I am so tired of the lies about immigrants to please the maga bastards.

OK this is me just ranting before bed.  Sorry.  See I was an abused kid.  Most of you who come here already know and don’t need any extra help in that to show you how badly I was abused.  So I don’t need to show you more than my occasionally over the top ranting about my childhood abuse or the republicans claiming the republicans are stealing kids at the border … which is really what the republicans did.  They separated parents from children and then gave the children to Christian adoption agencies to sell for profit.  I wonder how their god feels about that.  But please let’s keep talking about how Biden lost all these kids … who were never lost.  Does any one else mind they are doing this?????   Because as a human trafficked sexually abused and traded person … I fucking sure DO!   Hugs.

https://apnews.com/article/fact-check-misinformation-migrant-children-missing-7ab0cea2fd2238346197429e952baa8b

https://www.usnews.com/news/us/articles/2024-10-02/fact-focus-claims-that-more-than-300-000-migrant-children-are-missing-lack-context

I am so very very tired and sorry if I hurt anyone tonight.  It just hurts what the republicans are doing and keep doing.   They hurt adults … They hurt kids.  They care for no one.

I wrote this post days ago and fell asleep before I could publish it.  Hugs

Brilliant New Ads Put Republicans In Your Bedroom

This is the push the democrats should have made to the people.  Ways the republicans plan to invade their personal life.  Not even maga men want someone telling them what they can do with their dick.  Hugs.

A new ad campaign from the Progress Action Fund shows how your bedroom is impacted with Republicans in charge.

True Facts: Parasitoid Wasps

Our bed!

About 4 or five years ago the mattress in our bedroom was totally destroyed.  It was way beyond the use life.  I am serious while both of us were much heavier than we are right now, while my side had a big hole where my body was his side had given up and was trying to run away.  He had no side wall of the mattress and was trying not to fall on the floor.  One night I got so upset I demanded an end to the bullshit and insisted he remove the mattress.  

So instead of buying a new mattress he decided to remove the bed frame and instead put up a high air mattress we had for when we needed to go to the hospital during a hurricane and kept for visitors to sleep on.  But that was too low for my hips and back and I was constantly struggling.  One night as I was sleeping the value gave out and I ended up trapped in the bed, crying for help.  James heard me and came down and got me up.  

So Ron overcame his hate to spend money on his own comfort and realized we couldn’t do this.  Now here is where our lives are different.  I figured we would get a new bed frame, a storage bed I always wanted due to our abundance of stuff and lack of space to put it, and a normal mattress from the mattress stores that cost around $1,200.00

Nope, Ron listened to James who had just spend a large amount of money on a frame and mattress from the Purple company.  So Ron told me to asked me to order the new king-size storage bed that was already very high, and he and James went back and forth over what mattress we needed for it.  When Ron told me that the mattress was going to cost $4,000.00 I was shocked.  I was like what about this or that one advertised locally.  Nope he said we need this for you and your very painful bones.  I tried hard to say my bones could deal … but he wouldn’t bend. So the king size bed frame I choose because of the storage and headboard space for $1,800 he added $4,000 grand for the purple mattress.  

Now I was upset but decided if he insisted, I could live with it.  But when the bed arrived and we set it up, it had a weight limit of … 300 pounds.  But the new mattress that Ron bought was 300 pounds itself.  So before Ron and James put the new mattress on the bed, Ron added a few under the bed supports and a couple large 2x4s to run down the length of the bed.  

Move to this last week as Ron was frantically trying to figure out what was happening to our south sided wall outlets on a split circuit that seemed to go mostly to the south wall and a small part to my Pink Palace including his TV and player stuff.  After we went to bed about 1 am we both woke to a huge … Bang, crack, boom.  We did not realize what happened until he got up a few hours later after trying hard to stay in bed and hitting me in the face accidentally.

So after a few hours he gave up and got up.  We took the mattress off.  And Ron was shocked.  All the support legs had twisted off, and the too thin boards had warped under the weight or broke.  So Ron stopped replacing the outlets and electrical work he was doing for two days … We do have priorities and not sleeping on the floor is one of them.  So he got his tools including his drill and saws out, and went to work.  Sadly it was a time in the month when we only had $50 dollars in our account (yes we are now among the US seniors who are very poor) so he did not buy a sheet of 1/4 plywood which he feels would have fixed the problem, instead he grabbed all the different pieces of wood he had to patch things and promised me he would buy the plywood to fix it when I got paid.  

