Sadly after. If you will let me post my own feelings. And ask a question

For nearly two days I worried about Tupac, which I call Ron’s cat.  I stayed up, I forced myself to do everything needed to make sure he was OK.  I nearly fell out of bed twice because he was pushed so tight against me, and I was afraid if I pushed back he would be injured that I was right on the edge of the bed.  I fed him in the bed, I let him pee and poop in the bed.  I carried him around the house so he wouldn’t have to put his paw down on the floor.   Yes, I was trying to be a good daddy.   Meanwhile Ron was panicking and crying on the phone that we might have to put the boy down.   

Here is my issue I want to share and ask all of the wonderful people who come here.  It is not critical and if you don’t want to reply it is OK.  

After all of this, All the lack of sleep, and all the effort, as I got home and started to relax, as I started watching other things on one monitor and as I started replying to comments on this monitor … memories started to invade.

I started struggling to deal with Tupac, the kitchen, even the blog.  Memories after memories are flooding over me and through me.  I was answering comments yet even as I write replies I have to delete some of what I wrote.   What is wrong with me!  I should be so happy as my husband’s cat is not got a broken leg and I only need to baby him to get him well.  

Yet the places my mind is going into my past, my childhood is horrific and blocking everything I am trying to do.  I once as a preteen swam out into the middle of a pond to save what would become my only praised love, the black lab and I did not know when I carried her cold shaking form back to the camper my adoptive parents had that I was signing the death warrant of our other dog.  Also I had to bargain my damn body for the dog to live.  I agreed and went into the camper to be raped repeatedly.  Shit why does my mind go to these places they hurt so much?

Why.  Suzy Sunshine asked me that question before admitting she had no way or conception how to help me.   She tried to hide it but she was shocked and horrified by the few minor things I told her. 

Sorry I got so damn distracted.    The question is why now knowing Tupac is OK and everything will work out as I sat here at my computer starting to deal with everything … did my mind flood me with horrific memories of my past and of things I can not change?  That is what I am struggling with.  Please help if you have an idea?

See the rest I have been dealing with all my life.  I watched librarians when I was 7 or 8 years old put the books I was reading behind their desk for me tomorrow while only touching me on my head as if they patted me on the back I cried out in pain.  But my mind knew this.  So why flood my memories with it when I realized Tupac was OK.  Why is my mind sending me these memories?

Maybe you all have abilities I don’t.  I am sorry if this post upset anyone.  I am going back to replying to the wonderful comments.  I just wanted everyone to understand  what I am dealing with.  Hugs

 

ICE Blinds Man After Shooting Him Point Blank In The Face

I have posted on this several times.  Remember right now the man gets no help from the government for what an ICE thug illegally did to this young man.  He won’t be able to charge the mask men who did this act against him under the tRump fanatic administration.  After all ICE lied about what happened and there is video to show it.  I hope he has a good lawyer who is collecting the evidence and the minute that democrats are back in power they sue.  Hugs

Stopping ICE’s Terror Campaign Starts Here…

Watch the clip of pure violence against the observer who is 20 feet from the ICE thugs.  The thug that assaults him has to run to get him.  But the thug tactics are working, see how far the woman backs up while constantly saying she is not impeding.  She is too far away to see the thugs beat the person they are detaining.  ICE doesn’t want to be filmed breaking the laws.  But the observer who was beaten up, he got it on his phone and may have had his phone destroyed as seems to be the new ICE tactic.   In another clip a little girl was simply abandoned in the street by ICE thugs who took her parent.   Hugs

I’m not normally big on memes,

even though I get some good giggles from them, but so many mostly use them for opinion over fact. However I knew this one needs to be here.

(WP won’t load or paste; it’s a little blue box about the state of existence of the US Congress. It’s shorter than this sentence, and you simply must see it!)

Well, never mind; WordPress doesn’t like it, I guess. I’m reading a substack called The F—–g News, and it’s there. Here’s where to go to read today’s effing news, and see the meme that WordPress doesn’t like. There is lots of news there, as well, both regular (bad,) and good news.

