I have had two bad nights. My butt is all scratched up because in my nightmares I am trying to remove the pain of the things forced into me.  My pain provider told me today that I really need to think about finding a new therapist because she could see the knife edge I am on. She asked about how hard it was to talk to Ron and did it help? I had to explain how it hurt Ron to hear of my abuse and I hated to see that hurt settle in on him. I explained it comes in cycles and I am starting into a bad part of the cycle.    Hugs

I am so tired of the memories and trying to function normally with these memories ravaging my mind and emotions. I need to run away, I want to run far from the memories, but there is no way to.   Sad hugs.   Scottie

“It feels bleak now, but one day this will make a great true-crime documentary.”

“The days and the time between Trump’s Iran policy flip-flops are getting shorter.”