Ron sadly tries to cheer me up by reminding me our life has become management by crisis.  Great news.  The bed is again very strong and comfortable … even able to stand … active seniors sex activities.   Below are the pictures.   Hugs and loves to all.  And yes the drama of our grand life continues.   Hugs

Maybe Someone Can Use a Short Humor Break?

Enjoy a quick Cover Snark! Click through and enjoy the comments, as well. It is a safe place there.

Cover Snark: Reptiles are an Unintentional Theme

by Amanda · Oct 28, 2024 at 3:00 am · View all 7 comments

Welcome back to Cover Snark!

Safe in Her Bodyguard's Arms by Katherine Garbera. A man and woman in a swamp, wading through water. The water comes up to their thighs and we can see beneath where an alligator lurks.


From Rachael: I have so many questions:

Does she not want him to save her from what looks to be an alligator?

Is that alligator okay? His hips seem off.

Should his gun be that close to the water?

Why are they casually having a moment in this clearly dangerous water??!!

Did they keep their shoes on?

Sarah: She’s a shifter. So is the gator. That’s her brother and she has to talk him out of shooting the gator because again, brother.

Also, how come his shirt is wet at the neck and pits but his pants, which are IN WATER, are dry?

Sneezy: I respect alligators and crocodiles the same way I respect bears and moose – from far, far away.

Double Dare by Wynema McGowan. The bottom half of the cover is an older looking wooden house with a porch and a large tree. The orange sky is filled with the image of woman setting at a desk and writing in a journal. She is wearing a dark green, off the shoulder dress. However the woman is copied and flipped vertically and image makes it look like the two woman are joined at the shoulder.

Sarah: That cover is so disturbing to me. Every time I look at it I get a low-grade ick.

Amanda: Yeah, the shoulder area in particular.

Sarah: Looking again, yup, still ick.

Sneezy: My ick is how OBVIOUSLY COPY AND PASTE they are! THIS IS LITERALLY THE LARGEST AND MOST IMPORTANT PART OF THIS DESIGN!

Wed to the Alien Warlord by January Bell. A headless and shirtless green, well-abbed man with scales. He has long, green hair and a leather strap across his chest. The title is in bright red and orange.

From Lillian P: Green with fish scales? Red belly and abs? Floating in space? And red and yellow font for the title.

Sarah: Someone got reeeeally excited about learning how to use textures in Photoshop.

Amanda: As someone who owned snakes and has touched many a reptile, I don’t know how I’d feel about sexy time with someone with scales.

Sneezy: I’m really into snake people, but only if they have hemi-penises. What’s the point otherwise?

Captive Mates by Corin Cain, Three shirtless men wearing leather straps are in space. Their skin is grey and all are looing down at their crotch. The man in the middle is wielding a green, glowing sword. Behind them are three blue planets in space.

Also from Lillian P: Not one, not two, but three floating aliens all checking themselves out?

Sarah: I’m so sorry I cannot stop laughing at this. It’s so funny. They’re all so pensive! Glowing swords and kilts and a wee-wee stare-off.

Claudia: Oh man I feel we’ve done this one but maybe all the wee-wee staring is blending together!!

Amanda: They all look like they’ve fallen asleep standing up. Like horses.

KAMALA vs TRUMP: Why This Vote Matters More Than You Think

Since Thursday I have been in a downward emotional spiral. I am holding on. Here is why.

Hi everyone.  Maybe people are getting tired of hearing my daily struggles that break through my normal defenses sometimes and bring me to not a cliff, but a steep hill almost impossible to not fall down, with things to hit and bounce off of hurting more but very few things to grab on to that I can use to stop the falling.  Two of those things together stopped my fall Friday night, hopefully giving me something I can hold on to that will stop the falling long enough to get off the mountain slope.  I reached close enough to the bottom once in 2014.  I don’t want to fall that far again nor see what is below that at the very bottom of that long fall.  

