Seriously? Totally crazy shit, and yes most done by maga cultists.

Wow! This has taken a long time.ย  I had hoped to do it every day.ย  ย But I have been at this since 4 am and it is now 12 pm when I am finishing it.ย  I love sharing the horrible shit the right wing thinks, the things the cult wants to do.ย  If everyone likes these posts so they can choose what to read or ignore let me know.ย  If no one wants them then I am wasting 8 hours of my life.ย  ย Love and hugs to all.ย  PS.ย  On the other side even with my issues I am feeling a lot more energized.ย  It seems I go one 24 hour period with no sleep and then sleep nearly 12 hours … and repeat.ย  Love all of you, really feel good right now.ย 

But please let me know what you feel of these posts.ย  Do they keep you informed?ย  Do they help?ย  As to if I listen yes, I have decided to post the meme post twice a week because the majority of the few responces I got implied they were too many in each post.ย  So the one I have now worked on for several days will be posted tomorrow morning and since only one person said they cared about the day, I will now try to do them on Wednesday and Sunday.ย  However the voting is still open if I get a new majority of people who feel a different day is better for them.ย  ย Again as always, loves and hugs.ย  ย Scottie

BEHOLD THE PEACEFUL GRANDMOTHERS:

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TAX THE CHURCH…
Feed the poor.

TAX THE CHURCH…
House the homeless.

TAX THE CHURCH…
Heal the sick.

TAX THE CHURCH…
Drive the dealers from the gates like Jesus did.

White male bosses, black / brown low level employees without a chance of promotion. White women secretaries / assistants. In other words, 1950 to 1960.

The law assures that only law enforcement agencies will investigate reports of misconduct by law enforcement officers.

perversatile Uncle Mark – Now with caffeine12 hours ago

Pepperage Farm remembers…
https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2023/may/22/ron-desantis-police-relocation-violent-records

DeSantisโ€™s $13.5m police program lures officers with violent records to Florida
Governorโ€™s incentive scheme recruits officers with history of excessive violence or who have been arrested since signing up

Johnny Wyeknot14 hours ago

Civilian review boards have a chilling effect on police misconduct and coverups so of course they have to go.

PREVIOUSLY ON JMG:ย Kat Kerr declares that people whoย stole the electionย will โ€œhang on meat hooks in hell right next to Hitler.โ€ Kat Kerr says 150-foot angels willย kill her critics. Kat Kerr says aย talking scroll in heavenย will soon prove the โ€œlegalityโ€ that Trump is still president. Kat Kerr saysย she heard Godย โ€œlaughing loudlyโ€ at Bidenโ€™s fake electoral college count. Kat Kerr says Jesus took her to aย football game in heavenย where he always wins at every sport. Kat Kerr says Jesus personally gave her the commission toย draw a portrait of Godย and that she touched Godโ€™s hair while visiting heaven to create the drawing. Kat Kerr personallyย dispatchesย 1000 โ€œspecial ops angelsโ€ to ensure Trump is reelected. Kat Kerr assignsย 100 million angelsย to guard the Republican convention. Kat Kerr claims Godย destroyed the Bahamasย with a hurricane due to all the underground sex trafficking tunnels. Kat Kerr claims she sawย angels bombardingย Trump protesters to drive out their โ€œdemonic infections.โ€ Kat Kerr claims she waved at theย blond angelsย guarding the tomb of Jesus. Kat Kerr claims she metย Whitney Houstonย in heaven. Kat Kerr claims the GOPย secretly wonย the 2018 House midterms by pretending to be Democrats. Kat Kerr claims all the aborted babies in heavenย had a dance partyย after Kavanaugh was sworn in. Kat Kerr claims God has aย rainbow colored pet unicorn. Kat Kerr claims she met Jesus in person and he wasย totally hot. Kat Kerr clams that once you reach heaven, Jesus personally throws you aย dance partyย in his mansion and serves you the delicious desserts he baked himself. Kat Kerry claims God personally told her the results ofย the next fiveย presidential elections. Kat Kerr โ€œtakes authorityโ€ overย volcanoes,ย hurricanes, andย wildfiresย in the name of Jesus, failing to stop each event.

Bannonโ€™s border wall scam trial is set to start February 25.

The queer people who are buying guns to prepare for Trumpโ€™s America

https://www.inquirer.com/identity/guns-trump-lgbt-philadelphia-20250105.html

โ€œWeโ€™re not looking to arm up and storm the Capitol,โ€ one gun owner said. โ€œWe just donโ€™t want to be put in concentration camps.โ€

A., who the Inquirer is identifying by the first letter of her first name for safety reasons, stapled two paper plates to the range for her target practice.
A., who the Inquirer is identifying by the first letter of her first name for safety reasons, stapled two paper plates to the range for her target practice.Bradley C Bower / For The Inquirer
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On a brisk Saturday afternoon, A. crouched in a boxerโ€™s stance, knees bent, one hip forward, raised her new Ruger Security-380 pistol aloft with both hands, and pulled the trigger. Spent gold casings clinked to the ground as a paper plate across the range filled with bullet holes. Next to her, a row of men in sweatshirts and earmuffs affably shot their own marks.

