I blog for the same reason I think some times. It is an itch I just have to blog to scratch. Hugs. Scottie
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For me it is self harm. The constant pain my body is in and painful memories want me to cause the pain I can control, which releases endorphins, causing temporary easing of the mental torture I feel all the time now. But I don’t, and I won’t. Not now, not this minute, not this hour, not this day, not … as long as I can say not. I promised Randy back in 2014 I wouldn’t start doing it without telling him first. I have held to that promise. Hugs. Scottie
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Ukranian soldiers advancing. That cat looks like it will personally take care of Putin as soon as the word is given.
Isis, a Mudlark student-athlete, was taken by ICE earlier this year, and she’s now being released after much protest by fellow students, and this big local news story with national implications is being covered by … local podcaster Marty Moon, using the same iPhone camera streaming setup he uses to comment on high school golf? Honestly, I’ve never been more concerned about the health of the Milford media ecosystem.
This clip was with a reporter detailing the abuses in ICE detention facilities and the illegal actions of ICE agents and for profit prison staff. Profit over people as these ICE and prison staff do not see the detainees as humans like themselves. What is concerning is ICE is learning how to use existing laws to make the local law enforcement work against the will of the people. This young man wont admit he was attacked by ICE agents instead saying he thinks he hit a tree limb in the confusion but I showed Ron the video and he said the guy looks to him like he was hit repeatedly and hard in the head and possibly the body as well. When will we as a people see that these abuses are so very similar to the abuses suffered by the minorities in 1930s Geermany. Hugs
How I feel some days
How I hope to be to others
I heard someone say the best thing they could do is offer their hand to those in need of a hand to grab on to, give support to those in need, to be the person I need others to be sometimes for me. Hugs
Remember this is a Christian nationalist who wants to push his version of religion on everyone else. He has denied promotion to women and black people. He is a radical religious crusader, which I know because he has a crusader tattoo. Years of trying to make the US military of which I was one and my dog tags read pagan for religion more inclusive are being destroyed by an administration that is filled with people who are driven to promote and push a religious domination on the military and country. It has long been known that religious zealots infected the Air Force Academy and were pushing the evangelical version of the Christian religion. In Germany I had to spend an uncomfortable 8 months when a fundamentalist religious group in our unit decided that as it was an open secret in the unit I was one of the gay members of the unit that was more open about it they needed to save me from my sins. Every time I went to the chow hall one of them cornered me at a table and started to preach at me. Not talk to me, not to offer friendship, but to tell me all about hell and how horrible I was and that their god hated how I was and that I was in willful disobedience to their great deity. They could save me from their already determined fate if I just joined them and gave my life to their god instead of the heathen sin some demons had infected me with.
I got so damn frustrated with them. Then my friends who had started eating with me to drive them away came up with a plan. We created a religion based on greek mythogoly that we called the “House of Aphrodite”. We drew up a few tenets of the region, one of which was that it was a sex religion and to worship everyone needed to do so with each other nude. The last time they saw me at the chow hall and several of them tried to sit with me and my friends, my friends sprung the trap. They told the guys we would gladly go to their church meetings and pray with them but only if they went to one of our religious meetings first. They did not know we were religious they claimed but we assured them we were very devout. Thinking we were talking about a “liberal” church they readily agreed and then my friends sprung the trap. They told them about our religion The House Aphrodite and the tenets. My friends emphasized how we all worshiped in the nude and some rituals enacted required people to touch each other even on their sexual organs to honor the goddess. My friends played it up and I could hardly keep from laughing at the horrified looks on their faces. Needless to say they declined our invitation to join us in worship. But after that they never bothered me again. Hugs
It is 4:34 pm here in my office. Today I was struggling. But before that I had written an email to Ali that I was doing so much better and wanted to tell everyone. I had to go out to get my morphines this morning so Ron could take Tupac to the vet. When I got home I did a few things. Then I started doing the dishes and laundry. But by 1:30 pm my pain became so bad I was in tears. I desperatly did not want to take more medications, I get set back on my getting better every time I have to do that just to function. The federal government is trying to force my pain doctors to lower my pain medications yet at my last virtual appointment my pain doctor noticed how much pain I was in and did not decrease my medications anymore saying she could justify giving me that which RFK Jr. the road kill harvaster wants to deny all of us in serious medical problems. Remember this guy was also a cocaine addict who talks about snorting drugs off toilet seats.
So when Ron Ron got home from mowing his sister’s lawn he found me limping and nearly in tears. He had me take my blood sugar and I was having an issue with low blood sugar which could explain why I was shivering. He had me take two glucose tablets and stop doing any more work. I had been doing dishes and folding clothing by using my very high rolling stool that I moved from kitchen to bedroom and back as needed.
Ron made supper and I want to let everyone know that even as I was in tears from pain I ate a lot of food for me. I had five slices of rare roast beef and three small baked potatoes with gravy and a small bowl of green beans. I took my evening insulin which I have not had to do a lot of as I was not eating. But Ron was concerned after I ate that I was still distressed. So I agreed to give up trying to make this post for the morning and just post what it is. I do have more to add to it but my pain is so bad that sitting in my desk chair is horrible for me. I will add them to the next day’s post.
I thank everyone who is worried about me and I love that everyone enjoys these cartoons / memes / news posts. But I did promise Ron I wouldn’t take more medication which will make me sick and eat into my meager supply and would go to bed. I will try to make a larger cartoons / memes / news post tomorrow. Best wishes, love, and hugs to all. Scottie