I also need to explain that for a week I was running on 4 hours sleep and last night I only got 2 hours and 23 minutes (Friday night Saturday morning).  This morning (Saturday) on our walk Ron who also struggled to sleep noticed I was sluggish, slow for me, not talking much.  When we got back home my body couldn’t do more.  Barely able to take off my jacket and getting Ron’s help taking off a heavy long sleeved sweatshirt that was too small for me, after I put on a tee shirt I fell into bed.  I slept all day.  Ron also had not slept so came to bed for 3 or so hours.  During that time I had a nightmare of my childhood abuse and woke him by crying out for my abuser to please stop, to not hurt me more.  Ron woke me as gently as he could.  I again felt shame and sorrow over waking him from his slumber over my own trauma.   It had slowed down greatly but this last week the nightmares and crying outburst while sleeping, and while awake in my Pink Place, which Ron has tried hard to make a safe space for me.   I go through a lot of facial tissues in here.  

On Thursday after not sleeping well and having other issues I watched two videos which later was followed by a third A few days later while still trying to recover.  I just realized over half of my current tabs open on YouTube are of PSAs on child abuse or testimonies of victims trying to find resolution.   I get them in my feed because when I am in a triggered emotional set back I tend to watch these and of course Google / YouTube fills my recommendations with a constant feed of more of them.  And I fall down that mountain slope reaching out and read more and more and more of others abuse making the slope steeper with the things to hit that hurt harder, bigger, and the helpful handholds so less.   The very same reason I had to stop participating on the Male Survivor site.  Once I fall down that mountain slope the more I read / hear of others abuse so much of what happened to me the faster I fall with few things to grab on to that will slow my falling, which seems to get faster the longer I fall.  

The first video was the one that set it off.  I cut it off after the movie went to “Jesus saved my life from my abusive father who was killing me part” when I watched it.  If that saved him I am glad, but Jesus nor religion never stopped my abuse nor were any of my abuser anymore into religion than for a brief period when they got a lot of attention from being involved in the Sunday School teachings they so loved the attention as new members and maybe thought that would wash away all their sins.   They soon got disinterested and left, and I was still being abused.  Abused before it, during it, and after it.  Sometimes I would be abused before we got ready for church and if not before then I knew I would be when we got back home.  In my case the power of the lord had no help for me.  

So the first video was the worst.  It talked about how the father hated the kid because he was another man’s son.  In the video the wife had an affair and that left the husband forever taking his violence on the kid.  In my case I never thought my adoptive mother was my mother, and from the few records I could find after her death it seems my mother’s father paid for me to be adopted and paid the biological father a large sum of money.  But sadly my birth certificate list both of them as my parents.  But that was the feeling of my adoptive father, he was not raising another man’s kid.  He took that anger out on me and made clear his own kids could also to retain his favor.  In the video the other kids snuck him food and comforted him, not mine.  Mine denied the food unless I either humiliated myself or sexual pleased them.  For a few years the daily abuse was less when the adopting mother was around, which was rare, because I was still her adorable little toddler toy to parade around, yet she explained the bruising and lack of normal interaction I had as I was shy and clumsy falling often into things.  The dead eyes and lack of interest in things she explained as being tired because I fought to not go to bed.  As I have said before by the time I was 6 years old in first grade she had stopped protecting me and slowly became a participant in my abuse as I aged rather than just turning away ignoring it.  It took my school getting involved to change a lot in my life.   

But as in the short video, shorter if you don’t watch the Jesus intervention part at the last third, I became aware of the sound of every abuser.    Their footsteps with shoes or bare feet, their breathing when hurting me or using me sexually, both oral and anal, and feared being around them or the sound of them getting closer.  I also wondered if this was the time they did not stop.  I am not sure if I understood if they did not it would be death, I just feared this time they wouldn’t stop and it would keep going on forever.  As a child we had no religious beliefs so I had no idea that the abuse might stop in heaven or continue in hell, I knew nothing of death.  I just knew I wanted them not to hurt me, I wanted to have food and eat like they did, I wanted someone to hold me and tell me I did a good thing like they got.  I wanted affection.  I wanted to be able to go to the bathroom without conditions or being told to pee in a glass that as it filled I would have to drink all of it before being able to continue peeing in the glass until finishing, humiliated, crying, sad, hurt, while the hell spawn and their friends gloated over being able to make me do it.  The friends may not have understood the punishments if I peed my clothing or on the floor being reported to my adopting parents by the hell spawn, as my view wouldn’t be heard.   If they said I just peed myself rather than tell them I needed to go or they made me pee on the floor and said I did it before they could stop me … they would be believed and nothing I said would be heard.  Many times I remember them holding me forcing me to pee on something knowing I would take a nude beating with them looking on gloating.  It was a way to make me willing to accept what they demanded and willingly give them what they wanted from me.  