A., who The Inquirer is identifying by the first letter of her first name because of safety concerns, is new to the world of shooting ranges and target practice. As a trans woman who lives in Philadelphia, she began seriously considering armed self-defense this summer, as she saw Texas uphold a ban on gender-affirming care for minors and Florida prohibit nurse practitioners from prescribing hormones to transgender people. She watched with increasing dread as Republicans spent nearly $215 million on network TV ads portraying people like her as a dangerous threat to the country.

โ€œThree months before the election, thatโ€™s when the alarm bells started to ring,โ€ A., who is 24 and speaks carefully and thoughtfully, said recently. When she mentioned wanting to learn how to fire a gun to friends, they stared at her blankly.

But she felt she couldnโ€™t have been more rational. On Nov. 2, she bought her first gun, at Deliaโ€™s Gun Shop in Northeast Philly.

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โ€œMinorities that are armed are more difficult to legally oppress,โ€ she said. She was reassured by the idea that โ€œin the event of hate crimes or terrorist attacks, knowing that, โ€˜OK, Iโ€™m personally armed and I can protect my property and people that are close to me.โ€™โ€ She is applying for a concealed carry permit in Pennsylvania, though she doesnโ€™t plan to carry the gun with her every day.

By the end of her practice at the outdoor range at French Creek State Park, bullet casings littered the ground near her backpack and water bottle, which was decorated with rainbow hearts and a โ€œProtect Trans Kidsโ€ sticker.

A. prepared to shoot at the French Creek State Park outdoor range.
A. prepared to shoot at the French Creek State Park outdoor range.Bradley C Bower / For The Inquirer

โ€˜If I canโ€™t protect myself, who will?โ€™

Since Donald Trumpโ€™s reelection in November, nontraditional gun groups across the city and country have seen a flood of interest. The national Liberal Gun Club said it has received thousands of training requests since the election, more than in all of 2023. A spokesperson for the group estimated that roughly a quarter were from LGBTQ people.

In Philadelphia, in the waning weeks of the year, residents peppered local queer Facebook groups with questions about guns and training. The local chapter of the Socialist Rifle Association, a leftist analogue to the National Rifle Association, said it saw a surge in paid memberships; its regular classes about gun safety filled up immediately, so they added more. The head of the Delaware Valley chapter of the Pink Pistols, a longtime gay gun group with the slogan โ€œArmed Gays Donโ€™t Get Bashed,โ€ said he received a sudden flurry of emails inquiring about gun training.

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โ€œThereโ€™s definitely a feeling among a lot of LGBT individuals: โ€˜If I canโ€™t protect myself, who will?โ€™โ€ said Madeline Shearman, a trans woman based in Glen Mills who runs a casual and growing โ€œ2A social groupโ€ in Pennsylvania. โ€œI feel that way myself.โ€

In Pennsylvania, overall gun sales were down in 2024, according to figures from the State Police: 666,759 firearms were lawfully purchased or privately transferred through the end of October, a drop from the 2020 record high of 1.1 million.

Itโ€™s difficult to track rises and falls in LGBTQ gun ownership because there are few published studies about the relatively small population, said David Yamane, a professor of sociology at Wake Forest University and author of the book Gun Curious.

ยป READ MORE: Gun sales and permits surged during the pandemic in Philly and Pennsylvania

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But in general, Yamane argues that American gun culture has dramatically shifted in recent years, away from a focus on hunting and recreation and toward a focus on self-defense, the core of what he calls โ€œGun Culture 2.0.โ€ As the culture has shifted, people who own guns have become far more diverse. He pointed to 2020 as a pivotal year.

โ€œIt was a period of tremendous social unrest and social uncertainty. And a large number of people in the United States, under those conditions, look to firearms to reestablish some sense of safety and security,โ€ Yamane said. He added that racial and gender minorities โ€œled the wayโ€ in terms of new gun ownership rates in 2020 and afterward.

A. purchased her gun on November 2, 2024.
A. purchased her gun on November 2, 2024.Bradley C Bower / For The Inquirer

ยป READ MORE: Gun ownership boomed during the pandemic. Meet some of the reluctant firearm owners.

Yamane also pointed to other political moments that have fueled gun interest in the LGBTQ community. Pink Pistols, which has more than two dozen chapters across the country, was originally founded in 2000 after the writer Jonathan Rauch proposed in a Salon article that โ€œhomosexuals should embark on organized efforts to become comfortable with guns, learn to use them safely and carry them. They should set up Pink Pistols task forces, sponsor shooting courses and help homosexuals get licensed to carry.โ€

Brandon Wolf, a survivor of the Pulse nightclub shooting and activist, looks at the photos that were part of a Pulse memorial in Orlando, Fla., in 2022.
Brandon Wolf, a survivor of the Pulse nightclub shooting and activist, looks at the photos that were part of a Pulse memorial in Orlando, Fla., in 2022.Cody Jackson / AP

The devastating mass shooting at the Pulse nightclub in Florida in 2016 was another catalyst. Thatโ€™s when Matthew Thompson, who lives in Oakland, N.J., purchased his first gun. A gay man and custom leather worker, Thompson often travels to leather and bear events on the weekends, and feared what might happen. He began practicing drills at home โ€” setting a timer on his phone, wearing his unloaded gun around the house, and drawing it quickly when the timer went off.

