As some may already know I have been struggling recently.  Hopefully soon things will get better.  But some of the problems are my eyesight, Ron being in NH, the van has a tire that is leaking air badly, other issues like the house renovations leaving the bathrooms torn up and two rooms unusable, also I am hurting, tired, and I noticed recently I was getting depressed over everything. 

Yesterday I had an appointment with my pain doctor.  I have to by Florida law see them every two months.  It used to be 3 months but the people in the state legislature felt poor people needed pain help should pay for more frequent visits and jump through ever stringent and needless requirements.  I filled the tire with air, went to the appointment, my back muscles were so spasmed that I needed 12 shoots into the muscles on both sides of my spine from my shoulders down to my butt cheeks.  The muscles were so hard the provider struggled to get the needle in and each shot hurt a lot. 

I left the office and had to fill the tire with air.  It had gone from 36 psi to 20.  Thankfully I took the small battery operated compressor with me.  But lifting it from the passenger side of the van then carrying it to the driver’s front tire, kneeling to fill the tire, then carrying it back was enough to cause me so much pain I was crying.  I drove went quickly to the store next to our home, got the stuff to make the sauce, and drove home.  I again had to fill the tire back to 36. 

I was so down I sat here in my Pink Palace office and broke down.  Then after a while I decided I needed to break these feelings so I dried my eyes and started to cook.  I made short videos of it as I went along.  I had no plan for the recordings and just stumbled my way through them.  I knew that I had to keep them short as before I tried to email them to WordPress and they were too large of a file.  But I figured out I can hook my phone to my computer and transfer the files to the computer and then to WordPress.  So the videos are not great, I made verbal mistakes and I repeated some of the same things I already said without realizing it.   I start out rather shaky, but as I went along I felt a lot better.  The sauce came out great.  I used the rest of the peppers and the celery, but did not add more onion.  Not a fan of strong onion flavor.  So I combined them into a short video to post here.   

My plan this morning is to go for a walk, fill the tire go to the vet and get the cat medications, come home and rest / blog.  Tomorrow I will take the van to a nearby tire shop and see what the issue is with the tire.  Thanks for reading and maybe watching the video.  As always comments are welcome.  I wish I could share the sauce.  I sure made enough.  Hugs