Sadly the only kind affection I got between late 3 to nearly 7 years old was from a little boy lover pedophile across the street.   His abuse I have never seen as traumatic.  Yes he used my body for his own needs, but he was kind, gentle, his touch and hugs were warm with good feelings.  Even when inside me he was kind, gentle, and constantly praising me as a wonderful boy.  It made me want even more to try to make him happy.   He told me over and over what a good boy I was, he really seemed to care for me which I never saw from the young hell spawn who hurt me for their enjoyment, nor from either adoptive parents. 

One punishment the hell spawn would do when they were home with no adult was to tie a wide belt or rope around my neck and then attach it to the stair banister in a way that my head was jerked into looking up at a painful angle, my hands would be tied to or through the stair rails so I couldn’t use them to defend myself.  I would always be nude.  I would sometimes be blindfolded, that was when I knew that more than them hitting me, hurting me, other kids would also be there to hurt and rape me.  I couldn’t tell where the blows might be coming from, who was grasping me grabbing my hips, who was …, everyone must get the idea.  So yes I learned to hear them, to fear them, and the child diddler across the street never seem bad or a threat to me.  He was the only bright kind light in my life.  Then he killed himself and that kindness when away forever.   But it did set me up for looking for kind abusers in my life.  Such as the principle at my 1st to 6th grade school.  He quickly realized the kid I was and made a friendship with my adoptive mother.  Even as he was facilitated a place and way for me to leave class to laydown behind the library shelves along with letting me go with a police officer questions deflected, he was also using me sexually.   Only once he was he hurtful, that was when I insulted a female teacher so before he raped me he made me with a bare bottom bend over his knees and spanked me hard as a lesson.   Then when I stood up, kissed me, hugged me, told me sternly to always obey my teachers.  And then turned me around, lubing my butt hole, and inserted himself inside me to finish …  planting his seed there.  I was then given an abnormal instruction to pull my pants up, go back to my classroom.  That time I was not offered the option to go laydown, nor go to the bathroom to expel his cum.  I understood I was being punished. I worried about it leaking and the pain of sitting.  Thankfully my teacher never called me out for fidgeting and constant movements in my hard no cushion chair, maybe knowing what was going on with me at home and in school.  

Now it is Sunday morning.  I couldn’t finish this post last night.  I was getting too upset and was too tired.   I got another 3 and half hours of sleep before I got up again.  So here is the rest of the story hopefully with less emotional upset from me.

  Wow just rereading correcting my errors now has me worn out emotionally already.  I can not imagine how it must be for everyone reading who don’t know what the life I lived is like.  It must be stories from a strange foreign world or harmful different government on earth somewhere far away.   Sorry it happened to me here, in New England.  But let me continue to get this out before it consumes me again.  I have so much unresolved pain from the past.  Some want me to ignore it, some want to reveled in it seeing my survival as overcoming it but they lose the point, it still haunts / hurts me.  Left undealt with I will be the one left falling down that steep mountain slope with no way of stopping hitting the bottom … which might be death.  

So you have read all of the above, no reason not to provide you with the videos.  The first was the beatings of a defenseless child, making him the other in the family simply because he was the product of another man’s seed he resented having responsibility to feed or care for.  You have read all of the above so here is the video, and again I ask you to make sure you are in a good place to understand that was my daily life so do not take that pain on yourself because I have already done that for all of us.  Here it is.

The second video that continued my downward spiral and the steeping of the mountain slope I was trying to find footing and keep from falling further down that slope to the hell I knew to be at the end.     This is the one being raped at school.  I was by adults but not students, but the older boys were sexually aware enough to act out on me.  Not physically hurtful but emotionally building that idea that was my place in life, to serve the more aggressive, more developed male.  Lucky for me what they wanted was so silly and quick it meant nothing.  And the teachers caught on quicly that if I asked to use the bathroom and other male kids asked right after … they were told to wait until I was back.  Which was very frustrating to them and made several to try to be my out of school friend.  One night If I could plead for it using my body as currency they never wanted to come back again.  No one came to our home and I was not allowed to go to theirs.  I have no idea what scared the older kids in grade school from wanting wanting to stay over night again.  I was willing to please, but the adopting parents were not willing for me to develop friendships.  One of the prices of the “school friend” leaving the next day was instant abuse to make me avoid asking anyone else to stay over again.   