Days after the presidential election, he began pursuing his concealed carry permit in New Jersey. He is also organizing other LGBTQ people to practice at a local gun range.

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โ€œThe people Iโ€™ve been seeing on the left and the gay people who are out purchasing guns for the first time, itโ€™s all about self-defense and fear,โ€ said Thompson, who is 36. โ€œWeโ€™re not looking to arm up and storm the Capitol. We just donโ€™t want to be put in concentration camps.โ€

Gun safety with the Socialist Rifle Association

In mid-December, the Socialist Rifle Associationโ€™s local chapter held its monthly โ€œGun-damentalsโ€ class. A dozen people gathered in a ramshackle room at the Lava Community Center in West Philadelphia, where a range of unloaded firearms were displayed on the front table. Many of the attendees said they had little or no experience with guns.

The organization, founded nationally in 2018, tries to take a community-based approach to defense, organizers said. Once a month, its volunteers distribute food and medical supplies to people living on the street in Kensington, and the group also leads first aid and de-escalation training classes.

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The recent gun-safety class was earnest and efficient: two organizers led the group through an information-packed PowerPoint presentation, explaining the legal landscape in Pennsylvania, the process of purchasing a gun, and basic safety tips, using a laser pointer to emphasize certain points.

Despite peopleโ€™s hopes about increasing their safety, researchers have found that higher rates of gun ownership and access is correlated with higher rates of gun-related homicides, suicides, accidental deaths, and injuries. In an effort to reduce that danger, the SRA said it focuses on teaching responsible firearm ownership and safe storage.

The public handgun range at French Creek State Park.
The public handgun range at French Creek State Park.Bradley C Bower / For The Inquirer

An organizer wearing an Eagles cap and a black sweatshirt lingered on a slide about mental health.

โ€œSo guns are weapons, and theyโ€™re really good at what they do, which is killing things,โ€ he said, as some attendees nodded and took notes. โ€œ85% of suicides attempted with firearms lead to death. … So you have to be mindful, if this is something that you do want to bring into your life, that youโ€™re aware of your own mental health going into it.โ€

Doug, a therapist who asked to be identified solely by their first name to maintain professional privacy, joined the SRA after the election. They had been in the Boy Scouts growing up, had shot BB guns at camp, and gone to the shooting range occasionally with friends. But they had never owned a gun.

They attended the gun-safety class. Then in early December, they purchased their first gun, an AR-15. Doug was partly motivated by the fact that their official identifications are gender nonspecific, which could alert authorities to the fact that they are nonbinary. They feared they might not be able to buy a gun in the future.

โ€œThis country is not, I wouldnโ€™t say, on very solid footing,โ€ Doug said. โ€œAs a Boy Scout, Iโ€™d rather be prepared.โ€

Zoe Greenberg
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I write about gender, sexuality, and how people make money and meaning.

The women reliving January 6 while preparing for Trump’s return

Jan 06, 2025 Mariel Padilla Originally published by The 19th

Rep. Becca Balint of Vermont, who was elected to the 118th Congress in 2022, said she was shaped and largely motivated by January 6, 2021 โ€”  the day a mob of President Donald Trumpโ€™s supporters stormed the U.S. Capitol and temporarily halted the certification of the legitimate results of the 2020 election. 

“A lot of the members who ran in the 118th and 119th Congress understood that we were running towards a house on fire and that being honestly democracy itself,” Balint said.

Balint said she vividly remembers January 6, 2021, because it was supposed to be one of the happiest days of her life: She was being sworn in as the first woman to lead the Vermont Senate. When her security team popped into her office to tell her that the U.S. Capitol was under attack, Balint said the footage โ€œshook me to my core.โ€ 

The attack, which the Federal Bureau of Investigation called an act of domestic terrorism, sparked the Department of Justiceโ€™s largest criminal investigation in the countryโ€™s history and led to more than 1,500 people being federally charged. Rioters brought firearms, knives, hatchets, pepper spray, baseball bats, stun guns and explosive devices to fight Capitol Police officers and storm the building where lawmakers were actively voting to certify the 2020 election. Five people died during or soon after the riot, approximately 140 law enforcement officers were injured and $2.9 million worth of damage was done to the Capitol. 

The day after the Capitol riot, Trump referred to the event as a โ€œheinous attackโ€ but has since promised to pardon those who were arrested in connection with the insurrection. Trump himself was indicted on felony charges in 2023 for attempting to overturn the results of the 2020 election โ€”  a criminal case that was dismissed shortly after he won the 2024 presidential election. The president-elect has since started describing January 6 as a โ€œday of love,โ€ as he did on the campaign trail. 

