I am not a believer in religions I prefer science but I am hopeful that a person or persons who are melded into Jesus did exist.  I do believe in the basic message he taught as I understand it.  Love everyone, do not throw stones because you are not blameless in your own life, be decent, honest, caring, kind, and treat everyone with respect.  That is not to say let all the bad people run all over you and those you love.  But it is saying how to deal with everyone in your daily life, especially if you are in a position that they are trying to do something for you.  Treat everyone nice and try to be understanding. 

Roger paid me the greatest compliment the other day.  He knows my history, he knows I joined the SDA church to save my life and left due to their bigotry toward people being gay.  I was lost and unable to deal with what came next but it was the only way for me to move forward with out reveling my truth leaving me open to hate from the very people I had depended on to save me.   I am paraphrasing what he said but he implied I walk a more Jesus accepted life with all my problems and that in his words God is with me.   I would love that to be true.  I have nothing against Jesus; I just abhor how his followers mangile his message and distort his directives.  I reject the ones that corrupt his message to do the very hurtful things he did not endorse.  But the Jesus that cares and is not judmental, that is worried about the inside rather than outside looks, the Jesus that doesn’t care who you have sex with or love as long as you treat them with love as he treated mankind with love.  The Jesus that accepts you as trans, gay, and different as he made you according to the bible.  That Jesus I would love as a friend. 

Sadly when I was a desperate older teen struggling to stay alive and unabused most of that Jesus I found but not just that one, their was the hateful ones as well.  The teachers and most of the other kids at the boarding church school were really grand.   I had a couple of teachers and staff that used our private times to use my body but hey I was already used to that and it felt to me like a small price to pay for not being daily raped or often beaten.  I had fellow students and friends that wanted to explore our sexuality and I really wanted to with them.  Hell the things they wanted to experience and know about I had lived since I was 3 yrs old.  But I was terrified if the wrong people in the administration found out I would be expelled and sent back to my abusers while still a minor.  I was scared into silence.  The Jesus I found in the book they kept telling me to read was not wimpy but he gave me strength when I was just months out of being daily abused.  

I am not saying that the bible is true nor am I saying I believe in the supernatureal.  In fact I used to deny the suppernatueral even though I often in the past used and felt comfortable with it.  I became a person that felt if science did not show it to be true how could we claim that?  Then I had an understanding.  For science to describe or detail something we have to advance science to the point that we can understand that thing. So that we can measure and understand that thing.  So many things we humans did not know or understand so they did not exist until the science got to the point that we could discover them. I expect there will be a lot more of that if the scientific cmmunity is allowed to keep existing.  Hugs