The last video that I watched a day or two after trying to absorb / deal with the abuse was again one that religious overtones.  But even with that the ending was so shocking / revealing I want to include it.   See if I had understood any religion, if I have thought that there was a way to stop the abuse … I would do what so many other kids did.  I would have taken my life.   That is why this post is so hard to make.  It shows how stupid I was at that age, it shows how clueless I was.  If I thought there was a way to move beyond my life at that stage I would have gladly let them go all the way and kill me.   Sorry for all this.  This has been a many day post as I struggled to first write it, reread it and edit it again, then fall some more down the mountain slope to briefly grab something to try to write again.   Side note.  On the other computer I have 10 videos cued up ready to play about child abuse.  Some are PSAs and some are personal survival videos from abuse victims.  Mostly male but a few female.  YouTuber dumps them into my feed and I open them / watch them or save them … all now send me to the mountain making the slope steeper.  There was a time when the slope was not so steep and much easier to walk away from.  The force drawing me to the bottom so small.  Yet now it is returning to like 2014 and I am no longer having the flat stable land before the slope that I lived on so long.  Now I am right at the edge of that slope and far too often I am struggling as I fall down it unable to resist the pull with few handholds and the hurtful things getting ever more  / harder as I fall.   

This is what I have been fighting for months, I forget how long.  I am dealing with my own needing to leave the Male Survivor site, Kamk’s abuse and his now being in the hospital afraid and triggered.  I struggle to balance his needs that right now are far more immediate than mine.  He feels he is looking at death or worse, life with no way to ever be who he was or wants to be.  I want so badly to reach out and hug him, to hold him, to help him … but I again am that child who was forced to ask to be allowed to drink a 14 year old boys urine so I wouldn’t be beaten in the morning. Here is the last video I watched.  I wont be sharing the others in my cue … maybe just as links but no commentary, but maybe I will grant myself mercy and not include them at all.  I am going to post this and go get a shower I have put off for three days.  Much love and warm comforting hugs for those that want them but also simple heartfelt thanks to those that follow and don’t want that physical touch.  Trust me I understand how disrupting and jarring unwanted touch can be.  I love you even if you don’t want hugs.   Here is the last video which was while Rand and Ron were with me providing the handles to grab on to and the way to make the mountain slope less steep.  Hugs / best wishes.  

New Court Filings Place Matt Gaetz at a Party at the Center of the Sex Trafficking Scandal

This is the first public filing that cites sworn testimony alleging that Gaetz attended one of the long-rumored parties with a teenage girl.

https://www.notus.org/florida/new-court-filings-matt-gaetz-dorworth-sex-party

Jose Pagliery September 20, 2024 01:35 AM | Updated: September 20, 2024 10:28 AM

Rep. Matt Gaetz attended a drug-fueled sex party in 2017 with the 17-year-old girl at the center of the alleged sex trafficking scandal, according to legal documents filed to a Florida federal court shortly before midnight Thursday, which cite sealed affidavits from three eyewitness testimonies.

The minor, who was a junior in high school at the time, arrived in her mother’s car for a July 15, 2017, party at the Florida home of Chris Dorworth, a lobbyist and friend of Gaetz’s, according to a court filing written by defense attorneys who interviewed witnesses as part of an ongoing civil lawsuit Dorworth brought in 2023.

The lobbyist claimed he had been unfairly dragged into the alleged sex trafficking scandal that has dogged Gaetz and his allies for years. Dorworth ultimately dropped the case, but lawyers filed these documents in an attempt to recoup attorneys fees for a lawsuit they say should never have been brought.

One eyewitness cited in the court filings, a young woman referred to as K.M., provided a sworn affidavit that claimed the teenage girl was naked, partygoers were there to “engage in sexual activities,” and “alcohol, cocaine, ecstasy … and marijuana” were present. The teenage girl was identified in the filings only as A.B.

“The discovery taken in this case to date reflects that on Saturday, July 15, 2017 … Dorworth, hosted a party at his residence … with the following guests present: (1) A.B.; (2) K.M.; (3) B.G.; (4) Matt Gaetz,” lawyers wrote in the filing, also listing several others. The defense lawyers filed testimonies from those three women — who the attorneys say placed Gaetz at Dorworth’s house that night — under seal pending a judge’s approval to make the records public.