As Congress votes again to certify the results of the 2024 presidential election, the country prepares to welcome back to the Oval Office the same man who denied his loss four years ago and threatened the countryโ€™s tradition of a peaceful transfer of power. 

โ€œIt always sends a shiver down my spine when I hear people say โ€˜Americans donโ€™t care about January 6 anymore โ€” move on,โ€™โ€ Balint said. โ€œIโ€™m not moving on. It was a dark day in our history, and Iโ€™m not moving on.โ€ 

The 19th reached out to every woman in Congress โ€” just as it did in 2021 and 2022 โ€” to collect reflections on how January 6 continues to impact them and the country. Seventeen Democratic congresswomen and one senator responded and talked about their remaining trauma, their concern about the normalization of violence and their strong sense of duty to combat any efforts to whitewash that day.


โ€˜Thereโ€™s a record of this.โ€™ 

Hereโ€™s what they said about how the spread of misinformation and disinformation surrounding that day has downplayed the severity of violence and the gravity of what was almost destroyed.

Rep. Suzanne Bonamici of Oregon: I still have seared in my memory the images of Capitol Police officers and other people being beaten. People lost their lives. โ€ฆ Itโ€™s not like somebody made this up. There are videos. There are pictures. There are statements. Thereโ€™s a record of this. And there were people that were convicted by juries of their peers.

Rep. Deborah Ross of North Carolina: I think the most important thing is to be brutally honest about what happened that day. Many of us were there to witness, and weโ€™re here to testify. We cannot allow Donald Trump and his cronies to deny what needs to be preserved for history. The next generation should know how fragile our democracy is and march forward, clear-eyed and ready to fight.

Balint: My grandfather was killed in the Holocaust and so I was raised in a family in which we were taught to be vigilant when people start eroding rights, upending norms, scapegoating people. When up is down and black is white and we canโ€™t agree on basic facts, that is all an indication that we are headed in a very scary direction as a country.

Rep. LaMonica McIver of New Jersey: I think [Trump] is going to do whatever he can to make January 6 be remembered like itโ€™s July 4. In his mind, I think itโ€™s going to be put in the highest regard and glorify the day as much as he can. And heโ€™s going to have four years to try and get the rest of the country to do the same.

Rep. Chellie Pingree of Maine: I think itโ€™s very troubling that this incoming president could convince people that he either wasnโ€™t responsible or that somehow all that didnโ€™t matter. But sometimes it takes us a while to process big, complicated changes like this. Maybe there will be a time when we can reflect back and say that this was a mistake, that we overlooked it, that it took us time to realize how serious that movement was.

Rep. Jill Tokuda of Hawaii: As we approach January 6 once again, we all have a responsibility to stand up against the normalization of political violence and disinformation. We cannot forget what happened that day and as Americans, it is incumbent on us to reject violence in any form from infecting our politics and our democracy.


โ€˜Deeply, deeply disappointed.โ€™ 

Many of the lawmakers said they are still processing what it means about the state of our country that the same man who incited an insurrection could be re-elected four years later. Several emphasized that those involved in planning, executing or inciting the riot still need to be held accountable before the country can heal and move forward.

Sen. Tammy Duckworth speaks on Capitol Hill on in February 2023, in Washington D.C.
Sen. Tammy Duckworth speaks on Capitol Hill on in February 2023, in Washington D.C. (Jabin Botsford/The Washington Post/Getty Images)

Sen. Tammy Duckworth of Illinois: As deeply, deeply disappointed as I am that that same twice-impeached president who led a coup against our government is headed back to the Oval Office, make no mistake: My Democratic colleagues and I, unlike many Republicans after the 2020 election, will uphold the will of the American people, fulfill our constitutional duty and do our part to ensure a peaceful transfer of power.

Rep. Rosa DeLauro of Connecticut: As Donald Trump returns to the presidency, I feel an even greater responsibility to ensure that we do not let an election outcome diminish the gravity of what happened that day. His re-election does not change the reality of the insurrection or absolve those who incited and participated in it. It does not erase the trauma experienced by Capitol staff and Capitol Police officers who defended our democracy at great personal risk. 

Rep. Gwen Moore of Wisconsin: Donald Trump, a convicted felon and aspiring autocrat, is promising to let loose dangerous rioters into our communities and threatening lawmakers and journalists with imprisonment. Trumpโ€™s lawlessness and thirst for political revenge is why I have repeatedly said he is unfit for office. 

Rep. Lois Frankel of Florida: People have short memories. People are more consumed with their own lives [when they go to the polls]. And Iโ€™m not saying thatโ€™s a bad thing; itโ€™s just an observation. What was probably on peopleโ€™s minds? Their bank account, their rent, price of food, right? 

Rep. Joyce Beatty of Ohio: We learned a lot of lessons through this last election. The American people know what they want to hear, whether itโ€™s true or not. 

Rep. Judy Chu of California: No matter what happens during Trumpโ€™s second term, the events of January 6, 2021, will forever be his legacy. He refused to concede or even acknowledge that there was a free and fair election in 2020, and he is still pressuring the Justice Department and intends to continue to pressure the Justice Department.

