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About Reporting & Journalism

This is a full analysis of much of the reportage we receive all the time. Dr. Hogan has plenty of time to research, compare, let drafts marinate, and especially, to verify. It’s quite a long read, and while I so wish to put it all here, it’s too long for a blog post. It is highly informational, and it can really help a person trying to suss out news without being emotional or overwhelmed. So, here is part of Dr. Hogan’s Substack column. There is one outlet named, but they are not the only outlet included; he names Meidas Touch Network. They are not the only ones, nor are they by any stretch of imagination the worst, and I was gratified to find I am not the only one who’s noticed changes with MTN’s presentations! Anyway, here’s a snippet with the link & title just below. Read or not, up to you; thanks for your attention to this vital issue! 🙂

THE PARTISAN SENSORIUM:  The Platformization of Truth: Example: MeidasTouchNetwork

Richard Hogan, MD, PhD(2), DBA Dec 29, 2025

My publication employs a bit of critical-theory.

Throughout this publication, I speak only of the American acronym MTN, known publicly as MeidasTouchNetwork. I do so deliberately: the letters MTN already belong to a continental giant — Africa’s and Middle Eastern’s great signal‑bearer — a network‑mountain whose reach spans nations and whose currents carry nearly 300 million voices across the horizon.

To avoid confusing these two mountains, I name only the American one.

This work maintains that platforms such as Substack, YouTube, X, and TikTok  are not built to honour verification:

They are engines calibrated for velocity, for heat, for the clean lines of ideological contrast. Within such machinery, truth becomes a faint watermark — present, but always subordinate to the algorithm’s appetite for motion.

In this environment, journalism becomes indistinguishable from:

  1. political branding
  2. influencer performance
  3. affective storytelling
  4. partisan mobilization

I MTN as the exemplar because its signal is a typographic monolith — a glyph large enough to be seen across continents. I intend no diminishment of it. What I observe is that MTN emerges inside an epistemic script already dissolving at the edges. It is not a transgressor of journalistic form; it is written into a page where the old rules have faded from the margins.

CHAPTER I:  

THE PARTISAN SENSORIUM: MEDIA, AFFECT, AND THE NEW POLITICAL SUBJECT

The Return of the Affective State

Every era produces its own political subject. The Enlightenment imagined a rational citizen; the industrial age imagined a disciplined worker; the broadcast era imagined a passive viewer. The digital age, however, has produced something different: a subject constituted through affective immediacy, algorithmic visibility, and continuous political stimulation.

This chapter introduces the concept of the partisan sensorium — the affective infrastructure through which contemporary political subjects perceive, interpret, and emotionally inhabit the world. It is within this sensorium that organizations like MeidasTouch emerge, thrive, and fail.

The partisan sensorium is not simply a media environment; it is a mode of being.

(snip-there is more on the page. He’s very kindly outlined his work, so it’s very organized. Do take a few minutes and look it over!)

Cruel Kristi Noem says it’s not her problem if a gay hairdresser she sent to a prison camp is dead

https://www.lgbtqnation.com/2025/05/cruel-kristi-noem-says-its-not-her-problem-if-a-gay-hairdresser-she-sent-to-a-camp-is/?utm_source=lgbtqnation&utm_medium=directlink&utm_campaign=directlink&utm_content=Cruel+Kristi+Noem+says+it%E2%80%99s+not+her+problem+if+a+gay+hairdresser+she+sent+to+a+prison+camp+is+dead

She sent people to languish in the prison known for torturing inmates. Now she says how they’re treated isn’t her “jurisdiction.”

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Alex Bollinger (He/Him)May 15, 2025, 9:14 am EDT
Homeland Security Secretary Kristi NoemHomeland Security Secretary Kristi Noem | Steven Spearie/The State Journal-Register / USA TODAY NETWORK

Rep. Robert Garcia (D-CA) confronted Homeland Security Secretary Kristi Noem about the administration sending a gay man to a prison camp in El Salvador and not even knowing if he’s still alive. Noem said that it wasn’t her problem.

Noem, who has bragged in the past about shooting her dog to death, appeared before the House Homeland Security Committee for a hearing yesterday, where Garcia asked her about Andry Hernandez Romero, a gay hair dresser from Venezuela who came to the U.S. legally to escape anti-LGBTQ+ violence and who was sent to the CECOT camp in El Salvador, which is known for torturing inmates, earlier this year.