Additionally, Gaetz’s own ex-girlfriend — who was present at the party — provided testimony that lawyers say rebuts Dorworth’s claims that he was not there.NOTUS independently verified that Gaetz and one of the women who testified were previously involved in a relationship; she is only identified in the court filing by her initials, B.G.

The congressman’s ex-girlfriend’s eleventh hour testimony on Sept. 3 came just two days before Dorworth dropped his lawsuit, defense attorneys said in the filing. The defense lawyers also relied on Dorworth’s geolocated cell phone records, which showed that he communicated constantly with the congressman that day.The defense’s court filings show a hired digital forensic examiner identified Gaetz’s number, which has a Florida panhandle 850 area code and texted back and forth 30 times that day and then called Dorworth twice in the hours before the evening revelry. “B.G., another attendee at that party, confirmed A.B.’s testimony under penalty of perjury,” defense lawyers wrote.

This marks the first time that sworn testimony has been referenced in public court filings alleging that the congressman attended one of the long-rumored parties tied to an alleged underage sex scandal.Previous reports have revealed details of ex-politician and Gaetz friend Joel Greenberg’s confession letter that was never made public, which described how Gaetz would allegedly pay him to arrange several sexual encounters with young women — including a 17-year-old girl. Greenberg is serving an 11-year prison sentence for a list of charges, including fraud and sex trafficking with a child.

There have also been reports of Venmo payment transactions that were also never released showing the congressman paying Greenberg on at least one occasion.

In 2021, Gaetz appeared on Tucker Carlson’s Fox News show and asserted, “The person doesn’t exist. I have not had a relationship with a 17-year-old. That is totally false.” Gaetz has denied allegations that he has ever had sex with a minor or participated in sex trafficking.

The Department of Justice investigated Gaetz and ultimately declined to file criminal charges.

Gaetz did not immediately respond to a request for comment.

Records also show that A.B., who was born in 1999, attended three weekly deposition sessions in July and testified in front of lawyers in Boulder, Colorado.

The new details were released in a cache of court filings that were ironically made public as a direct result of the congressman’s friend, Dorworth, trying to make this disappear.

When the DOJ dropped the investigation, Dorworth sued several people including Greenberg, and the woman who claimed she was sex-trafficked by Gaetz when she was only 17.

Dorworth responded by text message Friday morning, repeating his claim that he “never met” the teenager, “not once in my life.”

“She is also lying about Matt Gaetz,” he added.

Dorworth said his account is supported by a polygraph test he took years ago during which he was asked about the alleged encounters, and he noted that he is “still suing Joel, his parents and his company in state court.” He also took issue with the way defense lawyers referenced material that he stressed was “confidential.”

The story has been updated with Dorworth’s respone. (sic)

Jose Pagliery is a reporter at NOTUS.

‘I’m a black NAZI!’: NC GOP nominee for governor made dozens of disturbing comments on porn forum

This is one hypocritcal full of hate person.  The web page linked to has many videos and animations.  Hugs.  Scottie


 

 Mark Robinson, the controversial and socially conservative Republican nominee for governor of North Carolina, made a series of inflammatory comments on a pornography website’s message board more than a decade ago, in which he referred to himself as a “black NAZI!” and expressed support for reinstating slavery, a CNN KFile investigation found.

Despite a recent history of anti-transgender rhetoric, Robinson said he enjoyed watching transgender pornography, a review of archived messages found in which he also referred to himself as a “perv.”

The comments, which Robinson denies making, predate his entry into politics and current stint as North Carolina’s lieutenant governor. They were made under a username that CNN was able to identify as Robinson by matching a litany of biographical details and a shared email address between the two.

Many of Robinson’s comments were gratuitously sexual and lewd in nature. They were made between 2008 and 2012 on “Nude Africa,” a pornographic website that includes a message board. The comments were made under the username minisoldr, a moniker Robinson used frequently online.

Robinson listed his full name on his profile for Nude Africa, as well as an email address he used on numerous websites across the internet for decades.

CNN is reporting only a small portion of Robinson’s comments on the website given their graphic nature.

Many of Robinson’s comments on Nude Africa stand in contrast to his public stances on issues such as abortion and transgender rights.

Publicly, Robinson has fiercely argued that people should use bathrooms only that correspond to the gender they were assigned at birth. He’s also said transgender women should be arrested for using women’s restrooms.