Rep. Ayanna Pressley of Massachusetts: Trumpโ€™s return to the highest office in the land, despite his central role in the insurrection, is a gut punch to anyone who cares about our democracy. But it does not absolve us of our responsibility to pursue accountability and continue telling the story of what happened that day.

Rep. Pramila Jayapal of Washington: I still put the onus on the Republicans in the Senate who refused to convict him. Thatโ€™s something I think about all the time being on the Judiciary Committee. I think our founding fathers assumed that perhaps there would be a dictator as president โ€” thatโ€™s envisioned in the Constitution. But they also assumed that an entire party would not just enter into a cult and follow that dictator. They assumed that there would be enough people on both sides of the aisle willing to do what it takes to preserve democracy, and that is clearly not the case. 


โ€˜I still tremble at the mere mention of the date.โ€™ 

For many of the women, there is lingering trauma. 

Jayapal: It will always be a day that is very, very tough emotionally. I started a gallery group after, a very close support group to process the trauma โ€” itโ€™s something that none of us will ever forget. 

Rep. Frederica Wilson of Florida: I still tremble at the mere mention of the date January 6, a day that is forever tainted with fear, violence and terror. To have lived it is to never ever forget it. America can never fathom what we experienced. It was like playing a role in a horror movie and hoping that it would soon come to an end. 

Rep. Teresa Leger Fernandez of New Mexico: It makes me sick to my stomach that the people who desecrated our democracy will be pardoned and potentially invited back into the Capitol. It makes me incredibly sad to think that there will be Capitol Police โ€” police who were brutalized and beaten by the mob โ€” who will just have to stand there.

Rep. Sara Jacobs of California: Iโ€™ve been very nervous thinking about and leading up to January 6. I still have lingering trauma from the first one. I don’t like big crowds and loud noises. And I just keep thinking that they have no incentive to be violent this time, right? But it still makes me very nervous because we havenโ€™t actually done the sort of reconciliation and hard work and accountability work that we need to do as a country. โ€ฆ I know that peopleโ€™s trust and faith in institutions is a key part of addressing political violence because political violence only happens when people donโ€™t feel like the nonviolent, institutional way of doing things is actually going to create the effect they want. 


Rep. Ann McLane Kuster talks to Capitol Police officer Sgt. Aquilino Gonell after he testified before the House Select Committee investigating the January 6 attack on the Capitol.
Rep. Ann McLane Kuster talks to Capitol Police officer Sgt. Aquilino Gonell after he testified before the House Select Committee investigating the January 6 attack on the Capitol on July 27, 2021, in Washington, D.C.
(Chip Somodevilla/Getty Images)

Rep. Ann McLane Kuster of New Hampshire said she is still dealing with lasting post-traumatic stress disorder from January 6, one the โ€œmost impactful eventsโ€ in her life. Kuster was also one of the last five lawmakers to be evacuated from the House floor. She could hear the thundering crowds and pounding on the doors and experienced a panic attack as officers snuck them into an elevator and rushed them through an underground tunnel to safety. Kuster later saw security footage of insurrectionists with backpacks, bear mace and zip ties entering the same hallway she had just evacuated 30 seconds earlier.

โ€œIโ€™m haunted by the idea that if the police hadnโ€™t pushed back five seconds here, five seconds there, pushing back on the bicycle racks, pushing back on the people who were crushed in the doors โ€” that the five of us would have been kidnapped, murdered or maimed,โ€ Kuster said. โ€œIt was only a five-vote majority and if we hadnโ€™t been there, America might not have woken up to Joe Biden as the lawfully elected president of the United States.โ€ 

Kuster decided to retire this year before Trump is sworn in as the 47th President of the United States and attributes January 6 as one of the reasons for that decision. In addition to the lingering trauma, Kuster said sheโ€™s received more and more death threats and has noticed a marked increase of violent rhetoric in public discourse. 

โ€œHe tried to kill me once,โ€ Kuster said. โ€œIโ€™m not available for it again.โ€

Only 2 days into 2025 & already multiple terrorist attacks in the U.S.

Trigger Warnings. My feelings about Christmas what happened to me as a child.

Hello everyone.ย  This is a hard post but one I feel I must make for my own continued healing and to explain why this season hits me so hard.ย  Before I get to the abuse let me tell everyone that yesterday taking things out of the car I was standing sideways with my knee pressed hard against the seat of the car as I reached across needing just an inch or two to grab the package … and as I strained to grab the parcel my knee snapped, I heard a grinding sound and fell to the ground.ย  I fell to the ground seeing stars.ย ย 