The administration, which sent immigrants to the CECOT without letting courts determine if they were in the country illegally or if they had committed any crimes, has refused to try to bring anyone back from the camp.

“Would you commit to just letting his mother know – as a mother-to-mother – if Andry is alive?” Garcia asked Noem. “He was given an asylum appointment by the United States government. We gave him an appointment, we said, Andry, come to the border at this time and claim asylum, he was taken to a foreign prison in El Salvador.”

“His mother just wants to know if he’s alive. Can we check and do a wellness check on him?”

Noem said she doesn’t “know the specifics” of Hernandez Romero’s case but said that since he’s in El Salvador, Garcia should be asking El Salvador’s government about him.

“This isn’t under my jurisdiction,” Noem said.

Garcia reminded her that she said that the Salvadoran prison is a “tool in our toolkit” for fighting crime.

“You and the president have the ability to check that Andry is alive and not being harmed,” he said. “Would you commit into at least looking and asking El Salvador if he is alive?”

“This is a question that is best asked to the president and the government of El Salvador,” Noem responded drily.

Hernandez Romero is a Venezuelan immigrant who trekked to the U.S. and entered legally last year at San Diego. There, he asked for asylum, saying that he was being targeted in Venezuela for being gay and due to his political beliefs. He was held in a CoreCivic detention center, where he was screened by Charles Cross Jr.

“The government had found that his threats against him were credible and that he had a real probability of winning an asylum claim,” his lawyer, Lindsay Toczylowski, said.

In March, he, along with over 200 other immigrants, was taken in shackles to the CECOT camp in El Salvador. Even his lawyer said she didn’t know what happened to him until he was gone and missed a hearing in his immigration case.

In a video from the CECOT, Hernandez Romero could be heard saying, “I’m not a gang member. I’m gay. I’m a stylist,” as he was slapped and had his head shaved.

“We have grave concerns about whether he can survive,” Toczylowski told CBS News.

It was later revealed that the evidence Immigration and Customs Enforcement (ICE) had against Hernandez Romero was his tattoos, which came from a report from the contractor CoreCivic, specifically from former police officer Charles Cross Jr., who lost his job with the Milwaukee police after he drunkenly crashed into a house and allegedly committed fraud. His name was subsequently added to the Brady List, a list of police officers who are considered non-credible for providing legal testimony in Milwaukee County.

Cross claimed that Hernandez Romero had crown tattoos associated with a gang. The tattoos are labeled “Mom” and “Dad” and are common symbols associated with his hometown of Capacho, Venezuela. Capacho is known for its elaborate festival for Three Kings Day, and a childhood friend, Reina Cardenas, told NBC News that it was that festival that awakened Hernandez Romero’s desire to be an artist.

“Andry dedicated his life to arts and culture, and he worked hard to better his craft,” Cardenas said.

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A veteran online reporter, Alex Bollinger has been covering LGBTQ+ news since the Bush administration. He’s now the editor-in-chief of LGBTQ Nation. He has a Masters in Economic Theory and Econometrics from the Paris School of Economics. He lives in Montpellier.

GOP official rages at “demonic” Christmas drag show because kids might be near the building it’s in

This AG was not elected to any office, he was handpicked and given his job by DeathSantis.  Both are Christian nationalist who feel it is great to force their religion on others even as they do not live by their own church doctrines in any way.   They seem to feel forcing the public to live by their church doctrines or what ever view they think their god endorses is perfectly fine regardless if others disagree.  They are the first to scream the loudest if their rituals or they think their rights to oppress others is interfered with, but they also seem unable to give others the same rights they demand for themselves.   Hugs

 

https://www.lgbtqnation.com/2025/11/gop-official-rages-at-demonic-christmas-drag-show-because-kids-might-be-near-the-building-its-in/?utm_source=lgbtqnation&utm_medium=directlink&utm_campaign=directlink&utm_content=GOP+official+rages+at+%E2%80%9Cdemonic%E2%80%9D+Christmas+drag+show+because+kids+might+be+near+the+building+it%E2%80%99s+in

Florida Attorney General James Uthmeier says the show must be cancelled because it “mocks… the Christian faith.”