“If you’re a man on Friday night, and all the sudden Saturday, you feel like a woman, and you want to go in the women’s bathroom in the mall, you will be arrested, or whatever we gotta do to you,” Robinson said at a campaign rally in February 2024. “We’re going to protect our women.”

Yet privately under the username minisoldr on Nude Africa, Robinson graphically described his own sexual arousal as an adult from the memory of secretly “peeping” on women in public gym showers as a 14-year-old. Robinson recounted the story as a memory he said he still fantasized about.

“I came to a spot that was a dead end but had two big vent covers over it! It just so happened it overlooked the showers! I sat there for about an hour and watched as several girls came in and showered,” Robinson wrote on Nude Africa.

CNN is not publishing the graphic sexual details of Robinson’s story.

“I went peeping again the next morning,” Robinson wrote. “but after that I went back the ladder was locked! So those two times where [sic] the only times I got to do it! Ahhhhh memories!!!!”

In other comments on Nude Africa, Robinson discussed his affinity for transgender pornography.

“I like watching tranny on girl porn! That’s f*cking hot! It takes the man out while leaving the man in!” Robinson wrote. “And yeah I’m a ‘perv’ too!”

In an interview with CNN on Thursday, Robinson repeatedly denied that he made the comments on Nude Africa.

“This is not us. These are not our words. And this is not anything that is characteristic of me,” Robinson said. Presented with the litany of evidence connecting him with the minisoldr user name on Nude Africa, Robinson said, “I’m not going to get into the minutia of how somebody manufactured this, these salacious tabloid lies.”

CNN first reached out to Robinson Tuesday morning with evidence connecting him to the comments on Nude Africa. It took his campaign two days to respond and issue a denial.

During his interview with CNN, Robinson repeatedly said the issues that faced North Carolinians were more important than what he called “tabloid trash,” and he steered the conversation toward attacking his opponent in the race, Democrat Josh Stein, the state’s attorney general.

“We are not getting out of this race. There are people who are counting on us to win this race,” Robinson said.

A history of controversial statements

Campaigning for lieutenant governor in 2020, Robinson advocated for a complete abortion ban without exceptions. He later expressed regret in 2022 for paying for his now-wife to have an abortion in the 1980s.

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
Rising GOP star running for NC governor mocked Parkland shooting survivors
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Now campaigning for governor, he says he supports a so-called “heartbeat” bill that would ban abortion when a heartbeat is detected – approximately six weeks – with exceptions for rape, incest and health of the mother.

But writing as minisoldr on Nude Africa in December 2010, Robinson said he did not care about a celebrity having an abortion.

“I don’t care. I just wanna see the sex tape!” Robinson wrote.

In another thread, commenters considered whether to believe the story of a woman who said she was raped by her taxi driver while intoxicated. In response, Robinson wrote, “and the moral of this story….. Don’t f**k a white b*tch!”

Robinson, who would become North Carolina’s first Black governor if elected, also repeatedly maligned civil rights leader Martin Luther King Jr., attacking him in such intense terms that a user accused him of being a white supremacist.

“Get that f*cking commie bastard off the National Mall!,” Robinson wrote about the dedication of the memorial to King in Washington, DC, by then-President Barack Obama.

“I’m not in the KKK. They don’t let blacks join. If I was in the KKK I would have called him Martin Lucifer Koon!” Robinson responded.

CNN’s reporting on Robinson’s comments comes a few weeks after The Assembly, a North Carolina digital publication, reported that Robinson frequented local video pornography shops in the 1990s and 2000s. The story cited six people who interacted and saw him frequent the stores in Greensboro, North Carolina. A spokesperson for Robinson called the story false and a “complete fiction.”

Despite earning the full endorsement of former President Donald Trump and the North Carolina Republican Party, Robinson faces an uphill battle in the race for governor against Stein.

Robinson’s history of controversial remarks, including mocking school shooting survivors, his past support for total abortion bans without exceptions for rape or incest and disparaging the civil rights movement have been a consistent theme in the race. Recent public polling shows Robinson is losing to Stein.

Identifying minisoldr as Robinson

 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
North Carolina GOP nominee for governor responds to CNN report about his disturbing comments on porn forum
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On the Nude Africa website in both comments and his profile, minisoldr offered numerous details that align precisely with Robinson’s personal history.

In his profile, minisoldr listed his full name as “mark robinson” and disclosed a private email address Robinson used elsewhere online. In 2012, a user responded to a comment by calling minisoldr “Mark.”

