ICE and Vance both lied about what happened. The head of the school was there, the teachers were there, and the mother was there. Yet they took the child. Why? Is the bonus on a child worth putting a five yr old in jail, because that is what being detained by ICE is, jail. The father they took was here legally following the proper steps for citizenship. But the racist don’t want brown kids here they don’t want brown fathers or mothers here. ICE sent the boy and his father to Texas so the mother and others couldn’t help either of them. Hugs
For nearly two days I worried about Tupac, which I call Ron’s cat. I stayed up, I forced myself to do everything needed to make sure he was OK. I nearly fell out of bed twice because he was pushed so tight against me, and I was afraid if I pushed back he would be injured that I was right on the edge of the bed. I fed him in the bed, I let him pee and poop in the bed. I carried him around the house so he wouldn’t have to put his paw down on the floor.  Yes, I was trying to be a good daddy.  Meanwhile Ron was panicking and crying on the phone that we might have to put the boy down. Â
Here is my issue I want to share and ask all of the wonderful people who come here. It is not critical and if you don’t want to reply it is OK. Â
After all of this, All the lack of sleep, and all the effort, as I got home and started to relax, as I started watching other things on one monitor and as I started replying to comments on this monitor … memories started to invade.
I started struggling to deal with Tupac, the kitchen, even the blog. Memories after memories are flooding over me and through me. I was answering comments yet even as I write replies I have to delete some of what I wrote.  What is wrong with me! I should be so happy as my husband’s cat is not got a broken leg and I only need to baby him to get him well. Â
Yet the places my mind is going into my past, my childhood is horrific and blocking everything I am trying to do. I once as a preteen swam out into the middle of a pond to save what would become my only praised love, the black lab and I did not know when I carried her cold shaking form back to the camper my adoptive parents had that I was signing the death warrant of our other dog. Also I had to bargain my damn body for the dog to live. I agreed and went into the camper to be raped repeatedly. Shit why does my mind go to these places they hurt so much?
Why. Suzy Sunshine asked me that question before admitting she had no way or conception how to help me.  She tried to hide it but she was shocked and horrified by the few minor things I told her.Â
Sorry I got so damn distracted.  The question is why now knowing Tupac is OK and everything will work out as I sat here at my computer starting to deal with everything … did my mind flood me with horrific memories of my past and of things I can not change? That is what I am struggling with. Please help if you have an idea?
See the rest I have been dealing with all my life. I watched librarians when I was 7 or 8 years old put the books I was reading behind their desk for me tomorrow while only touching me on my head as if they patted me on the back I cried out in pain. But my mind knew this. So why flood my memories with it when I realized Tupac was OK. Why is my mind sending me these memories?
Maybe you all have abilities I don’t. I am sorry if this post upset anyone. I am going back to replying to the wonderful comments. I just wanted everyone to understand what I am dealing with. Hugs
I have posted on this several times. Remember right now the man gets no help from the government for what an ICE thug illegally did to this young man. He won’t be able to charge the mask men who did this act against him under the tRump fanatic administration. After all ICE lied about what happened and there is video to show it. I hope he has a good lawyer who is collecting the evidence and the minute that democrats are back in power they sue. Hugs
Watch the clip of pure violence against the observer who is 20 feet from the ICE thugs. The thug that assaults him has to run to get him. But the thug tactics are working, see how far the woman backs up while constantly saying she is not impeding. She is too far away to see the thugs beat the person they are detaining. ICE doesn’t want to be filmed breaking the laws. But the observer who was beaten up, he got it on his phone and may have had his phone destroyed as seems to be the new ICE tactic.  In another clip a little girl was simply abandoned in the street by ICE thugs who took her parent.  Hugs
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