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Molly Sprayregen (She/Her)November 10, 2025, 11:00 am EST
Florida Attorney General James Uthmeier speaks about the arrest of 28 members of the Mongols motorcycle gang during a press conference at the Stephen Saboda Training Center near Daytona Beach, Wednesday, July 2, 2025.Florida Attorney General James Uthmeier speaks about the arrest of 28 members of the Mongols motorcycle gang during a press conference at the Stephen Saboda Training Center near Daytona Beach, Wednesday, July 2, 2025. | © Nigel Cook/News-Journal / USA TODAY NETWORK via Imagn Images

Florida Attorney General James Uthmeier (R) is urging the Pensacola City Council to shut down a Christmas-themed drag show, which he has deemed “demonic” and “harmful” to children, despite how it is exclusively for adults over the age of 18.

The city’s Saenger Theatre plans to host “A Drag Queen Christmas” on December 23. The website says fans should “expect a fabulous remix of classic Christmas hits, dazzling themed variety performances, and interactive moments to share your Christmas cheer.”

A letter from Uthmeier claimed the show “openly mocks one of the most sacred holidays in the Christian faith” and expressed horror that some of the queens evoke “satanic imagery” in their outfits or characters. He also decried the fact that it will be playing at the same time as the city’s family-centered Winterfest.

“So, while Penscola children are taking pictures with Santa, men dressed as garish women in demonic costumes will be engaged in obscene behavior mere feet away,” he ranted, even though the drag show will take place inside a theater where the children at the festival won’t be able to see it.

The Pensacola city attorney has reportedly refused to cancel the show, saying it would violate the drag show production company’s First Amendment rights and the city’s contract with the theater’s management company.

Uthmeier, however, said the city – which owns the theater – has a legal right to supersede the management company’s decision to put on the show if it deems a performance detrimental to public health or safety. He said the drag show meets this criterion because it will be taking place near children at Winterfest, even though they won’t be able to see it.

“While the First Amendment safeguards freedom of expression, it does not require a city to platform and endorse disgusting, obscene content that denigrates its residents’ religious beliefs,” Uthmeier concluded.

He claimed it may even amount to religious discrimination and could cause legal issues for the city, especially if one of the “deranged performers” were “to expose themselves to the kids” nearby. The preposterous idea that LGBTQ+ people are inherently a danger to children has long been used by the right to fearmonger and stir anti-LGBTQ+ sentiment.

The letter comes after a group of churches in the city launched a campaign to pressure the Pensacola City Council to cancel the drag show. The controversy has caused an uproar in the community, the Pensacola News Journal reported, where pro- and anti-LGBTQ+ residents continue to clash over whether the drag show should be permitted to go on.

At a packed and contentious city council meeting in early October, resident Jermaine Williams called out the hypocrisy of those claiming to oppose the show on religious grounds.

“I mean, we see how y’all vote,” Williams said. “Half of these people that spoke today wouldn’t know Jesus if they stared him in the face.”

Another resident, Stephen McCollum, gushed that drag queens are “more than entertainers.”

“They’re small business owners. They’re advocates and they’re educators who use creativity to uplift others and welcome all. They welcome all, demonstrating that this art form is more than just a performance. It’s a form of connection, and it’s a form of community, and it’s a form of hope.”

Uthmeier has long used his position to vilify and terrorize LGBTQ+ people. Earlier this year, he launched a crusade against a Life Time Fitness in Palm Beach Gardens after discovering that the private business had a trans inclusive policy. State law requires people use facilities aligned with their sex assigned at birth, but that does not apply to private businesses.

Uthmeier, however, claimed otherwise in a letter sent to the gym. He falsely claimed that trans inclusion leads to “assaults, exploitation, and fear” and that he was merely doing this to protect women and girls.

Even after Life Time said it would comply with his demands, Uthmeier posted a video in which he visited the gym in person to make sure they are “not allowing trans women into women’s bathrooms, not in Florida,” and “actually following the law.”

“It appears they are,” he reported to followers, though it’s unclear how he could have confirmed this without major privacy violations of the individuals entering and exiting the locker rooms there.

This past October, Uthmeier also filed a friend-of-the-court brief in support of a parental rights activist who dubiously claims her child’s middle school helped her child secretly transition. She has now petitioned the Supreme Court to take her case.