Ron rushed to me as soon as he saw me on the ground, we got me into my room and realized that my knee cap had been pushed into the cartilage beneath the cap.ย  What ever happened to my knee caused me agony and lost me the ability to stand or use my leg.ย  The pain made moving my leg in any way mind-blowing excoriating pain.ย  Remember I take two kinds of morphine and other pain relievers.ย  Ron got my walker from the bedroom but even using that was not able to help me move around.ย  I went to bed.ย  ย During the night I was OK if I did not move.ย  The longer I stayed still the more the knee healed and the few times I had to get up to pee, well I had the walker and now understood how to hold my leg.ย  The more it healed, the better it got.ย  So this morning I was able to get up, and using the walker make my way to the kitchen and make my coffee.ย  ย Then on to the Pink Palace to start my day.ย ย 

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Now to the reason for my post.ย  I seriously warn for abuse trigger warnings.ย  ย Please.ย  The reason for this post, I am going to post something I wrote to a fellow survivor about why I get so withdrawn during this time.ย  I appreciate his care and concern, plus I want you to know that it was Randy my grand real brother who talked to me this morning and made it possible for me to deal with posting this time in my life.ย  I won’t include what he replied when I showed him the stuff I wanted to post but I assure you he was a comfort unparalleled in giving me the strength to do this.ย  When I look to the past, what happened in late 2013 and in 2014 forward I wonder if I would be here if not for the unflagging love and care of my grand brother Randy.

Below is what I wrote to a fellow survivor who was worried about me.ย ย 

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Christmas always brings depression and a desire to hide or withdraw from life for me.ย  Short story … it provided more time for abusers to use me and more of them around.ย  During the weeks leading up to Christmas day as presents were placed under the tree which I knew better than go near the hell spawn would mess with their presents to figure out what they were, then when it was discovered I was of coursed blamed and punished for it in front of everyone.ย  ย 
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But the worst was Christmas day, and despite what I knew had happened in the past and would happen that day I would get excited thinking of the gifts.ย  After the nighttime / early morning rapes / giving oral to both males and females, I would be told where to sit.ย  One of the hell spawns would pass the gifts out, one at a time.ย  When it was my turn I would carefully unwrap the present even though I was being told to speed up, then give the required thanks to the person it was from, then place it on the floor next to me.ย ย 
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After all the gifts had been unwrapped while the adults gathered their gifts to stash in their room, the hell spawn gathered around me where I still sat.ย  They took what they wanted of what I was “given”, most of which would have been bought knowing they would be the ones to get it.ย  I was left with the clothing, socks, shirts, a pair of pants or two.ย  ย One Christmas I got a coloring book that they let me keep but they took the crayons.ย  ย I would take my gifts to my hallway mat until I was nearly 8 and got a bed of my own in the male hell spawns room as we moved and there was no longer a hallway for me to be made sleep in.ย  I knew better than to complain or make a fuss, it was just the way things were, my place there, my life.ย  To cry or complain would get me a public punishment and then a private worse punishment for ruining their Christmas.ย  The private one would be very humiliatingly to insure it stuck with me.ย  I learned not to complain, just shut down.ย ย 
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Anyway you asked if I have gotten any help.ย  No.ย  Two of my doctors want me to get a therapist, along with a neurologist, and several other specialists for different symptoms I have.ย  ย I do not have the income for all the doctors, tests, and scans these doctors claim I need.ย  Maybe this year.ย  ย I get through Christmastime by withdrawing and shutting down, kept sane only by my husband and my best friend, and the little internet communications I feel well enough to doing.ย  Mostly during this time I watch videos, movies, not really seeing the screen, not even remembering what I watched, just existing for one more minute, one more hour, one more day.ย  ย 
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Grand for me this year I got a true real Christmas gift.ย  One with no costs of my body for exchange as in my childhood if I wanted something.ย  When at my youngest even food came with me providing sexual favors.ย ย 

Yes this year I got a Christmas gift with no strings attached.ย  Yes Ron gives me those but this one was special.ย  My brother Randy gave me money to spend on me, not on the house, not on others, but just on me.ย  ย I have been working for years with a broken keyboard which the backlighting has given out, and my mouse now takes many clicks to make work.ย  Even Ron was frustrated by it during the times we sat together paying bills and wanted me to replace them.ย ย 

So remembering the spirit this gift was given, I used it to buy the following things.ย  It will make my life so much better.ย  ย I got them in white.ย  Thank you my grand brother.ย  ย Hugs

https://www.logitech.com/en-us/products/mice/mx-master-3s.910-006558.html

https://www.logitech.com/en-us/products/keyboards/mx-keys-s.920-011559.html

Peace & Justice History for 1/3

January 3, 1961
A nuclear reactor exploded at the National Reactor Testing Station in Idaho Falls, Idaho, killing three military technicians, and released radioactivity which, in the words of John A. McCone, Director of the Atomic Energy Commission, was “largely confined” to the reactor building. One technician was blown to the ceiling of the containment dome and impaled on a control rod. His body remained there until it was taken down six days later. The men were so heavily exposed to radiation that their hands and heads had to be buried separately with other radioactive waste.
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January 3, 1967

Carl Wilson
Carl Wilson of the the Beach Boys was indicted for draft evasion.
Claiming conscientious objector status, he eventually won his battle against the charges.

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January 3, 1971

On her first day as a member of Congress, Bella Abzug (D-New York) introduced a resolution calling for the withdrawal of troops from Southeast Asia.