Fascism Now More Expensive Than Eggs

Congressional Democrats have said their focus is on the cost of living, but now the cost of living under fascism is soaring

Jonathan Larsen Jan 20, 2026

https://thefuckingnews.substack.com/p/fascism-now-more-expensive-than-eggs

IHIP News: ICE Commander Cosplays in NAZI UNIFORM and Dems Vote with MAGA to FUND ICE?!

US citizen says ICE removed him from his home in his underwear without a warrant

ICE snatched this old man from his home in his underwear taking him outside in the snow without once asking if he was a citizen and also without a warrant.  No warrant and not even knowing who he was, just that he looked different.  It took his son bring the ICE thugs his ID proving citizenship that they just left.  They did not help him inside or apologize, just left.  This is our tax dollars at work in the land of the free.  Hugs 

Federal immigration agents have detained a U.S. citizen in Minnesota at gunpoint without a warrant. That’s according to ChongLy “Scott” Thao, who says agents forced open his door, entered with guns drawn and led him outside in his underwear in freezing conditions.

Fox Host Hannity Goes Full Scumbag With Trump’s ICE Gestapo Henchman

 

IHIP News: JD Vance DOUBLES DOWN on White Supremacy and Trump’s GESTAPO Loses ALL CONTROL!

MS Now ICE clips and the dangers / possible political actions that democrats can take to defang ICE

These are in no particular order, just as they were on the MS Now YouTube channel page.  Hugs

The video below goes into detail about the Christian Nazism, bigotry, and hate of the current people in tRump’s administration.   Hugs

 

 

 

 

 

‘An occupying force’: Minneapolis caught up in Trump’s anti-immigration surge

 

https://www.france24.com/en/americas/20260116-an-occupying-force-minneapolis-caught-up-in-trump-anti-immigration-surge

Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) agents, including one wearing a 'NOT ICE' face covering, walk near their vehicles, on January 15, 2026, in Richfield, Minnesota
Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) agents, including one wearing a “NOT ICE” face covering, walk near their vehicles on January 15, 2026, in Richfield, Minnesota. © Adam Gray, AP

When an ICE officer shot Renee Nicole Good three times in the head in Minneapolis on January 7, killing her in front of her wife, US President Donald Trump and federal authorities quickly defended the officer’s actions, with Trump portraying the victim as a “professional agitator” in a post on X.

The event was not an isolated episode. The Washington Post on Friday reported the January 3 death of Geraldo Lunas Campos, 55, while in ICE custody, citing a medical examiner who believes his death to be a homicide. A fellow detainee said he witnessed Luna Campos being choked by guards.

Such incidents have come to characterise what is now the most aggressive immigration enforcement surge the city – and perhaps the country – has seen in decades.

The day before Good was killed, Washington announced the deployment of roughly 2,000 federal agents to the Minneapolis–St. Paul area. In the days following her death, an additional 1,000 officers from Customs and Border Protection (CBP) were deployed to the city, with the Department of Homeland Security (DHS) hailing its “largest immigration operation ever.”

Caught in the chaos of a raid, Minneapolis City Council president Elliott Payne said the presence of heavily armed agents in combat gear felt “like an occupying force”.

Rather than de-escalate, Trump has threatened to go further. On Thursday, he raised the possibility of invoking the Insurrection Act to deploy troops in response to civil unrest.

“If the corrupt politicians of Minnesota don’t obey the law and stop the professional agitators and insurrectionists from attacking the Patriots of I.C.E., who are only trying to do their job, I will institute the INSURRECTION ACT,” Trump wrote on social media, promising to “quickly put an end to the travesty”.

A minor pretext for a massive show of force

The starting point of the escalation was relatively innocuous. The Trump administration initially alleged financial irregularities involving Somali-run daycare centres in Minnesota as justification for the first raids. Minnesota is home to the largest Somali community in the United States, estimated at around 84,000, most of whom are US citizens.