Uthmeier’s brief claims government officials across the United States “are fundamentally altering the upbringing of children and keeping parents in the dark” with “secret transition” policies.

These policies do not involve schools encouraging students to be trans or transition, but rather to support any students who willingly communicate that their gender identity differs from their sex assigned at birth and to allow the student to choose when to share that private information with their parents. For some students with anti-trans parents, telling them could be dangerous.

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Molly Sprayregen is the Deputy Editor of LGBTQ Nation and has been reporting on queer stories for almost a decade. She has written for Them, Out, Forbes, Into, Huffington Post, and others. She has a BA in English and Creative Writing from the University of Pennsylvania and an MFA from Northwestern University.

Project 2025 Was Just the Start. Heritage Foundation Has an Anti-LGBTQ+ Scheme for 2026, Too

https://www.them.us/story/heritage-foundation-project-2025-2026-plan-trump-administration

The plan appears to oppose trans people and same-sex marriage.
By Abby Monteil

The Heritage Foundation president Dr. Kevin Roberts conducts a discussionTom Williams/Getty Images
After spending this year working to implement as much of its gargantuan right-wing policy agenda, Project 2025, as possible, the Heritage Foundation has unveiled its anti-LGBTQ+ goals for 2026.
Over the past month, the far-right think tank has been preparing for next year, releasing an ad campaign and doing multiple interviews about its plans. The activity has brought renewed attention on Heritage Foundation’s 2025-2026 policy priorities, which were titled “Restoring America’s Promise” when they were released in March. At the time, the group named nine key priorities, including “root[ing] out the deep state” and “counter[ing] the CCP [Chinese Communist Party].”

The bulk of its anti-LGBTQ+ goals lie in the priority titled “Put Family First,” in which the Heritage Foundation declares that “every child conceived deserves to be born to a married mother and father who will love, guide, and protect them throughout their lives.”

The organization goes on to claim that “family breakdown and rampant abortion tears at the soul of our country and saps it of strength and moral authority,” while “radical ideologies that deny social and biological truths about sexual embodiment, marriage, and unborn life poison our courts, our culture, and our laws.”

“The Heritage enterprise will advance policies at the state and federal level to restore the nuclear family to the center of American life and to reduce both the demand and supply for abortion at all stages of human development,” it concludes. This language appears to oppose same-sex marriage given its emphasis on children being born to a married father and mother. It also appears to oppose transgender identity given its condemnation of ideologies that “deny social and biological truths about sexual embodiment” — this falls inline with a longstanding Heritage Foundation fight against trans people.

Elsewhere, the Heritage Foundation indicates its anti-trans views in a priority titled “Expand Education Freedom,” in which the group declares that the education system is “failing our children” through “the scourge of woke ideas like critical theory and radical gender ideology.” The terminology “radical gender ideology” is often used by conservatives to refer to trans and nonbinary identities.

The Heritage Foundation has been around since 1973, when it was founded by conservatives who found President Richard Nixon too liberal and feared both fiscal liberalism and federal government expansion. It has been consistent in its campaigns against LGBTQ+ rights, from consulting with then-governor Mitt Romney to figure out ways around preventing the legalization of gay marriage from being implemented in Massachusetts to lobbying against Title IX protections for trans students implemented during the Obama administration.

More recently, the organization has made headlines for its 920-page policy blueprint Project 2025, which presents a far-right Christian vision for the second Trump administration that includes several anti-trans measures, as well as the dismantling of the Department of Education and undoing other federal checks and balances. Although the Heritage Foundation has been releasing regular “Mandate for Leadership” blueprints ahead of incoming presidential administrations since the 1980s, Project 2025 has received considerable attention given that the group staffed and advised the first Trump administration (in July 2024, a CNN review found that at least 140 people working for Trump were involved with the Heritage Foundation). One of Project 2025’s architects, Russell Vought, currently runs the Office of Management and Budget.

Following late-night host Jimmy Kimmel’s temporary removal in September, Federal Communications Commission Chairman Brendan Carr seemingly confirmed speculation that the Trump administration’s actions are a part of Project 2025. At the time, Glee star Kevin McHale shared an X post stating that “This was all in Project 2025,” after reposting another X post that framed right-wing attacks on media — which also include the Trump administration’s lawsuit against 60 Minutes, The New York Times, and Wall Street Journal — as First Amendment assaults. In response, Carr — who wrote Project 2025’s chapter on the FCC — shared a GIF of Jack Nicholson nodding in apparent confirmation.