Minisoldr mentioned in 2008 being married for 18 years, which corresponds with Robinson’s marriage to Yolanda Hill in 1990. In 2011, minisoldr wrote he had been married 21 years. Minisoldr wrote in a 2011 post that he lived in Greensboro, North Carolina, the same town where Robinson lived at the time and currently lives.

In a post in 2012, minisoldr said he served in the Army in the 1980s, during the same time period as Robinson. In his sexually graphic comments detailing watching women in the showers in 2011, minisoldr wrote that his mother worked at an Historically Black College and University (HBCU). Robinson’s mother worked as a custodian at North Carolina A&T State University, an HBCU located in Greensboro.

Both minisoldr and Robinson often posted about the same topics online, including reviews for remote-controlled helicopters, their attraction to specific celebrities and their favorite “Twilight Zone” episode.

The email address associated with minisoldr on Nude Africa was also used by Robinson elsewhere online and social media. On the commenting platform Disqus, a user who joined in April 2011 features Mark Robinson’s photo under the username minisoldr.

Usernames and email addresses from Disqus were publicly leaked online in 2017, according to the company. CNN confirmed that Robinson’s username minisoldr on Disqus shared the same email address as the one used on Nude Africa.

Robinson’s Disqus page is also linked to the Black social networking site Black Planet. The Web Archive shows a user named “minisoldr” described themselves as 40 years old in February 2009 – the same age as Robinson at the time – and living in Greensboro, North Carolina – Robinson’s hometown.

A username often used by Robinson

Robinson has frequently used the username “minisoldr” elsewhere on the internet. On X, the platform formerly known as Twitter, Robinson once used the minisoldr username, according to a screenshot he shared on Facebook in 2018 and data in Robinson’s old tweets.

A YouTube playlist for a user named “minisoldr” features exclusively videos of Robinson. On Pinterest, a user “minisoldr” lists his name as “Mark Robinson.”

The “minisoldr” username has also posted reviews of products and places Robinson has also publicly recommended. On Amazon, a user named “minisoldr” reviewed products frequently shared by Robinson on Facebook, including remote-controlled helicopters. And the same email address and username used on Nude Africa also left reviews on Google for two local businesses Robinson later posted on Facebook that he used.

Robinson’s unique choice of language further links him to the “minisoldr” alias on the pornographic forums. Uncommon phrases such as “gag a maggot,” “dunder head,” “I don’t give a frogs a**,” and “I don’t give two shakes of it” were used both by minisoldr on Nude Africa and by Robinson on his personal Facebook page.

Robinson as minisoldr ‘Slavery is not bad’

In the pornographic forums, Robinson revealed his unvarnished thoughts on issues such as race, gender and abortion.

Writing in a forum discussing Black Republicans in October 2010, Robinson stated unprovoked: “I’m a black NAZI!”

That same month, Robinson wrote in another post that he supported the return of slavery.

“Slavery is not bad. Some people need to be slaves. I wish they would bring it (slavery) back. I would certainly buy a few,” he wrote.

In March 2012, Robinson wrote that he preferred the former leader of Nazi Germany Adolf Hitler over the leadership in Washington during the administration of Barack Obama.

“I’d take Hitler over any of the sh*t that’s in Washington right now!” he wrote.

Robinson’s comments on Nude Africa often frequently contained derogatory and racial slurs directed at Black, Jewish and Muslim people.

In a series of seven posts in October 2011, Robinson disparaged Martin Luther King in such intense terms, calling him a “commie bastard,” “worse than a maggot,” a “ho f**king, phony,” and a “huckster,” that a user in the thread accused him of being in the KKK. Robinson responded by directing a slur at King.

In October 2010, Robinson used the antisemitic slur “hebe” when discussing how he liked the show “Good Times” developed by Norman Lear, saying “the show itself was a bunch of heb [sic] written liberal bullshit!”

While discussing the Taliban, he referred to Muslims as “little rag-headed bastards” and said that “if Muslims took over liberals would be the 1st ones to be beheaded!”

Robinson also used homophobic slurs frequently, calling other users f*gs.

In a largely positive forum discussion featuring a photo of two men kissing after one returned from a military deployment, Robinson wrote the sole negative comment.

“That’s sum ole sick a** f*ggot bullsh*t!” he wrote.

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