Bella Abzug
Born in the Bronx in 1920, one month after the passage of the U.S. Constitutionโ€™s 19th amendment granting women the right to vote, she was the first Jewish woman elected to Congress. After attending Columbia University Law School, she practiced civil rights and labor law for twenty-three years. Throughout her career, she was known as one of the most vocal proponents of civil rights for women, as well as for gays and lesbians.
Background on the indomitable Bellaย 
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January 3, 1993
The United States of America and the Russian Federation agreed to cut the number of their nuclear warheads to between 3,000 and 3,500 (nearly half).U.S. President George H.W. Bush, just before leaving office, and his Russian counterpart, Boris Yeltsin, signed the second Strategic Arms Reduction Treaty โ€“ Start II โ€“ in Moscow. Start II marked the biggest reduction in nuclear arms ever agreed, eliminating land-based multiple warhead missiles, and putting limits on submarine-based missiles.

Read moreย 
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January 3, 2003

Brazilโ€™s new leftist president, Luiz Inacio Lula da Silva, suspended purchase of 12 new fighter planes, saying money could be better used to relieve hunger.ย 
More about Luiz Inacio ย 

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Peace & Justice History for 1/2

January 2, 1905
The Conference of Industrial Unionists in Chicago formed the Industrial Workers of the World (IWW), frequently known as The Wobblies. The IWW mission was to form โ€œOne Big Unionโ€ among industrial workers.


IWW homeย ย 
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January 2, 1920

U.S. Attorney General Alexander Palmer, in what were called the Palmer or Red raids, ordered the arrest and detention without trial of 6,000 Americans, including suspected anarchists, communists, unionists and others considered radicals, including many members of the IWW.

Attorney General Alexander Palmer
This followed a mass arrest of thousands two months earlier based on Palmerโ€™s belief that Communist agents from Russia were planning to overthrow the American government.
A suicide bomber had blown off the front door of the newly appointed Palmer the previous June, one in a series of coordinated attacks that day on judges, politicians, law enforcement officials, and others in eight cities nationwide. Palmer put a young lawyer, J. Edgar Hoover, in charge of investigating the bombings, collecting information on potentially violent anarchists, and coordinating the mass arrests.

More on the Palmer raids
FBI perspectiveย 
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January 2, 1975

A U.S. Court ruled that John Lennon and his lawyers be given access to Department of Immigration and Naturalization files regarding his deportation case, to determine if the government case was based on his 1968 British drug conviction, or his anti-establishment comments during the years of the Nixon administration.
On October 5, 1975, the U.S. Court of Appeals overturned the order to deport Lennon, and he was granted permanent residency status.


Watch the trailer for the documentary, โ€œThe U.S. v. John Lennonโ€ย 
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January 2, 1996

Khaleda Zia
An estimated 100,000 Bangladeshi women traveled from the countryside to attend a rally in Dacca, the capital, to protest Islamist clerics’ attacks on women’s education and employment.
Khaleda Zia, the countryโ€™s first female prime minister, had introduced compulsory free primary education, free education for girls up to class ten, a stipend for the girl students, and food for the education program.

About Khaleda Ziaย 

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Some Poetry on New Year’s Morning

It is about war. It is a beautiful piece of work about war. Click the title to get the background.

All I can see is nothing Sahar Muradi

If nothing that can be seen can either be God or represent Him to us as He is, then to find God we must pass beyond everything that can be seen and enter into darkness.
Since nothing that can be heard is God, to find Him we must enter into silence.
โ€”Thomas Merton, from โ€œNew Seeds of Contemplation,โ€ 1961

I swear to God, mom, I am exhausted, but praise be to God in all circumstances.
โ€”writing, translated from the Arabic, on the Al-Shifa Hospital walls, April 2024

All I can see is nothing
Fields of

Hollow
The O that escapes

A pasture of
Mouths

An apartment building
Of locked jaws

The silent weeping
Of rocks

I hear nothing
In the bags of soft limbs sighing

Milk teeth
Sharpening a fatherโ€™s heart

The cone hat on the small head
Singing to plumes

Iftar in the tents
Flapping pages off the moon

But Your name over and over
On the hospital walls

But Your name stilling
The fire that does not cease

But Your name everywhere
Everything all at once

I see nothing
From this distance

This deepest night
This longest darkness

Fumble at fajr
To loosen my gasps

I repeat Your name
Over and over

Then bow to Your wisdom
To the terror of Your liberation

O that I may not see anything
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Copyright ยฉ 2024 by Sahar Muradi. Originally published in Poem-a-Day on December 31, 2024, by the Academy of American Poets.

Some Joe My God headlines of republican right wing feces

The eight tech titans alone gained more than $600 billion this year, 43% of the $1.5 trillion increase among the 500 richest people tracked by the Bloomberg Billionaires Index.