As a recent The 19th report pointed out, the second Trump administration has fulfilled a number of Project 2025’s anti-LGBTQ+ directives, including purging the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention’s (CDC) data on gender identity and cutting federal funds for gender-affirming care.

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Abby Monteil is a New York-based writer. Her work has also appeared in The Daily Beast, Insider, Elite Daily, Thrillist, and others. … Read More

Jack Smith calls for House committee to release full videotape of his deposition

Jack Smith calls for House committee to release full videotape of his deposition

by Ashleigh Fields – 12/24/25 11:35 AM ET

Former special counsel Jack Smith wants the recording of his full deposition to a House panel released.

His attorneys sent a letter Dec. 18 to House Judiciary Committee Chair Jim Jordan (R-Ohio) requesting that his closed-door deposition be made public.

“Mr. Smith respectfully requests the prompt public release of the full videotape of his deposition. Doing so will ensure that the American people can hear the facts directly from Mr. Smith, rather than through second-hand accounts,” wrote Lanny A. Breuer and Peter Koski, Smith’s lawyers.

“We also reiterate our request for an open and public hearing. During the investigation of President Trump, Mr. Smith steadfastly followed Justice Department policies, observed all legal requirements, and took actions based on the facts and the law. He stands by his decisions,” they added.

In the deposition, Smith defended his decision to bring charges against then-former President Trump for attempting to overturn the 2020 election.

“Our investigation developed proof beyond a reasonable doubt that President Trump engaged in a criminal scheme to overturn the results of the 2020 presidential election and to prevent the lawful transfer of power,” Smith said in prepared opening remarks, portions of which were obtained by The Hill. 

“Our investigation also developed powerful evidence that showed President Trump willfully retained highly classified documents after he left office in January 2021, storing them at his social club, including in a bathroom and a ballroom where events and gatherings took place.

“He then repeatedly tried to obstruct justice to conceal his continued retention of those documents,” he added.

Smith said he’d do it all again if presented with the same facts during his testimony, which lasted more than nine hours.

Rep. Dan Goldman (D-N.Y.) advocated for the release in a post Wednesday on social platform X.

“I was there. There is no reason not to release the video and transcript,” he said in reply to a CBS News reporter’s post about the letter. “If @Jim_Jordan refused Jack Smith’s request for a public hearing — like every other Special Counsel — because he allegedly wanted to avoid the 5-minute rule, he got that.”

Rep. Kevin Kiley (R-Calif.) told The Hill on the day of Smith’s testimony that he wouldn’t oppose public testimony.

“I do think that we’re dealing with unprecedented events here, so it’s entirely appropriate. And I think people on both sides, maybe for different reasons, think that what happened here bears scrutiny,” Kiley said.

Jordan said last week he had not ruled out public testimony.

Kristi Noem’s Lies Unravel During Dem’s Grilling

 

Some news to think on.

tRump’s ego / tRump’s grift / tRump & Republicans being inappropriate 

The Kennedy Center Honors Were A Ratings Stinker

 

Host Cancels Xmas Eve Show At Kennedy Center

 

Grenell Vows To Sue Musician For $1M For Canceling Kennedy Center Show Due To Dear Leader’s Renaming

 

 

Trump Talks To Kids On Santa Hotline: You Want Clean Coal, I Won 2020 Election, Santa Might Be “Infiltrated”

 

Indiana GOP Rep Depicts Himself Pummeling Santa

 

 

 

tRump’s failing economy / Tariffs / The wealthy gaining more wealth while the rest of us get more poor.  

Wave Of Bankruptcies Upends US Spirits Industry

 

2025 Saw Over 50 New Billionaires Due To AI Ventures

 

Trump Celebrates Sharp Decline In Federal Employees

 

 

tRump wants total power to rule / 

Peters Asks Appeals Court To Honor Trump’s Pardon

Trump has retaliated against Colorado Gov. Jared Polis by denying FEMA reliefs for floods and wildfires and by ordering the dismantling of the nation’s premiere climate research facility.

