tRump’s false golden dome give away to defense contractors.
The chart posted shows that overall drug deaths dropped between 2023 and 2024, when the Biden administration was in the White House.
Before tRump started blowing up boats for oil. Hugs
$175 billion for a “golden dome” that experts doubt would actually work, but only $2 billion in humanitarian aid for the United Nations. It’s what Jesus would want.
Space based weapons are forbidden by treaties that the US signed. That said do we have space based weapons … well I was sending commands somewhere for something when I was in the Army Sat coms / intel unit. You decide. Hugs
Maga hate fail / tRump lost in court / tRump supporters doing what they do not want you to know about / ICE lies / tRump’s DOJ / Misinformation / Trying to change history by spewing & omitting facts or what really happened
The emails, which were made public as part of a newly unsealed judicial order, largely reflected communications about the case that Robert E. McGuire, the acting U.S. attorney in Nashville, had with members of his staff and with Aakash Singh, a top official in Mr. Blanche’s office. They raised serious questions about whether the Justice Department had misled Judge Waverly D. Crenshaw Jr., who is overseeing the case, by telling him that local prosecutors had acted alone in charging Mr. Abrego Garcia.
Hate / Bigotry / DEI / White Supremacy / Christian Nationalism / US aid to only white countries or white dominated areas / US Healthcare / For Profit drug prices rip off the US public /
The civil probes are proceeding under the umbrella of the False Claims Act, which has traditionally been used to go after contractors who bill the government for work that was never performed or inflate the cost of services rendered.
The U.S. slashed its aid spending this year, and leading Western donors such as Germany also pared back assistance as they pivoted to increased defense spending, triggering a severe funding crunch for the United Nations.
U.N. data shows total U.S. humanitarian contributions to the U.N. fell to about $3.38 billion in 2025, equating to about 14.8% of the global sum. This was down sharply from $14.1 billion the prior year, and a peak of $17.2 billion in 2022.
The idea behind the legislation originated with the Alliance Defending Freedom, a conservative Christian legal advocacy group that has gained prominence for its work to incorporate religion in public spaces.
West last appeared here for his bill that would create a database of abortion patients.
In 2024, we heard from West for his bill to ban Pride flags at public schools and government buildings.
He appeared here in 2023 for his bill that would make it a felony to perform drag in the view of minors. His bill called for a $20,000 fine and up to two years in prison.
West first appeared here in 2021 when Gov. Kevin Stitt signed his bill making it legal to run over protesters.
The tweet below refers to West’s attempt to pass this same bill earlier this year.
Last week Trump claimed that he was bringing down drug prices by 3000%.
Popolo is a Trump megadonor with business interests in the Netherlands. News about the removal of the displays first surfaced last month.
tRump’s attack on Colorado because they won’t bow to the whim of the tyrant. His withholding money is illegal but no republican will stand up to the demented king.
In the past two week, Trump denied FEMA relief for Colorado and ordered the dismantling of the nation’s premier climate research facility.
Renewable energy / fossil fuels / More tRump lies
AI / Chatbots / Advertising / Destroying education / Erasing Scientific knowledge /
Good things
The 2025 LGBTQ Year in Review: Lows, More Lows and Rumblings of Hope
https://www.unclosetedmedia.com/p/the-2025-lgbtq-year-in-review-lows
Here are Uncloseted Media’s picks for the most newsworthy moments for the LGBTQ community this year.
Satan’s Evil Elves | Armageddon Update
Woman Who Confronted Platner Speaks Out
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