Greenlandโ€™s natural resources are worth many trillions; future drillers and diggers wonโ€™t care that itโ€™s cold and distant. As Alaska proves, where thereโ€™s value, thereโ€™ll be value-extractors

plus, perhaps, a casino or two. Yes, the right kind of development could MGGAโ€”Make Greenland Great Again.

Peace & Justice History for 1/1

January 1, 1831

William Lloyd Garrison first publishedย The Liberatorย (four hundred copies printed in the middle of the night using borrowed type), which became the leading abolitionist paper in the United States. He labeled slave-holding a crime and called for immediate abolition.
From the first issue: โ€œI will be harsh as truth, and uncompromising as justice. On this subject, I do not wish to think, or speak, or write with moderation.
โ€œAssenting to the โ€˜self-evident truthโ€™ maintained in the American Declaration of Independence, โ€˜that all men are created equal, and endowed by their Creator with certain unalienable rightsโ€”among which are life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness,โ€™ I shall strenuously contend for the immediate enfranchisement of our slave population.โ€
Selections from The Liberatorย 
January 1, 1847
Michigan became the first state โ€“ the first government in the English-speaking world โ€“ to abolish capital punishment (for all crimes except treason). This was done by a vote of the legislature, and was not a part of the stateโ€™s constitution until 1964.
How it happened (it’s a .pdf)
January 1, 1959
32-year-old lawyer Fidel Castro led Cuban revolutionaries to victory over the corrupt government of Fulgencio Batista who had fled the island the day before. Batista, a former army sergeant, had seized power in a coup, canceling an election, in 1952.
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Fidel Castro
More on pre-Castro Cuba
The news at the time
Perspective of a U.S. intelligence agent
January 1, 1983
44 women scaled a 12-foot fence at dawn, breaking into a cruise missile base at Greenham Common in Great Britain, and danced on a missile silo.
The lyrics to their โ€œSilo Songโ€ย ย 
January 1, 1987
Ten anti-nuclear activists were arrested for trespassing at the Nevada Test Site, the culmination of a 54-day encampment at the main Test Site gate. The camp established momentum for what became a movement ultimately involving over 10,000 arrests in numerous Test Site protests over the following years in the campaign to achieve a freeze of all nuclear weapons testing.

Nevada test site landscape
The Nevada site includes more than 14,000 sq. km. (nearly 6000 sq. miles, larger than the state of Connecticut) of uninhabited land where atmospheric, and later underground, nuclear testing had been conducted since the 1950s.
About the the Nevada Test Siteย 
January 1, 1989

Kees Koning
Kees Koning, a former army chaplain and priest, and Co van Melle, a medical doctor working with homeless people and illegal refugees, entered the Woensdrecht airbase (for a second time), and began the โ€œconversionโ€ of NF-5B fighter airplanes by beating them with sledgehammers into ploughshares. The Dutch planned to sell the NF-5B to Turkey, for use against the Kurdish nationalists as part of a NATO aid program which involved shipping 60 fighter planes to Turkey. Koning and van Melle were charged with trespass, sabotage and $350,000 damage; they were convicted, and both sentenced to a few months in jail.
Read more about the plowshares movement
January 1, 1991
Early in the morning Moana Cole, a Catholic Worker from New Zealand, Ciaron Oโ€™Reilly, a Catholic Worker from Australia, and Susan Frankel and Bill Streit, members of the Dorothy Day Catholic Worker community in Washington, D.C., calling themselves the ANZUS (Australia, New Zealand and U.S.) Peace Force Plowshares, entered the Griffiss Air Force Base in Rome, New York.

Moana Cole
After cutting through several fences, Frankel and Streit entered a deadly force area, and hammered and poured blood on a KC-135 (a refueling plane for B-52s), and then hammered and poured blood on the engine of a nearby cruise missile-armed B-52 bomber. They presented their action statement to base security who encircled them moments later.ย 
About Moana Coleย 
January 1, 1994
The North American Free Trade Agreement (NAFTA) took effect. A treaty among Canada, the U.S. and Mexico, it called for all three countries to follow similar policies for environmental, safety and investment regulation, apart from laws passed by their respective legislatures.
January 1, 1994
On the day NAFTA (see above) took effect, more than 2,000 native Mayans in Mexicoโ€™s Chiapas state marched into the state capital, San Cristรณbal de las Casas, and five neighboring towns, and seized control. Calling themselves Zapatistas, or the Zapatista Army of National Liberation (EZLN), a “declaration of war” was issued.
Chiapas is among the poorest parts of Mexico. The indigenous peoples of Mexico long suffered as second-class citizens due to the dominance of the Roman Catholic church and the traditional Mestizo (mixed Spanish and Indian ancestry) political leadership of the country. The EZLN was certain that NAFTA would permanently lock in the top-down economic situation in Mexico. The Zapatistasโ€™ slogan was !Ya basta! (“Enough is enough”).
Employees at the Mexican stock exchange were evacuated by riot police. 25,000 Mexican soldiers arrived in Chiapas equipped with automatic weapons, tanks, helicopters and airplanes. 145 deaths were reported, mostly civilians. Massive arrests and subsequent torture of prisoners by the government took place.

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