 

 

tRump bribes / Fascism / Right wing media take over / 

Ellison Told Trump CBS News Will Get MAGA Makeover

Mr. Trump has privately said Larry Ellison assured him that he would turn CBS News, which the Ellisons took over when they bought Paramount, into a more conservative outlet, two people with knowledge of the president’s comments said.

 

CBS News Boss Defends Axing “60 Minutes” Exposé

 

 

The destruction of the environment / destroying renewable energy to push the dying fossil fuel industry / War for oil.  

The Energy Dept Wishes You A Sleigh Full Of Coal

Trump Admin Un-Retires Two Coal Plants Because Solar Power Doesn’t Work If The Sun Isn’t “Shining” [VIDEO]

As you can see above, Wright has adopted Trump’s stupid lies that solar and wind power simply turns off due to the weather at the moment.

 

 

Zelensky Says He’ll Meet With Trump In “Near Future”

 

Zelensky And Trump To Meet Sunday At Mar-A-Lago

Trump: I Get The Final Say On Any Ukraine-Russia Deal

 What Trump means is that he has to confer with his master in Moscow first.

 

 

Hate / DEI / Bigotry / Christians trying to take over the US / Christians forcing their church doctrines on all / Using the US might to enforce the Christian view / ICE / DHS

New Hate Crime Charge In LGBTQ Runners Case

Earlier this month it was reported that Mahmoud, who remains jailed without bond, may present a “gay panic” defense, which is legal in Florida but banned in 20 states and Washington DC.

 

US Carries Out Strikes On “ISIS Terrorists” In Nigeria

 

Trump Admin Went Full Theocracy In Xmas Messaging

Government officials have traditionally steered clear of such overtly religious language, as the Constitution bans an official state religion. The First Amendment’s establishment clause prohibits the government from establishing a religion or favoring one religion over another, while the free exercise clause protects the religious expression of all faiths.

 

Mass Deportations Expected To Ramp Up In 2026

 

 

 

The Epstein Files / DOJ /

Trump Melts Down At “Sleazebags” Over Epstein Files

 

US Healthcare / Vaccines / Conspiracy theories 

Sec. Felcher’s Latest Target: Vaccine “Aluminum Salts”

Earlier this month, members of the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention’s vaccine advisory committee — whom Kennedy selected after firing the previous group — suggested digging into concerns about aluminum salts, though large studies have found them to be safe.

 

NYC Sees Record ER Visits In “Super Flu” Outbreak

 

 

a couple clips about doctors from The Majority Report.

The Doctors On The Frontline Of Israel’s Genocide In Gaza

 

The good, bad and the ugly

Hello all.  I hope you are all having a grand Christmas.  I did.  I am … yet now I am struggling.  

See Ron’s sister has been with us for two weeks and she had been a great grand help.  She took over ever duty I had and helped me get back to the blog.   Plus she gave Ron a connection to his childhood and his youth.  Plus she gave me all her husband’s clothing and we are the same size.  So for Christmas I got a complete new wardrobe of shorts / pants / shirts / and dress stuff.   I was down to only two ill-fitting pair of old pants that hung off me.  So it was a timeless gift.  But her help was not done.

She brought big sister energy so while I have tried hard to get Ron to throw out old construction debris that he had piled in several rooms I never could get him to do so.  She did.  Then she got him to organize and pack away a lot of stuff he was just piling up.  I was so happy we got back to a having two rooms that we had lost to just Ron piling things in them.   But it gets even better.

She and Ron spent the time looking at places here that might fit her needs so she could be here in the winters instead of being up north and she has found what she wanted, she put in an offer and the people accepted.  So she will come stay with us on and off this winter and then next year be here full-time.  I love it.

Please understand I never had a caring sibling.  I met my wonderful “brother” Randy well into adulthood and Randy is everything an abused kid like myself could every hope for in a supportive sibling.  He has been the brother I always wanted … yet never had until a decade ago.  But Ron had a tight knit large family who cares for each other and really they do care and love each other.   Watching him and Diane this last two weeks has been amazing.  In a way I am jealous because no matter how hard they try to include me … they are in a world of their own past.  Having Ron’s sister as a part of our lives is going to be grand.  

So the adventure begins again.  She has already given me ideas on ways she can help if I wish.   But I love her ideas.  

Now the ugly and bad.  Off and on I have been struggling and doing everything to hide it from them.   Several times at night both the cat and Ron tried to wake me as I started to yell or scream out.  My nightmares have gotten much worse.  During the day while they were in the house I would come into my office, shut the door, and breakdown sobbing in tears.  I am trying so hard to hold it all together but the memories hurt so bad, they are there always now pushing at the walls I try to build up in my mind.  It used to be they were contained but now they are simply there, looking over the wall, shouting at me constantly trying to get my attention.  

I did what so many advised and I admitted to my primary care I needed help.  He was the first primary care I ever told of my abuse and he impressed me with how he handled the news and me after I told him.  But h           e sent me to their therapist on staff.  But she is a very young woman and she is a behavior therapist and I need a trauma therapist.  She is all about how to feel good, such as walk more each day, but I need someone to tell and get help for being a 3-year-old tied to the stair banisters with my arms strung up while I could barely touch the floor.  I was nude and sometimes I was blindfolded.  Either way I was hit or raped in this position.  I need someone to tell these memories to.  And it won’t be this 20 year old woman who wants me to think of how I can make my days happier by thinking of sunshine.  

So I have tried to do the best I can.  Tomorrow Ron will take his sister to the airport and on the way home get the supplies for me to make a tomato spaghetti meal for Randy.  Ron will make the meat balls while I make the sauce.   I will pretend I am OK and everything is great.  Yet inside I will hear the screams of a beaten raped little boy, I will ignore it while I make good for everyone around.    And when I lay my head down on the pillow after trying so hard to stop from doing so … the nightmares will come, the memories, the feelings, the screams trying so hard to burst out.  And I will control what I can, the cat or Ron will wake me if the noise from my mouth gets too loud.  A night of hopefully a bit of rest.   Only to wake early in the morning and get up to do it all again.   My life, over and over again.  Thank you for reading / listening.  It is hard to describe what my life is, but maybe this is the best example.  

Ron just went to bed.  He tried hard to get me to go with him.   He knows how hard it is for me and how it is getting harder.  The saddest point is he tries to help but doesn’t know how.  When I scream out at night he asks if he can hold me knowing that to just grab me or pull me to him will induce more trauma.  Having written this with the memories fresh in my mind I am scared to join him in the bedroom.  Yet I must.  How to finish this post?  I never wanted people to feel sorry for me, my life is what it is and what I have tried to make it.  Yet the idea of going to bed scares me.  

Yes I have a way to end this post.  As a kid from 8 to my teen years I would leave the local school and bike to the local town library in our little cow town.  I would stay there in safety instead of going home to be abused.   The local librarians must have known of my abuse because one of them gave me a book that described what abused boys could do to get help.  But like me they were afraid of the big bruiser gorilla that lived in my home that I had to return to.  So while I was not allowed to have books at home because that was not what a real boy did, they kept my books behind their desk for me … and every day I was beaten and every night I was raped.  But the next day I could go to that town library after school and lose my sore body in the books.  But no adult ever became my hero.  That was little Scotties life.  Good night.   Best wishes and hugs.  

 

 

Yesterdays news I want to share today or …

tRump’s illegal military war crime actions / tRump’s gift to the oil companies that paid him prior / This is a war crime and illegal / tRump trying to get other countries resources for his own profits / tRump grifts and seeking bribes 

Trump: We’re Keeping The Seized Oil And Ships

Trump: We Need Greenland For National Protection, I’m Sure We Were There With Boats 300 Years Ago [VIDEO]

It has nothing to do with US national security and all the minerals / traffic rights to make ships pay / and the “rare earth” metals that tRump wants a piece of.  It is about profit.   Hugs

 

Fox Host: The Vikings Are Gone, Let’s Seize Greenland

 

 

More Donors To President Liberace’s Ballroom Exposed

The paying tribute and bribes to tRump and his slush funds is so anti what the US should and used to stand for.  It is the very thing the founding fathers were most against.  The courts have gutted the holding of tRump to account but the emoluments cause is what this was designed to stop.    Ask yourself if Biden / Obama / Clinton had been so blatant in demanding bribes would you tRump cult supporters be OK with it still?   Hugs

 

Trump: Watch Kennedy Center Honors And Tell Me If I Should Resign To Be “Full Time Master Of Ceremonies”

 

$40M Melania Film To Premier At Kennedy Center

 

 

More Troops And Special Ops Aircraft Near Venezuela

 

Latest “Drug Boat” Strike Brings Murder Toll To 105

 

US Special Forces Expected To Board Oil Tanker

 

 

Jeff Landry: We’re Not “Trying To Conquer” Greenland

 

EU Leader Stands With Greenland Against Trump

 

 

FCC Bans Foreign Drones (Junior Sells US Drones)

 

Pentagon Adds Musk’s Pro-Hitler Grok To “Arsenal”

 

 

tRump’s handpicked legal lapdogs /  tRump legal woes / Canon still protecting tRump / ICE

Judge Blocks Jack Smith’s Final Report (For Now)

The appeals court told her to have it completely wrapped up by the first week of January and this is not doing that.  I expect more to happen fast with this.  She ignored the appeals court order to please tRump.

 

Axed “60 Minutes” Prison Abuse Expose Leaks Online

“There was blood everywhere, screams, people crying, people who couldn’t take it and were urinating and vomiting on themselves,” the college student from Venezuela who sought U.S. asylum, said. “Four guards grabbed me, and they beat me until I bled until the point of agony. They knocked our faces against the wall. That was when they broke one of my teeth.”

 

 

Bari Weiss Plans To Overhaul CBS News/60 Minutes

Voldemort: Everybody At “60 Minutes” Should Be Fired

 

 

 

New DHS Clip Turns Santa Claus Into ICE Agent

 

Voldemort Increasingly Targets Children Of Immigrants

Increasingly, he blames their children as well.

Mr. Miller’s belief that seven decades of immigration has produced millions of people who take more than they give — an assertion that has been refuted by years of economic data — is at the heart of the Trump administration’s campaign to restrict immigration and deport immigrants already in the country.

 

ICE Plans To Hold Over 80,000 Migrants In Warehouses

 

DOJ Sues After IL Bans ICE Arrests At Courthouses

 

Texas Builders Say ICE Has Crippled New Construction

 

 

Stupidity beyond belief and why do people believe it / Never challenge the dear leader / Cult of tRump

 

Trump: I’m Bringing Down Drug Prices By 3000%

 

Trump Screams That NY Times “Must Be Stopped”

 

Trump: Stephen Colbert Should Be “Put To Sleep”

 

Trump Shares Call To Have GOP Georgia Gov Arrested

 

Trump: Terminate Network Licenses For Criticizing Me

 

 

Hate / Bigotry / Racism / White Supremacy / Christian Nationalism / 

Oklahoma Instructor Fired In “The Bible Says So” Idiocy

Fulnecky has been trying to leverage her idiocy into a career as a MAGA influencer.

 

Erika Kirk Plugs Charlie’s Book In Xmas Message

 

 

tRump trying to hold on to power illegally / Jan 6th insurrectionists / trying to change the history everyone seen live / Scamming / Using the US treasury & taxpayer funds to pay off tRump cult members.  

Extremists To March On US Capitol “For Ashli Babbitt”

The U.S. Air Force will provide Jan. 6 rioter Ashli Babbitt with military funeral honors, reversing a Biden-era decision that denied her family’s request, according to a legal group that has represented her family.

 In June 2025, the Pentagon agreed to pay the Babbitt family a $5 million “wrongful death” settlement. Below, see the latest from Proud Boys leader Enrique Tarrio, who is himself reportedly suing the DOJ for $100 million.

 

 

19 Blue States Sue HHS Over Trans Youth Healthcare

 

 

US health system under tRump / US food safety under tRump / US health systems failing to protect the public under tRump

FDA Issues Yet Another Recall Of Radioactive Shrimp

 

VA Dept Bans Abortion And Abortion Counseling

 

Doctors Lament Record Rise In US Tetanus Infections

 

tRump ruining education / trying to keep students dumb and broke so wealthy have more power

Ed Dept To Garnish Pay Of Student Loan Borrowers

 

Epstein Files 

DOJ Seeks Holiday Volunteers To Do Epstein Redactions

 

DOJ: Mentions Of Trump In Epstein Files Are “False”

 

DOJ: We Just Found Over One Million More Epstein Docs

 

 

Some good news / People fighting back / Stopping ICE

Oregon Town Sues To Block Building Of ICE Gulag

 

Court: Trump Must Restore Disaster Aid For Blue States

 

DOJ Loses Challenge To New York Driver’s License Law